Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by Spidey » Wed Oct 17, 2007 1:17 pm

i'm scared.

help me.
there is, in the end, the letting go.
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Post by kissthesky___x » Wed Oct 17, 2007 1:21 pm

i am here. i am living. i am a good person. no matter what you say. i am in recovery. i do not need to hurt myself by either OD'ing or anything else. because i'm better than letter my emotions/people get to me. i have people that care. that will always be there for me. i can't lose them. i can't lose myself in my emotions. things will get better. they have to.

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Post by daisy_chain » Wed Oct 17, 2007 5:27 pm

I wish you cared.
I'm just dreaming out loud.

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Post by kissthesky___x » Wed Oct 17, 2007 6:38 pm

explain to me why you can bloody forgive everybody else for something as pathetic as not being there for you when you need them to be, yet, you accuse me of something i haven't even done and claim you hate me? yet i'm the one that's been there for you when i hardly knew you. and i'm getting shunned for just being me. how do you think that makes me feel? i love the way you're so two faced and probably bitch me out every second of the day. shows how much i meant to you.

(not directed at anyone here.)

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Post by Chey Kizoxie » Wed Oct 17, 2007 6:56 pm

I am not listening to you any more
I am not going to let you make me feel like crap
You dont even exist
You are just nothing more then a bad memory that haunts me
You just keep your nasties to yourself
You arnt even realistic
You dont control me any more!

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Post by balletomane » Thu Oct 18, 2007 2:59 am

You fucking bitch. I am not stupid. I know you were in your room. I could hear you singing. Going silent when I knocked wasn't going to make me think that you weren't there. The appropriate response would have been to open the door and say "Sorry, b, I'm busy right now." And about that. I know you are always procrastinating anyway, so why is there never time for me when I do the hard work of asking for help. I always make time to listen to your rants. Which frankly don't interest me. Because when some boy's mom calls you fat and he tells you this (really, we both know, he was calling you fat, otherwise he wouldn't have repeated it), and you decide to date this kid who has no tact...I just don't have sympathy. Oh, but actually I do. And your rants do interest me, even if I try to claim otherwise. Because you are my friend and I care about you. I just wish you would care in return.

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Post by southsider » Thu Oct 18, 2007 7:06 am

i miss you so much.

thank you for listening to me and reading my super long emails lately. i love that you are so much more patient and nurturing than i am. i am grateful for who you are, what you have done for me, and what you do for the world. you amaze me.

i do hope i get to see you in five weeks- that'd be pretty awesome. otherwise- christmas, for sure.

i love you!
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Post by troubles undone » Thu Oct 18, 2007 8:29 am

i want you.
i want you here now.
i miss you laready and you've been gone a day.
i can't believe im saying this, but i dont think i can do this
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It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word

Love is just a hoax
so forget anything that you have heard
And live for the moment now"


"VITA YOY EST VIVERE SED VALERE VITA EST."
-There is more to life than just being alive.

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Post by Callisto » Thu Oct 18, 2007 11:45 am

you have no idea how much this hurts me.

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Post by kissthesky___x » Fri Oct 19, 2007 3:58 pm

i'm scared i'm going to lose you.
i'm scared that today i fucked you off by being honest with you.
i'm scared that i'm never going to find someone that makes me feel like you do each and every day.
i'm scared i can't fix myself let alone anyone else.
i'm scared i'm going to make things worse.

Chey Kizoxie

Post by Chey Kizoxie » Fri Oct 19, 2007 4:01 pm

Im scared to make progress cause then people think i dont need help any more
Im scared to start conversations cause I want to be honest and friendly but I dont have a lot of practice and im not confident
I want to show my interest, but I dont know how
I want to feel stronger but I dont know who to ask or how to ask

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Post by mephistopheles » Fri Oct 19, 2007 4:05 pm

I...don't know.


Maybe.


I said I quite like you...I meant I really like you. I like this.
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And hah. I made the right choice, so suck on that!
“Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.”

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Post by Chey Kizoxie » Fri Oct 19, 2007 4:09 pm

Im getting better but im afraid of the supports being stopped before I am truely better

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Post by 5th section » Fri Oct 19, 2007 6:42 pm

SORT IT OUT YOURSELF FOR ONCE!!!
...then one day I realised that the people you see in waiting rooms and car parks and on trains are really far more interesting. That they all have whole novels inside them, a fabric of scar tissues, photos and memories. They are comedies and tragedies and - more often - both at the same time.
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Post by Chey Kizoxie » Fri Oct 19, 2007 7:39 pm

[size=0]I am kinda feeling like i wont get a birthday post in main. Chey is thinking she knows why but kinda feels maby she is just being stupid and parinoid.[/size]

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Post by Arcana » Sat Oct 20, 2007 2:49 am

Ladies and gents....What the fuck? No, seriously, what the fuck?! I'm really tired of feeling like an outsider. I'm really tired, and really stressed, and really, really, really fucking scared. Everything's just getting worse, and I'm falling apart inside, and I'm tired of holding it together but I know that NONE of you asswipes care so I can't stop pretending. Just, pretend to see me for once when we pass each other, huh? I'm tired of being ignored and pushed aside and treated like a nuisance.

I doubt you'd fucking miss me if I went away...
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Post by twinkletears » Sat Oct 20, 2007 2:17 pm

WHY DO YOU HURT ME
:redstar::redstar::redstar: If you could look past my tears, past the fake smile on my face, see right inside me, feel my pain maybe then you would understand.:redstar::redstar::redstar:Image
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Post by travelgirl » Sat Oct 20, 2007 3:42 pm

I miss you everyday, and feel like it's all my fault, if Only I had taken 2 minutes to say I love you, mabey you wouldnt have left me. So I love you.

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Post by Beasty » Sat Oct 20, 2007 9:57 pm

I saw you today and my heart leapt. Only, now I'm not sure how I can keep going seeing you but never interacting with you. I miss your hugs
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Post by mephistopheles » Sat Oct 20, 2007 9:59 pm

shut up shut up shut up shut up!!

stop drunkenly blethering at him, he'll HATE you. and with good reason :evil:
“Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.”

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