Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by southsider » Wed Sep 12, 2007 8:37 pm

Dear you,

I feel like I should respect you, but I don't really LIKE you. I feel guilty for not being able to hold you in the high regard I've always been told that I SHOULD. You've done a lot to lose respect in my eyes. I don't want to give you another chance because I don't think I can be honest with you about a lot of things in my life-- both things I've chosen and things I've had foisted upon me. Also, I'm afraid that you'll think I'm a failure.

I think that, on some level, I'm always going to have respect for you, simply by virtue of what you've been to me. However, that's completely overshadowed by the fact that I have no respect for you and don't see eye to eye with you about anything.

I doubt your level of honesty.

And I don't want to be a pawn or a trophy any more.

I feel like it's a waste of my time to communicate with you, because I can't be myself around you, and I can't level with you about things that go on in my life because you'll then treat me like I'm some stupid child who can't take care of herself... even though I've been taking care of myself for some time, now.

I know that I'm not giving you a lot of credit, but I just can't bring myself to give you another chance. Even though it's been so long. Even though I fear that I'm burning my bridges. Even though you're probably talking about me like I'm Satan incarnate. I can't bring myself to become ensconced in that vortex of bullshit again. Not now, maybe not ever. There's too much at stake.

Sorry.
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Post by indianamom » Thu Sep 13, 2007 1:00 am

Hey mom, it would have been nice to have been treated like a daughter instead of a pet that required food and shelter.

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Thu Sep 13, 2007 1:54 am

:wavey:

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Post by _____iamacliche » Thu Sep 13, 2007 10:17 am

well i proved all you bitches wrong. i got on the fucking course. fuck you!

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Post by fadingbutterfly » Thu Sep 13, 2007 12:08 pm

C - I think it's really selfish that you won't even give it a chance, what you lasted 5 days and came home again. That's just wrong. I would give anything to be there now.

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Post by 5th section » Thu Sep 13, 2007 12:58 pm

one day I'll be the one who lets you down and then you'll notice me alright.
Isn't it obvious I'm only round here until I hve to be? then I'll be off. For good.
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Post by calypso » Thu Sep 13, 2007 3:10 pm

- I wish you weren't lying when you said you missed me.

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Post by Beasty » Thu Sep 13, 2007 4:49 pm

I want to see you, but I think that you'll get sick of me and annoyed with me.
I want to just cry on your shoulder and earn your comfort, but I am afraid that it will only be an inconvenience.
I want to tell you how miserable I'm feeling at the moment, but I can't stop myself from saying, "I'm fine."
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Post by fadingbutterfly » Thu Sep 13, 2007 6:48 pm

Asshole leave me alone please. I cant take it tonight :(

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Post by Porcelain_Doll » Thu Sep 13, 2007 9:35 pm

Fuck you! You're supposed to stand up for me, to not let people mess with me. How could you just sit there and do nothing!?!
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Post by fadingbutterfly » Thu Sep 13, 2007 11:51 pm

I don't have an eating disorder. I don't. I don't. I don't.
I know that I don't.

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Post by Beasty » Fri Sep 14, 2007 2:19 am

Thank you for the ride out to my car when it was pouring rain today. It was amazing just to see you.
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Post by wilson » Fri Sep 14, 2007 3:32 am

if you dont like me fucking tell me to my face. im sick of hearing about your bitching behind my back
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Post by southsider » Fri Sep 14, 2007 4:03 am

nevermind, sorry
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Post by Scatterbrain » Fri Sep 14, 2007 7:04 am

Thank you.
Thank you for talking with me.
Thank you for listening to me.
Thank you for giving me the wonderful advice that you always have.
Thank you for sitting in the cold with me for an hour.
Thank you for caring.
Thank you for getting upset when I accused you of not caring.
Thank you for the hug.
Thank you so much for being there.

I love you.

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Post by _____iamacliche » Fri Sep 14, 2007 11:53 am

two words: i'm sorry.

R;

i need you to be okay, babe. please be okay. i love you, i hope you know that.

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Post by _____iamacliche » Fri Sep 14, 2007 1:03 pm

for once, i've done nothing wrong here. nothing fucking wrong. i give up. it's always the same with you. i might as well just fuck off for good if you're gonna be like this.

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Post by Callisto » Fri Sep 14, 2007 3:12 pm

for someone who keeps threatening to leave me and never speak to me again you seem to be hanging around an awful lot. i wish you'd just hurry up and go, you're just annoying now.

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Post by troubles undone » Fri Sep 14, 2007 5:15 pm

how many times have 'we' been here before.
how many times have 'we' said this.
and how many times have 'we' gone back on 'our' word?

its all bullshit.
you're bullshit.

if only you knew people are laughing at you now
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Post by Cellardoor » Fri Sep 14, 2007 5:20 pm

im cutting again.

im so sorry.
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