Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by fadingbutterfly » Fri Oct 26, 2007 7:48 pm

Part of something that woman said to me the other day has stayed with me and now I'm even more reluctant to go to the police because of that.

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Post by Li'lRuby » Sat Oct 27, 2007 12:05 am

I'm hating life. In a downward spiral and can't seem to get out. The thoughts keep shouting at me but everytime I focus they leave. I just want to cut. I want to get my supplies back from my T. Nothing works. I hate this.
The old grey donkey, Eeyore stood by himself in a thistly corner of the Forest, his front feet well apart, his head on one side, and thought about things. Sometimes he thought sadly to himself, "Why?" and sometimes he thought, "Wherefore?" and sometimes he thought, "Inasmuch as which?" and sometimes he didn't quite know what he was thinking about.
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Post by caged bird » Sat Oct 27, 2007 2:34 pm

i wish i knew why it makes me so uncomfortable, i'm so fucking weird no one else has this problem

i'm so embarassed i must be a total freak :oops:
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Being almost devastated is horrible because it lingers. But total devastation brings a kind of peace. It lets you give up.
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Post by recovering/pastor » Sun Oct 28, 2007 2:43 am

I've almost reached my lifelong goal, and I'm struggling with what comes next. Because I don't know if I can stand it if this is all there is.
[no hugs necessary]

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Post by Callisto » Sun Oct 28, 2007 12:37 pm

the fact that you told me that you reckon i'll never go through with it has just made me even more determined to do it, just to prove you wrong.

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Post by fadingbutterfly » Sun Oct 28, 2007 8:04 pm

My heart is just about ready to give up now

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Post by Li'lRuby » Sun Oct 28, 2007 8:11 pm

I'm so scared.
The old grey donkey, Eeyore stood by himself in a thistly corner of the Forest, his front feet well apart, his head on one side, and thought about things. Sometimes he thought sadly to himself, "Why?" and sometimes he thought, "Wherefore?" and sometimes he thought, "Inasmuch as which?" and sometimes he didn't quite know what he was thinking about.
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Post by shannie1985 » Mon Oct 29, 2007 6:38 am

I'm scared that my family are starting to realize how depressed I am.
"When I stand before thee at days end, thou shalt see my scars and know that I've had my wounds and also my healing"
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Post by figment » Mon Oct 29, 2007 6:58 am

I am my problem
my place

a new beginning

[thanks to kabluey for the avatar]

RIP 27.12.08
I'll miss you forever. Xx

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Post by Binayshee » Mon Oct 29, 2007 7:36 am

i am still hung up on a man
i fell in love with over the internet
that i have never met
it's probably all the unknowns
feeding the fanatsy
i love fantasy
it's how i survived
fantasy is both "safe" and "exciting"
but it doesn't really get you where you want to be

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Post by wilson » Mon Oct 29, 2007 7:56 am

i run away when i think someone might be starting to feel what i did
<center>R.I.P. 23/07/89 - 05/11/01
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im over existing in limbo
im over the myths and placebos
i dont really mind if i just fade away
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Post by wilson » Mon Oct 29, 2007 1:02 pm

i dont feel welcome here anymore. i feel like a pest
<center>R.I.P. 23/07/89 - 05/11/01
R.I.P. 1953-2008

counting stars

im over existing in limbo
im over the myths and placebos
i dont really mind if i just fade away
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Post by Chaocontrol6 » Mon Oct 29, 2007 1:30 pm

I feel scared that I'm wrecking everyone else's lives as well as my own, I hate it so much!
Just let time tell the story, and act accordingly. (Phrase by myself)
H.A.L.T!!! (Genius!!)
These feelings too, shall pass. (BUS phrase?)
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Post by kendra » Tue Oct 30, 2007 4:49 am

if my body can hurt me why can't I hurt it?
I WON'T GIVE IN DAMN IT I REFUSE
but it's so hard... why?

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Post by mephistopheles » Tue Oct 30, 2007 9:49 am

I was going to try and die today.

Now I'm too tired.

I'm sorry I even thought about it. I don't know what came over me. It was a bit automatic.
“Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.”

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Post by red umbrellas » Tue Oct 30, 2007 11:18 am

i feel like i am a glutton for punishment.
because my feelings are so often meaningless - yet the results of them still hurt.
i'll never be anything to anyone i want to be someone to.
It's all life and fire and lunacy
And excuses and excuses and excuses

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Post by Callisto » Wed Oct 31, 2007 4:09 pm

i think you've successfully made me so nervous now by all shouting at me yesterday that i keep making stupid mistakes........thanks for that.

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Post by twinkletears » Wed Oct 31, 2007 5:03 pm

[size=0]one second im me the next i dont know who i am, i want to hurt let all the anger out but i dont i keep it inside and cut and what the thoughts in my head of all those "i deserve to die" etc, but you dont know so it cant hurt you or scare you just kill me but oh well i love you all i care is you.[/size]
:redstar::redstar::redstar: If you could look past my tears, past the fake smile on my face, see right inside me, feel my pain maybe then you would understand.:redstar::redstar::redstar:Image
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Post by caged bird » Wed Oct 31, 2007 9:29 pm

i.'.m. s.c.a.r.e.d............
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Being almost devastated is horrible because it lingers. But total devastation brings a kind of peace. It lets you give up.
Thieves and Kings: Volume Two by Mark Oakly

The line between normal and crazy seemed impossibly thin. A person would have to be an expert tightrope walker in order not to fall.
Running with scissors - Augusten Burroughs

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Post by Beasty » Wed Oct 31, 2007 10:37 pm

i think about her every single day.
"No boom today. Boom tomorrow. There’s always a boom tomorrow. What? Look, somebody’s got to have some damn perspective around here. Boom, sooner or later. BOOM!" - Susan Ivanova

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