Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by Skyeler » Sat Jul 28, 2007 12:50 am

Sometimes I'm afraid that the only reason I don't feel like driving my car over the edge of a cliff is because my son is in the backseat.

I'm scared that I'm not better, but that my wife and my son make me better. I'm so scared of what I would do without them.



Most of the time I feel like I don't belong.
But I got my new favorite record today.
My favorites change every single day.
Except you,
You'll always be number one.
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Post by rawkstar05 » Sat Jul 28, 2007 6:10 am

You hurt me more than you'll ever know. And I fear I'll never be loved in return


PM's o.k.
we were ment to live for so much more

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Post by mywildrainbow » Sun Jul 29, 2007 1:40 am

i don't know what i want to do with my life....i'm not even sure i want to keep on living any longer
"And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom" -Anais Nin

"Loneliness. It's a thing, you know, not a feeling. A big, ugly thing that moves in and takes over until you forget how to live with it, but you can't live without it either" -M.B. Miller

*mwr's deliberately random poetry* http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=97247

where the wild things are http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=113478

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Post by thelorax » Sun Jul 29, 2007 9:09 am

I don't think I believe in love anymore.
I feel it, I'm just too exhausted to think that it means anything.


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Post by marshmallowfluff » Sun Jul 29, 2007 4:14 pm

i. cant. do. this. anymore.
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Post by mywildrainbow » Sun Jul 29, 2007 10:37 pm

i'm so frustrated that i don't even know what i'm frustrated about the most anymore...but i think that it is you
"And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom" -Anais Nin

"Loneliness. It's a thing, you know, not a feeling. A big, ugly thing that moves in and takes over until you forget how to live with it, but you can't live without it either" -M.B. Miller

*mwr's deliberately random poetry* http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=97247

where the wild things are http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=113478

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Mon Jul 30, 2007 7:23 am

I wish I had kinetic powers.

My kitten is sleeping peacefully on my legs. My quickly cooling coffee is on the other side of the room.
:redstar: the time to tell a person you care is now :redstar: the paper crane chain of hope :redstar:

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Post by red umbrellas » Mon Jul 30, 2007 10:08 am

i know leaving again is just trying to run from myself. but i don't feel i can ever change without an entirely 'new life' - new job, new place, new friends. but how many times i can go searching, i just don't know.
and these days, everything seems to take too much effort. even to keep searching is really feckin -hard-
It's all life and fire and lunacy
And excuses and excuses and excuses

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Post by Peege » Wed Aug 01, 2007 10:28 pm

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And the birds up on the wires and the telegraph poles
They can always fly away from this rain and this cold


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Post by Mistress » Wed Aug 01, 2007 10:51 pm

I see you.
so here's us, on the raggedy edge...

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Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering,
fearing,
Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream
before...

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Post by mywildrainbow » Thu Aug 02, 2007 2:47 am

seeing how loving you are with her makes me sometimes wish i was your daughter
"And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom" -Anais Nin

"Loneliness. It's a thing, you know, not a feeling. A big, ugly thing that moves in and takes over until you forget how to live with it, but you can't live without it either" -M.B. Miller

*mwr's deliberately random poetry* http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=97247

where the wild things are http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=113478

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Post by horsegirl274 » Fri Aug 03, 2007 2:30 am

i wish everyone knew the truth and realize im not the happy person they think i am. but the same time im afraid they'll hate me and reject me instead of telling me to stop.

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Post by kittyfever » Sat Aug 04, 2007 8:33 pm

I spent so much time obsessing over you [and getting hurt in the process] that I have a hard time being genuinely loved--I can't believe I still care for you..I can't believe I miss you.

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Post by Scatterbrain » Sun Aug 05, 2007 6:06 am

I want you. You told me you love me and I said it back. but it was different.. I think my feelings are coming back for you. plus, you looked fucking hott last Sunday.

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Post by cracked.aga » Sun Aug 05, 2007 7:54 pm

i've had this pain in my chest for so long.
i want it gone.
how much longer do i have to wait for it to disappear?

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Post by Spidey » Sun Aug 05, 2007 9:34 pm

I understand. I get it. I <i>get it</i>.
there is, in the end, the letting go.
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(spidey ever onward)

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Post by Beasty » Mon Aug 06, 2007 5:14 pm

I started to really like her.
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Post by Callisto » Wed Aug 08, 2007 8:06 am

im scared. scared that the feelings are only one way. because im falling for you more and more at the moment.

i miss you terribly

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Post by Skyeler » Thu Aug 09, 2007 5:27 am

I'm scared


Most of the time I feel like I don't belong.
But I got my new favorite record today.
My favorites change every single day.
Except you,
You'll always be number one.
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Post by kittyfever » Thu Aug 09, 2007 5:59 am

I cry when I'm not with you..but sometimes I'm scared to be by your side.

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