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FlyingOnBrokenWings · Post by **FlyingOnBrokenWings** » Thu Nov 01, 2007 11:02 am

I miss my mommy - not my mother - but the mommy that actually cared about me. The one that loved me for who I was - not worried about me all the time. The one that never hit me and cuddled me when my father did. I miss that mommy. Why'd she change.

wilson · Post by **wilson** » Thu Nov 01, 2007 2:22 pm

i hung up the phone because i was sick of hearing you whinge and cry

HakunaMatata · Post by **HakunaMatata** » Thu Nov 01, 2007 4:16 pm

I'm too scared to text you incase I don't get an answer. I don't want you to be dead.

caged bird · Post by **caged bird** » Fri Nov 02, 2007 12:39 am

i'm frightened of what's going to happene tomorrow, i'm so very very scared that i can't do this

shanny · Post by **shanny** » Fri Nov 02, 2007 1:10 pm

i'm scared

Quiet little Angel · Post by **Quiet little Angel** » Fri Nov 02, 2007 3:52 pm

i'm prepared... if they call today and tell me he died i wont be shocked, i wont be surpriced, i know it'll happen sooner or later... it's all a matter of when... not if... he's my dad, and it might sound cold, but i've got it all planned out in my head... i can deal with it when it happens...

i've got plans to handle the deaths of almost everyone i know, exept my sister... i could never handle that...

mephistopheles · Post by **mephistopheles** » Fri Nov 02, 2007 4:42 pm

i like you more than i let on.
please come tonight.
you're the only thing that can stop me crying right now.

figment · Post by **figment** » Fri Nov 02, 2007 4:43 pm

i feel like nothing but everyone's ugly whore. and i want to believe i'm so much more

caged bird · Post by **caged bird** » Fri Nov 02, 2007 5:28 pm

i should be extatic, mostly i am, but part of me is sad that i'm not going to get the opportunity or the excuse to fall apart completely...idiot

WishIKnew · Post by **WishIKnew** » Fri Nov 02, 2007 7:10 pm

I haven't pitched for most of my final year exams

Li'lRuby · Post by **Li'lRuby** » Fri Nov 02, 2007 9:16 pm

I've been a getting horrible marks in my psychology (72) and I just want to scream. My five out of seven pages of essay that I was working on was deleated after a school computer glitch.
I want to cut!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

vampirelover · Post by **vampirelover** » Fri Nov 02, 2007 9:35 pm

the reason people say i smile too much is because i smile when im being fake

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Fri Nov 02, 2007 10:20 pm

time has healed nothing. it still hurts as much as it did the first time. it still makes me feel like i've been punched in the stomach and my hearts being ripped out.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Sat Nov 03, 2007 5:52 pm

im sometimes at my most dangerous when im at my most philosophical

Li'lRuby · Post by **Li'lRuby** » Sat Nov 03, 2007 6:57 pm

I want to cry

HakunaMatata · Post by **HakunaMatata** » Sat Nov 03, 2007 7:47 pm

I wanted to go back to work so I wouldn't purge, cut or get high tonight. I'm not responsible enough to look after him for you. Cause when he goes to bed I just want to self destruct. It's like an elastic band...it's stretched to it's fullest tension, and when it snaps it breaks and hurts. And now I know I'm goin gto lose control. Because I don't care enough to try and stop it. And that's the bit that scares me most...not losing control, but not caring anymore.

I'm jealous of people that have gone away to uni and found new friends and are having a good time, whilst I'm stuck here, not able to do what I want, having lost most of my friends. Not that there even was many in the first place. Which is why it hits to the core the most.

acdcrocker1909 · Post by **acdcrocker1909** » Sat Nov 03, 2007 7:56 pm

one on hand I'm scared.. and yet on the other.. I'm.. elated.. and I don't know why..

HakunaMatata · Post by **HakunaMatata** » Sat Nov 03, 2007 10:32 pm

Changes. In the space of a year

* I loved and lost
* I had my first kiss...then my first...now I don't even want to think about numbers...
* I lost x amount of weight then piled it back on and more so took up binging/purging
* I got drunk for the first time, enjoyed it, did it regularly...then I took up smoking...now drugs
* Dropped out of church
* I've had 3 jobs, left 2, got fired from 1

I can't see any good coming from pretty much any of that. And it's all in a year. I'm scared to think how it could carry on.

Arcana · Post by **Arcana** » Sun Nov 04, 2007 12:11 am

i don't really believe that I'm getting any better. I don't believe that I'm really going to get better. I'm just learning how to be a better liar.

and i really want to drag him down with me, because i keep thinking i see that same desperation in his eyes that i see in mine every time i look in the mirror-- but i hope i'm wrong

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Sun Nov 04, 2007 2:00 pm

i wish somebody would care about me the way i've always cared about everyone else....

bus

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