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Post by steady hands » Wed Oct 03, 2007 3:44 am

For fuck’s sake, could you try not being a bitch for once?
I am SO FUCKING SICK of you and your narcissistic bullshit and your vanity.
You don’t even realize how much you fucking hurt him, you whore.
He won’t fucking talk to me now, thanks a lot for that.

I’m still waiting for the day you choke.





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Post by the edge of the world » Fri Oct 05, 2007 1:19 am

I hate therapy. I hate sitting there and talking about me. I hate sitting there and explaining all the details of my life and getting nowhere. I hate the question "how did that make you feel?" I don't fucking remember how I felt when I was seven years old. I can barely remember what I ate for breakfast or whether I ate breakfast. How am I suppose to remember how i felt at seven? I don't care how I got here. I just want to get better. I hate this. I hate feeling like I have to hide my mind because it's dark. It's not like I'm going to kill myself anymore, but of course they thoughts haven't completely disappeared. They've shifted. I hate that everything is dull. I hate that this distant remembering just makes everything feel more dull. I hate that I pay money and go through all this effort with my stupid health insurance just to sit there and fester while jabbering on about nothing in particular. There is NOTHING in what we talk about. It makes me want to break something. It makes me what to hurt to just to feel something again than to be reminded, you are dull you are dull you are dull. NOd nod, and how does that make you feel? bang bang, that's how it makes me feel, dammit! there are no strong feelings right now, I don't know how I feel, STOP ASKING!

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Post by steady hands » Fri Oct 05, 2007 3:23 am

stop it you fucking whore!!
go antagonize someone else.






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Post by MusicalMorphine » Fri Oct 05, 2007 4:48 pm

I cannot write this stupid essay at all. It's been nearly two weeks since it was set, I was supposed to hand it in monday but I hadn't finished it and I didn't have that teacher for the rest of the week, and I didn't go see him for help because I didn't want to and I figured I would be able to pull something out. But I really really don't know what to write.

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Post by Beasty » Sun Oct 07, 2007 6:12 pm

*think Prof. Higgins in My Fair Lady* Damn damn damn damn damn. I really didn't mean for anyone to see me! I want a gosh darned invisibility button!!!! Can I order one of those?
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Post by kissthesky___x » Mon Oct 08, 2007 2:42 pm

i'm sorry, but, jesus fucking christ, get a life.

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Tue Oct 09, 2007 1:31 am

I CANT DO ALL THESE FREAKING ASSIGNMENTS.

I'M TOO STUPID.
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Post by Arcana » Thu Oct 11, 2007 5:24 pm

I KNOW that I don't have schitzophrenia. I am well aware of that fact. Did I say I was afraid of being schitzophrenic? No. I said I was unhappy and had eating issues.

So fuck you very much, and goodnight!
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Post by xunwrittenx » Thu Oct 11, 2007 5:30 pm

THIS ILLNESS PISSES ME OFF! GO AWAY

I HATE BEING SICK! :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil:
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Post by twinkletears » Thu Oct 11, 2007 6:16 pm

I HATE ME
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Post by Porcelain_Doll » Sat Oct 13, 2007 1:56 am

Why don't you get what this means to me?!?!?!
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Post by MusicalMorphine » Sat Oct 13, 2007 1:33 pm

Most people have at least one person that they can talk to about anything, someone they know is going to be there for them no matter what, someone to laugh with and to cry with, a brother, a sister, a best friend. I have no one.
It's Saturday afternoon and I'm still sitting at home. I wanted to go to the cinema today, I posted a bulletin on myspace to see if anyone wanted to come, then go down to the bonfire tonight, but no-one replied. I text my friend, who half the the time doesn't reply to me anyway, and asked her what she was doing tomorrow, but no reply.
I must be a really lame person not to be able to find one single person to go to town with.

I suck, maybe even more than I thought.

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Post by twinkletears » Sat Oct 13, 2007 1:34 pm

what do i do
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Post by Licentia Poetica » Sat Oct 13, 2007 2:17 pm

I have fucking scars. Yes. Get over it.

What's done is done, how is yelling at me now going to help? What do you want me to fucking do, wave my magic wand and make them go away?? WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO.

They are SCARS not cuts. If they were CUTS they wouldn't be half FADED, would they?

Fuck you.
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Post by Binayshee » Sun Oct 14, 2007 10:23 pm

you're such a naricissitic little f*ck. you have to
put yourself at the tope of the pile, even if it means
stepping on other people's feelings to get there.
invalidating f*ck! :evil:

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Post by Beasty » Wed Oct 17, 2007 2:28 am

fucking major league baseball. taking up House's time slot.

I IS NEEDING MAH HOUSE!!!
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Post by Spidey » Wed Oct 17, 2007 1:19 pm

SilverCandlesticks wrote:fucking major league baseball. taking up House's time slot.

I IS NEEDING MAH HOUSE!!!
i is needing mah baseball ;)
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Post by Beasty » Wed Oct 17, 2007 1:23 pm

Pink Spider wrote:
SilverCandlesticks wrote:fucking major league baseball. taking up House's time slot.

I IS NEEDING MAH HOUSE!!!
i is needing mah baseball ;)
roffle. heathen :P
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Post by Spidey » Wed Oct 17, 2007 1:27 pm

SilverCandlesticks wrote:
Pink Spider wrote:
SilverCandlesticks wrote:fucking major league baseball. taking up House's time slot.

I IS NEEDING MAH HOUSE!!!
i is needing mah baseball ;)
roffle. heathen :P
xD

i've never seen an episode of house....ever xD
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Post by Roxi » Wed Oct 17, 2007 6:24 pm

pink spider, you should watch house- it is legendary. I love House's cyniscm...

anywho- rant of the day:

*brace yourself*

THIS IS SO FREAKING RIDICULOUS! ALL I WANT TO DO IS STOP CUTTING MYSELF BUT IT IS SO HARD, I REALISE THIS- AM WILLING TO GO IP BUT PEOPLE ARE MAKING THIS EXCEPTIONALLY HARD FOR ME. I HATE BEING A CHILD AND HAVING TO RELY ON OTHERS TO BE COMPETENT AND GET STUFF DONE! MY FATHER DOES NOT UNDERSTAND THIS, IF HE DID HE WOULDNT HAVE USED MY THERAPY AS SOME TYPE OF LEVERAGE IN HIS DIVORCE FIGHTS AND SUCH. NOW THE SCHOOL COUNCILLOUR AND MY T (WHO ISNT MY T FOR THE MEANTIME, DUE TO COMPLICATIONS AND THE FACT THAT MY DAD IS A IMMATURE GIT!) ARE HAVING TO CONFER WITH EACHOTHER AND I DONT EVEN KNOW WHATS HAPPENING. I JUST WANT TO GET BETTER ASAP. I AM WILLING TO GO IP . I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF THIS. HOW OFTEN DO THEY HAVE A 16 YEAR OLD WHO IS WILLING TO DO THIS!!!!????I HAVE PAST THE WHOLE DENIAL THING AND JUST WANT SOME NORMALITY IN MY LIFE. I CANT DO IT ON MY OWN. HOW BAD DO THEY WANT IT TO GET???? I NEED MORE HELP. CANT THEY SEE THIS!???!! I SLIPPED AGAIN TODAY . THIS IS SO STUPID AND HAS GONE WAY TOO FAR!!

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