Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

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Post by FlyingOnBrokenWings » Thu Nov 01, 2007 11:02 am

I miss my mommy - not my mother - but the mommy that actually cared about me. The one that loved me for who I was - not worried about me all the time. The one that never hit me and cuddled me when my father did. I miss that mommy. Why'd she change.
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Post by wilson » Thu Nov 01, 2007 2:22 pm

i hung up the phone because i was sick of hearing you whinge and cry

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Post by HakunaMatata » Thu Nov 01, 2007 4:16 pm

I'm too scared to text you incase I don't get an answer. I don't want you to be dead.

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Post by caged bird » Fri Nov 02, 2007 12:39 am

i'm frightened of what's going to happene tomorrow, i'm so very very scared that i can't do this
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Being almost devastated is horrible because it lingers. But total devastation brings a kind of peace. It lets you give up.
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Post by shanny » Fri Nov 02, 2007 1:10 pm

i'm scared
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Post by Quiet little Angel » Fri Nov 02, 2007 3:52 pm

i'm prepared... if they call today and tell me he died i wont be shocked, i wont be surpriced, i know it'll happen sooner or later... it's all a matter of when... not if... he's my dad, and it might sound cold, but i've got it all planned out in my head... i can deal with it when it happens...

i've got plans to handle the deaths of almost everyone i know, exept my sister... i could never handle that...

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Post by mephistopheles » Fri Nov 02, 2007 4:42 pm

i like you more than i let on.
please come tonight.
you're the only thing that can stop me crying right now.
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Post by figment » Fri Nov 02, 2007 4:43 pm

i feel like nothing but everyone's ugly whore. and i want to believe i'm so much more
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Post by caged bird » Fri Nov 02, 2007 5:28 pm

i should be extatic, mostly i am, but part of me is sad that i'm not going to get the opportunity or the excuse to fall apart completely...idiot
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Being almost devastated is horrible because it lingers. But total devastation brings a kind of peace. It lets you give up.
Thieves and Kings: Volume Two by Mark Oakly

The line between normal and crazy seemed impossibly thin. A person would have to be an expert tightrope walker in order not to fall.
Running with scissors - Augusten Burroughs

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Post by WishIKnew » Fri Nov 02, 2007 7:10 pm

I haven't pitched for most of my final year exams
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Post by Li'lRuby » Fri Nov 02, 2007 9:16 pm

I've been a getting horrible marks in my psychology (72) and I just want to scream. My five out of seven pages of essay that I was working on was deleated after a school computer glitch.
I want to cut!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Post by vampirelover » Fri Nov 02, 2007 9:35 pm

the reason people say i smile too much is because i smile when im being fake

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Post by Callisto » Fri Nov 02, 2007 10:20 pm

time has healed nothing. it still hurts as much as it did the first time. it still makes me feel like i've been punched in the stomach and my hearts being ripped out.

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Post by Callisto » Sat Nov 03, 2007 5:52 pm

im sometimes at my most dangerous when im at my most philosophical

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Post by Li'lRuby » Sat Nov 03, 2007 6:57 pm

I want to cry
The old grey donkey, Eeyore stood by himself in a thistly corner of the Forest, his front feet well apart, his head on one side, and thought about things. Sometimes he thought sadly to himself, "Why?" and sometimes he thought, "Wherefore?" and sometimes he thought, "Inasmuch as which?" and sometimes he didn't quite know what he was thinking about.
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Post by HakunaMatata » Sat Nov 03, 2007 7:47 pm

:star: I wanted to go back to work so I wouldn't purge, cut or get high tonight. I'm not responsible enough to look after him for you. Cause when he goes to bed I just want to self destruct. It's like an elastic band...it's stretched to it's fullest tension, and when it snaps it breaks and hurts. And now I know I'm goin gto lose control. Because I don't care enough to try and stop it. And that's the bit that scares me most...not losing control, but not caring anymore.

:star: I'm jealous of people that have gone away to uni and found new friends and are having a good time, whilst I'm stuck here, not able to do what I want, having lost most of my friends. Not that there even was many in the first place. Which is why it hits to the core the most.

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Ache-me se for capaz HM's place- everyone welcome but please read first post!

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'You can't put a price on happiness. Follow your dreams'~ Mithz

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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Sat Nov 03, 2007 7:56 pm

one on hand I'm scared.. and yet on the other.. I'm.. elated.. and I don't know why..

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Post by HakunaMatata » Sat Nov 03, 2007 10:32 pm

Changes. In the space of a year

* I loved and lost
* I had my first kiss...then my first...now I don't even want to think about numbers...
* I lost x amount of weight then piled it back on and more so took up binging/purging
* I got drunk for the first time, enjoyed it, did it regularly...then I took up smoking...now drugs
* Dropped out of church
* I've had 3 jobs, left 2, got fired from 1

I can't see any good coming from pretty much any of that. And it's all in a year. I'm scared to think how it could carry on.


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Ache-me se for capaz HM's place- everyone welcome but please read first post!

'Love is worth everything. How much are you willing to risk?'~Umara, gone forever, forgotten never.
'You can't put a price on happiness. Follow your dreams'~ Mithz

I don't like country and western. I don't like rock music, I don't like rockabilly or rock and roll particularly. I don't like much, really, do I? But what I do like, I love passionately. ~ The Pet Shop Boys

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Post by Arcana » Sun Nov 04, 2007 12:11 am

i don't really believe that I'm getting any better. I don't believe that I'm really going to get better. I'm just learning how to be a better liar.

and i really want to drag him down with me, because i keep thinking i see that same desperation in his eyes that i see in mine every time i look in the mirror-- but i hope i'm wrong
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Post by Callisto » Sun Nov 04, 2007 2:00 pm

i wish somebody would care about me the way i've always cared about everyone else....

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