Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

steady hands · Post by **steady hands** » Mon Nov 26, 2007 3:58 am

i'm terrified that I won't be able to survive without si.

Bella Muerte · Post by **Bella Muerte** » Mon Nov 26, 2007 11:07 am

I can't stand anybody right now.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Mon Nov 26, 2007 2:55 pm

this weekend made me realise how much of myself i gave up to make you happy....i hate you for making me feel like that was the only way i could be with you. i hate myself more for actually doing it.

acdcrocker1909 · Post by **acdcrocker1909** » Mon Nov 26, 2007 9:45 pm

I'm scared that since I am getting better and being happier.. that I'll not have things in common with people.. and I won't be wanted anymore..

steady hands · Post by **steady hands** » Tue Nov 27, 2007 2:55 am

Recovery seems so unattainable right now. I’m not really sure I’ll ever make it there. Or even to a point where I can say I’m truly happy. And I hate it because it makes me feel weak.

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Tue Nov 27, 2007 4:22 am

sidvicious1903 wrote:Recovery seems so unattainable right now. I’m not really sure I’ll ever make it there. Or even to a point where I can say I’m truly happy. And I hate it because it makes me feel weak.

Recovery seeming unattainable itself is a symptom of depression

idork · Post by **idork** » Tue Nov 27, 2007 4:26 am

I'm frightened stiff about seeing a counselor. I want someone to actually say there is something wrong with me and not brush it aside.

Arcana · Post by **Arcana** » Tue Nov 27, 2007 4:54 am

I would rather be slow to recover with my friends at college than acting recovered at home with my family. I think it's all just because I want to see C. as much as I can before her graduates. I hope I still have a chance with him. G-d, all of this all over a boy? No, I still want to be on track to get my major and graduate on time, and I'm tired of being alone, so it's still about me.

calypso · Post by **calypso** » Tue Nov 27, 2007 8:38 am

I don't know who to turn to.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Tue Nov 27, 2007 7:51 pm

a boy i met only last night has made my insides turn to mush more times in the last 24hours then anyone has in ages.......im developing a crush on him, but the vulnerability that goes with that scares me.

acdcrocker1909 · Post by **acdcrocker1909** » Thu Nov 29, 2007 1:49 am

i'm scared that.. as I get better.. people won't realize.. that I'm being myself.. and assume I am being fake.. and I'm scared that will push me away from getting better.

mephistopheles · Post by **mephistopheles** » Thu Nov 29, 2007 1:51 am

i'd rather lie to you about it than go.

Seeshellz · Post by **Seeshellz** » Thu Nov 29, 2007 9:38 pm

I'm so down and depressed and messed up emotionally, I don't know what I'm doing here anymore, I wish everyday I didn't have to get up in the morning, what's the point? I hate feeling this way and I don't see a way out anymore.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Thu Nov 29, 2007 9:42 pm

you have no idea how much i like you and hope that when you meet me in person you'll still like me...

red umbrellas · Post by **red umbrellas** » Fri Nov 30, 2007 11:43 am

the only ones i care about, never care back.
i am a FOOL.

i'm so lost, but i'm still running

HakunaMatata · Post by **HakunaMatata** » Fri Nov 30, 2007 8:38 pm

*ED*Pm's welcome
I want to be thin. Not stupidly malnourished 'I could do an advert for a poverty appeal thin' Just normal. Where you don't have fat pockets, or curves. But you're straight, you can see a little bone, just enough to know you look after yourself and are in control of yourself/eating habbits. Instead of like a bulbous whale. It makes my blood boil and tears stream when I see thin people. Who say they're fat. I can't even purge right now, I'm too ill. I'll never get back the willpower I had to starve myself like I did. I have reasons, rewards, waiting for me to be thin. New piercings. And G's photo portfolio..she doesn't want a hippo in it, she wants an attractive girl. I don't want to carry on being here if I can't be who I want. I admit. I want to be thin. Not just physically. Mentally. I'm not even scared at the prospect of that. But y'know what I'll do? Carry on not exercising, ignoring the calories and eating myself away. It's like my minds got two parts. But the correct one isn't strong enough to overhaul the fat one yet.

Li'lRuby · Post by **Li'lRuby** » Fri Nov 30, 2007 10:27 pm

I just want someone to listen.

fadingbutterfly · Post by **fadingbutterfly** » Sat Dec 01, 2007 12:31 pm

I am at breaking point now and no one notices.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Sat Dec 01, 2007 6:53 pm

i really like you....i just hope that after next saturday you still really like me too....

red umbrellas · Post by **red umbrellas** » Sun Dec 02, 2007 8:20 am

you make me see how worthless i am without trying.
because all i want is for you to want me.
i feel desperate and pathetic and childish.
it hurts when i don't want it to.
i don't know how to make you want me.
yet, realistically, i know it would be impossible anyway.

bus

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