Candys Coping Thread
Candy's Coping Thread
I had a great night sleep last night,even though I slip with SI and I do feel guitly about that,but today I am going to do my nails and write in my journal,it had been a hard time for me,cause the friends that I got into fight with are still not speaking to me and it does hurt,but I can not do anything about it,cause I did try to talk to them and they are not talking about,so I know that I have to let it go,even though it does hurt inside. I am going to enjoy my day and not let it get to me.I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I will be ok,even though it is not easy all the time. I am hanging in there. I will be back on the bus later on.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I did my nails and that help relax me.Then I took a nap,cause I was soo tired and then when I got up I wrote in my journal,it was hard to write about uncomfortable emotions but I did it,at the time I was writing about it I was feeling anxious,but I got through it and afterwards I feel better.It is like when I have uncomfortable emotions and the urges get soo strong,that if I can sit through them or do something positive they go away,the emotions. I feel soo much better now.My boy-friend is coming over and we are going out for awhile,he will be here at 3pm.I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing.It has been soo rough for me the past few days,and slipping with SI,made me feel worse,but I am ok now,and I am not going to let it ruin my day.I am going to be alright. I will be back on the bus later on. 
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I am doing alright so far. I went with my boy-friend to get cig,we both needed them and then we went out for dinner at Sunny's. Now we are relaxing and watching t.v. I am feeling alright,just have cramps,which are not fun. I am staying cool,cause it is hot outside. I do not know what we are doing the rest of the night,either we are just going to relax,or go out,I am not sure about it yet. I have day treatment program tomorrow,and I just found out that I have to go in on Friday morning to see the doctor,but I am not staying all day,cause I have things to do,and it is not my regular day to go,so I will be leaving around 10:30 on Friday,my appointment is at 8:30 am.I am looking forward to going in tomorrow. I am doing alright,no
SI so far and that is a positive thing.I know that nights are rough for me and that is when I do SI mostly,which means that I have to use my coping skill more so at night. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I will be back on the bus later on sometime
SI so far and that is a positive thing.I know that nights are rough for me and that is when I do SI mostly,which means that I have to use my coping skill more so at night. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I will be back on the bus later on sometime
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
Thanks for the nice messages. The cramps went away for awhile,cause I took some Mortin for it. My boy-friend went to visit some friends for awhile and it felt great to get out of the apartment. We are watching t.v for awhile and when he leaves I will go to bed,cause I have day treatment program tomorrow and I need to get some sleep. I go there Mon,Wed,Thurs,but I have to go on Friday to see the doctor,but I am not staying all day,cause I have things to do here,and it is usually my day off,so is Tues. I have not done any SI today and I feel great about that,the nights are not easy for me at all. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can.I also see my therapist tomorrow,which is good cause I have things to talk to her about,cause I did slip with SI over the weekend,but I am not letting it get to me.I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. If I am not back on the bus later on,I will be back on the bus tomorrow evening.I will be alright. I am taking care of myself and staying safe. Have a great night.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I just wanted to say before I go to bed,that this is wonderful place to be and it has helped me so much,and I do not feel so alone.Thanks to everyone here. I will be back on tomorrow. I am doing alright.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I am getting ready to go to program and I had a rough night sleeping,I do not know why, I went to bed,but I lay there wide a wake,but the good thing is that I did not do any SI,and I am proud of myself for that. I am just tired,but I can take a nap when I get home.I am feeling alright. I am going to have a great day and enjoy myself.I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I will be alright. I will be back on the bus later on.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I am doing alright. I had a great day at program,and when I talked to my therapist she told me when I feel like doing SI,to use one coping skills,till the urge passes,but if I do slip with SI,at least I am praciting with that coping skill,but to keep trying.I went and got my hair cut,cause it is soo hot outside,and I am not tired,so I am going to write in my journal till my boy-friend gets here.I am feeling alright today,just hot,that is all. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing.How do I change the color of my writing,like to blue or red? I am not sure how to do that.Thanks alot. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I will be back on the bus later on.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I had a great evening. My boy-friend and I watch t.v.,and we had a good time. I wrote in my journal before he came and it help me soo much. I have not done any SI today,and I feel great about it. After he leaves,I will be going to bed,I just have to take my night medication first.I have cleaning to do tomorrow,my nurse is not coming to do my medication,cause he is on vacation,so I will be doing them by myself,I have no problem with that.I will be doing things that are positive for me tomorrow,and staying cool as well. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing.I am doing alright,just the cramps that I hate,before I get my montly.I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I will be back on the bus tomorrow sometime.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I know that I have not been on most of the day. My power was out,due to the fact that the men are working on it,and it will be like this all week,so I will probably be on the bus around this time. I got all my cleaning done,went to see my mother and slept part of the day. I also took myself out to eat,due to the fact that it was hot outside. I feel bad inside,cause I did slip with SI last night,due to the anxiety that I am feeling,and I feel lonely as well. It has been rough on me. I feel guilty inside for it.I am feeling confused and mixed up inside,over relationship that I lost and I feel about myself,due to the fact that my self-esteem is soo low. I am going to watch t.v.,and wait for my boy-friend to get here.If anyone can think of a good coping skill that I can use,please post it here. I would copy off the coping skills that are here,but I have to watch my ink. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am feeling,not so great. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I will keep myself safe,or come back here. I will be alright. I will be back on the bus later on. 
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I had a great night with my boy-friend,we went to visit some friends. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I did not do any SI today and I am proud of myself for that. I have day treatment program tomorrow,and I am looking forward to go. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I will be back on the bus later on tomorrow.have a great night.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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Hi Candy, how are you doing? I'm glad bus is helping you, and hopefully writing here helps too. Well done for not slipping today, that's really good. What coping skills work best for you? I find that distractions work well, because they take your mind off things, as well as writing and drawing. I hope your cramps are getting better, they're not nice.
I'm sorry you're struggling with low self esteem and those difficult feelings, I know it can be hard. Here are some suggestions that my one of my therapists used to make me do. I found them very helpful in working on my own self esteem issues.
Write a list of at least five things that you like about yourself. It can be physical or to do with your personality but they have to be positive.
Another idea is that if you have a bad thought about yourself you have to try and find at least one good thought to counteract that. This can be done on paper or in a journal, or just in your head. So if you keep challenging your negative thoughts about yourself and find good things too, then they won't seem so difficult to deal with.
Another suggestion - if omeone gives you a compliment, write it down. When you feel down or bad about yourself, take out the piece of paper with the compliments written on it and read it as another way of balancing out the negative thoughts.
Just some suggestions, I hope they help!
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I'm sorry you're struggling with low self esteem and those difficult feelings, I know it can be hard. Here are some suggestions that my one of my therapists used to make me do. I found them very helpful in working on my own self esteem issues.
Write a list of at least five things that you like about yourself. It can be physical or to do with your personality but they have to be positive. Another idea is that if you have a bad thought about yourself you have to try and find at least one good thought to counteract that. This can be done on paper or in a journal, or just in your head. So if you keep challenging your negative thoughts about yourself and find good things too, then they won't seem so difficult to deal with. Another suggestion - if omeone gives you a compliment, write it down. When you feel down or bad about yourself, take out the piece of paper with the compliments written on it and read it as another way of balancing out the negative thoughts. Just some suggestions, I hope they help!
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I've been a little "off" lately, so I have been away. I just wanted to tell you I miss you and my heart goes out to you daily. It's just hard to watch others hurt, too sometimes, so I've been doing my own thing....but I can't stay away, you know? BUS is all I have for awhile. Keep your chin up 
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Candy's Coping Thread
Thanks for the nice messages that you sent me.I am sorry to hear that you are having a rough time,and remember I am here for you always.I have missed you too,and I have been thinking about you as well. I had a great day at program,and it went well.Then I came home and took a nap,cause I was tired,and the heat does not help. I am waiting for my boy-friend to come over,and I am not sure what we are going to be doing.I have not done any SI lately,and I feel great about it.It has not been easy for me,but I keep trying everyday. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing.I feel pretty good so far,not awake yet. With the power being out durning the day,cause the men are working on it,it has not been a easy week. I have to go to day treatment this Friday morning,just to see the doctor,but I am only staying there till 10:30,cause I have things to get done,and I ususally do not go in on a friday. I will be alright,I am hanging in there.Thanks for the nice messages. I will be back on the bus later on.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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Well it makes me feel inspired to know you're trying and doing a good job. I hate the cliche' one day at a time, but it is true, and you really seem to be benefitting more and more from program and the other thing in your life. God Bless.
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Candy's Coping Thread
Thanks for the nice messages that you sent me. I hope I get my monthly soon,so I can feel better,with the cramps and the heat,it makes me feel sick to my stomach.I am doing pretty good.My boy-friend and I went to visit some friends,and now we are watching t.v. I have to go to day treatment program tomorrow,and I am looking forward to it.When I get home,I will probably take a nap. I also have to go in friday morning to see the doctor,but I will be leaving around 10:30,cause I have things to do. I will be going to bed when my boy-friend leaves.I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I have not written in my journal lately,just have not been feeling up to it,but I will get back into soon.I have not done any SI so far,and I am proud of myself for that. I will be back on the bus tomorrow evening. Have a great night
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I am doing alright so far. I had a great day at program and I had a good talk with my therapist,she helped me alot today. When I got home,I wrote in my journal and it helped me alot to get my emtions and feelings out;plus I wrote about good stuff as well. I am going to relax and watch t.v.,till my boy-friend gets here later on.I would have the day to myself tomorrow,but I have to go to day treatment program tomorrow to see my doctor at 8:30,leave there at 10:30,go to the drugstore to drop off my medication,go to the bank and take care of that,then my case-manager is coming over at 3:00,and then I can do what I want later on,it is a busy day,but I good thing anyway,cause I will be busy.I have not done any SI so far,and I feel good about that. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing.I am feeling pretty good,I do not feel anxious at all. I hanging in there and doing the best I can. I will be back on the bus later on
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I had a great night,my boy-friend watched t.v.,and just relax. He went home to get some sleep,and I am going to bed myself,cause I have to get up early to see the doctor,and I have other things to do as well. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I have not done any SI today and it has not been easy for me,but I got through another night,without doing anything. I am proud of myself for that. I have a busy day tomorrow,and I am getting tired. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I am feeling pretty good and I am focusing on good things,cause I feel somewhat anxious,but I will be alright. I will be back on the bus tomorrow evening,due to the fact the power will be off. I hope everyone has a great night.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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*standing ovation* I'm proud of you, Candy. 
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Candy's Coping Thread
Thanks for the nice messages that you sent me. I had a long talk with my doctor,she told me that I have personality Disorder NOS,if anyone know what that means,let me know. She put me on clomipramine 25mg,if anyone is taking that,let me know. I am doing pretty good,just tired out. I did my banking,and got everything done,we had no power for 8 hours,cause the men were working on it,that drove me nuts,but it is back on now. My boy-friend and I went out for dinner and we had a great time. Now we are going to visit some friends,but I told him that I want to get home early,cause I am tired,and this new medication will make me tired,she wants me to take it 1 hour before I go to bed. I have not done any SI so far,it has not been easy for me today,cause it has been a rough day,but I am getting through it ok. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I will be alright. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can.. If I am not back on it later,I will be back on it tomorrow,cause I want to get a good night sleep. I will be alright.Thanks again for the nice messages. taking care of myself
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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