How you feel & what you're going to DO about it.
- pretty
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Exhausted, drained, low.
Get up from my desk, walk to the toilets (it's far enough to be an escape), make a coffee, avoid working for a bit longer. Eat something nice from my lunchbox, think about the things I've got to look forward to.
Get up from my desk, walk to the toilets (it's far enough to be an escape), make a coffee, avoid working for a bit longer. Eat something nice from my lunchbox, think about the things I've got to look forward to.
'this is what she says gets her through it,
"if I don't let myself be happy now, then when?"' - jimmy eat world
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"if I don't let myself be happy now, then when?"' - jimmy eat world
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- MusicalMorphine
- growing roots
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empty, like i can't feel the pain im holding onto... like i can't grasp the fear and that medicine has made me feel better and function, but now i cant deal with what happened because i cant feel the raw anger and fear...
...watch tv, maybe go to the library, i dont know how to feel.
...watch tv, maybe go to the library, i dont know how to feel.
Virginia Tech <i>for life</i><br>rip <b>MSP</b> 4-16-07<br>
- Porcelain_Doll
- growing roots
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Tired. Lonely. Unwanted.
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I'm going to bo to bed early and figure out when Sophie's coming to visit. Make a mental list of good things about myself.
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I'm going to bo to bed early and figure out when Sophie's coming to visit. Make a mental list of good things about myself.
Never to suffer would never to have been blessed.
-Edgar Allan Poe
http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=110034
-Edgar Allan Poe
http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=110034
- fourleafclover89
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sad, tired, worried
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set myself little manageable chunks of work to do, get up and have a break occasionally
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set myself little manageable chunks of work to do, get up and have a break occasionally
approaching 1 year SI-free and getting slightly triggery..
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- one out of none
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i did meditate for about 40 mintues this
afternoon and it really helped.
but this evening i got into trouble again
and i felt really tired and sad and scared
and empty, kind of. and i chose to do my
self injuring behavior and now i just feel
more deflated or something. i guess what
i should do is pack up our stuff and do all
the things i should have done earlier since
i'm up so late anyway.
afternoon and it really helped.
but this evening i got into trouble again
and i felt really tired and sad and scared
and empty, kind of. and i chose to do my
self injuring behavior and now i just feel
more deflated or something. i guess what
i should do is pack up our stuff and do all
the things i should have done earlier since
i'm up so late anyway.
- one out of none
- bus addict
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- xCheerUpFailurex
- creating your space
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- loveLights
- meeting the neighbors
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- Joined: Fri Apr 20, 2007 7:48 pm
numb,
in a fog,
like nothing is real,
lonely like i can't connect
not give up. i will not si!!! i will call my friends. i will call my brother. i will go through the entire coping forum if i have to. i will bother every myspace friend i can! i will post in every myspace si group i'm a part of. i will play with my kids. i will not si!
in a fog,
like nothing is real,
lonely like i can't connect
not give up. i will not si!!! i will call my friends. i will call my brother. i will go through the entire coping forum if i have to. i will bother every myspace friend i can! i will post in every myspace si group i'm a part of. i will play with my kids. i will not si!
- purplefroggydishwasher
- knows the ropes
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angry, hurt, frustrated, destructive
i will cruise bus and smoke until i think i can control myself then i will make contact about this whole dixie thing and try to see what is hapepning. i will ask advice from my sisters about what i can do and i will try to refrain from kicking things.
i will cruise bus and smoke until i think i can control myself then i will make contact about this whole dixie thing and try to see what is hapepning. i will ask advice from my sisters about what i can do and i will try to refrain from kicking things.
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- morning-glory
- bus mechanic
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I feel very fearful, overwhelmed, angery and disorganized right now.
To help I'm going to make a schedule of my week, exercise to help get rid of the anxiety, set a time limit for my homework and preparing for the interview. Then after that I'm going to make sure I eat healthy and get enough sleep tonight. And maybe do something fun for myself.
To help I'm going to make a schedule of my week, exercise to help get rid of the anxiety, set a time limit for my homework and preparing for the interview. Then after that I'm going to make sure I eat healthy and get enough sleep tonight. And maybe do something fun for myself.
- pretty
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Tired, anxious, stressed.
Do some nice relaxing things this afternoon, make the most of not being at work. Maybe read, maybe have a bath and do my hair so that's one less thing to worry about in the morning.
Do some nice relaxing things this afternoon, make the most of not being at work. Maybe read, maybe have a bath and do my hair so that's one less thing to worry about in the morning.
'this is what she says gets her through it,
"if I don't let myself be happy now, then when?"' - jimmy eat world
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"if I don't let myself be happy now, then when?"' - jimmy eat world
place
- pretty
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exhausted
broken
sad
like a bit of a failure
and really anxious
I've put the heater on because I'm cold, and I'm eating and I made a big mug of tea. I'm going to have a nap this afternoon and read in bed maybe with a hot water bottle. I'm going to take care of myself.
I'm going to get organised, get a grip, and get to work tomorrow.
broken
sad
like a bit of a failure
and really anxious
I've put the heater on because I'm cold, and I'm eating and I made a big mug of tea. I'm going to have a nap this afternoon and read in bed maybe with a hot water bottle. I'm going to take care of myself.
I'm going to get organised, get a grip, and get to work tomorrow.
'this is what she says gets her through it,
"if I don't let myself be happy now, then when?"' - jimmy eat world
place
"if I don't let myself be happy now, then when?"' - jimmy eat world
place
- one out of none
- bus addict
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A bit upset, but I don't know why. I keep crying even though there's no reason to. Which is weird.
Because I don't know why I'm upset, I think I'll just do some general things to make myself feel better. Play guitar, listen to something nice from my music collection, maybe make myself some nice coffee or something. I don't know.
Because I don't know why I'm upset, I think I'll just do some general things to make myself feel better. Play guitar, listen to something nice from my music collection, maybe make myself some nice coffee or something. I don't know.
- pretty
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Yucky.
Have a bath, do my hair pretty (even though it'll get rained on and ruined ), read, go out later. *nods*
Have a bath, do my hair pretty (even though it'll get rained on and ruined ), read, go out later. *nods*
'this is what she says gets her through it,
"if I don't let myself be happy now, then when?"' - jimmy eat world
place
"if I don't let myself be happy now, then when?"' - jimmy eat world
place
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