Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by styled_wrong » Fri Oct 05, 2007 10:15 pm

yes im a tit i mess everything up and i was wrong but i think it was 6 of 1 half a dozen of another but hey i tried to let you know that i was still here but u obviously didnt care it hurts that u didnt care that you dont care. i give in now thanks :cry:
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Post by Binayshee » Sat Oct 06, 2007 11:29 am

i feel angry that you had to "one up" me in that
last conversation. how could you think we were
so "together" on everything? you just take your
perception and say "we." sometimes i don't
think you see me at all. i'm like a "thing" in
your world that you change mentally and
move around.

why do you always have to try and fix things
and give advice? don't you have any faith at
all in this process i am going through? i am
turning into the butterfly right before your
eyes and you give me advice about how
to break out of the cocoon. and i didnt' ask
for your advice. i didn't want it and i didn't
need it.

why can't you just sit back and go,
"wow!" i know why. it's because
if you aren't the one with the answers,
if you aren't "helping people" it's akin
to annhilation, isn't it? it's such a part
of your identity. it's how you feel good
about you.

let's just be clear, you do it for YOU
and not for ME. because while it makes
you feel competent and in control it
makes me feel the exact opposite.

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Post by Callisto » Sat Oct 06, 2007 4:40 pm

i give up.

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Post by mephistopheles » Sat Oct 06, 2007 6:16 pm

i'm sorry about last night. about being a state. i'm sorry i couldn't. and i'm sorry for saying sorry so much.

and i'm sorry i couldn't tell you the real reason i was upset. but i was so fucking happy that you noticed i was.

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i am going to get my first.
i am going to do my masters.
and then i am going to come and visit you and wave my fucking degrees in your face. because i can and will do this.

oh yes. just you watch. i'll surpass even your wildest dreams.
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Post by Roxi » Sat Oct 06, 2007 10:38 pm

"I can't believe you do drugs. Do you know what this does to me? Do you have any idea the impact this has on my life? I can't cope with this pain of seeing you do this.

It makes me feel helpless b/c i know there's nothing i can do, yet i still try. I love you, but i am finding this all very hard to deal with.

You're not the person you used to be- i miss him, i miss my dad. I cant deal with the guilt of thinking that there was somethingi could have done, and feeling that it's somehow my fault.

I understand that you have issues, but i am so angry with you right now."
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Post by Licentia Poetica » Sun Oct 07, 2007 3:33 pm

please don't forget me :(
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Post by Callisto » Sun Oct 07, 2007 4:40 pm

you flirting with me makes me act like a school kid all over again.....part of me still can't believe that its really happening.

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Post by twinkletears » Sun Oct 07, 2007 4:45 pm

im such an idiot im sorry

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Post by Chey Kizoxie » Sun Oct 07, 2007 6:55 pm

Why do you have to be so rude when your telling "jokes"

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Post by kissthesky___x » Sun Oct 07, 2007 7:38 pm

i have hope.

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Post by troubles undone » Sun Oct 07, 2007 8:05 pm

fuck off out of my face with this shit. again.
i wish you'd have leant the first time round. its not fucking nice.
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Post by Callisto » Sun Oct 07, 2007 8:49 pm

you make me feel pretty.
you make me feel wanted.
you make me smile.

and right now i really wish you were here so i could kiss you.

and these are all things i never thought i'd think or feel again.

thank you.

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Post by Beasty » Sun Oct 07, 2007 9:42 pm

Thank you for reminding me that you care.
But I really didn't want you to see me.
I didn't want anyone to see me.

I don't deserve that message. Please, can I see you, face to face?





Why am I fantasizing about him? That is beyond wrong and twisted. I'm so ashamed.
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Post by Spidey » Sun Oct 07, 2007 10:21 pm

i don't want to do this anymore.
there is, in the end, the letting go.
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Post by Quiet little Angel » Mon Oct 08, 2007 7:16 am

i'm sorry... but living with you has been hell... you guys are so selfcentered i can't bear it... i know i'm saying i'll miss living with you, but the truth is i wont... i can't wait to not have to do things your way anymore... can't wait to hear how badly things are going once i'm moved out and you guys will have to actually make it work on your own... who's going to wash your clothes? do the dishes? make dinner on wednsdays? take out the trash? you'll be fighting... Ki will move out and L and M will break up... that's how i see it...
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Post by kissthesky___x » Mon Oct 08, 2007 10:03 am

you, give me hope. i swear to god i need some way to repay you. we can do this babe, together. because, after three years of not giving up on you i don't think i ever could. i love you.

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Post by kissthesky___x » Mon Oct 08, 2007 4:00 pm

explain to me why you're having a go at me when you can bloody see i'm trying to do two days worth of coursework and then trying to finish the whole fucking thing in a week because your stupid arsehole of a son thinks i can do it? unless you want me to work myself into the fucking ground tonight you can just cut me some fucking slack. you don't have any fucking clue how much i have riding on this, if i don't produce this to a high standard i get kicked off the fucking course. to be honest, i don't think you really care. you don't give me any fucking support anyways. all you do is try and make me do things when you can see i'm trying to do something else that is actually going to help me get some form of education. would you rather i just gave the fuck up? or would you rather i turned out just like him? quite frankly, you went on and on and on at me to get some grades for a whole fucking year and then when i didn't you said it was fine, what the fuck? and then, this is the best part, when i was in fucking tears pouring my heart out because i'd fucking tried my hardest all year you said i'd "made the wrong choices" and agreed with him that i never put in any effort. you know that's bullshit. you fucking know. yet all you fucking care about is your fucking housework. i obviously mean nothing to you. no wonder i don't talk to you about things. you'd never understand.

*sigh*

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Post by DecemberLivy » Mon Oct 08, 2007 4:31 pm

i'm so sick of hearing your self-pitying whine all the time, you complain about everything and its pissing me off. you're in a foul mood all day and you make me feel like crap when i'm in a good mood.
fucking cheer up.
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Post by amyfairy » Mon Oct 08, 2007 7:33 pm

there's a popularity order even here on bus. :roll:
it pisses me off cause i know i'll never be good enough for people.
i can't be bothered, really. just like real life.

i can't freaking deal at the moment
but i am ok really.
god amy

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Post by rainbow_rally » Mon Oct 08, 2007 8:08 pm

god i fucking hate this place, i wish i was never born, its the same old shit, i try doing family things and being with my family but they push me away or i isolate myself :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry:

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