The Confessions thread- let's get honest!

[jaded melody]

Its confession time.

Have you slipped up? Hurt yourself? Taken too many of something? Binged, purged, or restricted? This thread is for you to face up to it, and for everyone to support and reassure each other. After all, we all slip up, and its important to get through that, its part of coping, and part of recovery. So, you leave a confession, and the next person leaves you advice, hugs, a comment, kind words, whatever's appropriate, and makes their confession and so on and so forth.

Sometimes it's good to know that people know what you're going through, and how you feel, and this thread is designed to let you know that we're all here for each other, and we're not alone and we can get through this.

Sarah. x

[Callisto]

i binged today because i want to make myself look as horrible as i feel about myself.

[vampire_kisses]

I'm not the happy-preppy girl everyone thinks I am.
Just 'cause I <3 pink
Just 'cause I don't dress emo
Just 'cause I do shop at aeropostale
Doesn't mean I'm happy

[jaded melody]

dancing shoes: I'm sorry you binged, hun, is there anyone you can talk to about how bad you're feeling about yourself?
Silently_falling: I've felt a similar way sometimes. PM me if you want somebody to talk to.

Confession: I feel huge, I REALLY want to restrict HARD tomorrow, I ate more than I wanted today, and I just feel lost. i think i might be anorexic.

[Binayshee]

hey jaded melody,

i'm sorry. *hugs*
you know, it sucks when we feel so bad
inside and we think the best way to fix
it is to fix the outside, but fixing the
outside isn't going to take the pain
away. i think the only thing that is
going to do that is accepting and loving
ourselves as we really are. and i
know that can be really hard. so can
you maybe do one nice thing for your-
self, one gentle thing that says "i love
you."? "just as you are?" i think we
need love so much more than we
realize.

me, i'm away in a city that i dont live in,
visiting. and i've marked up my face,
i just got so wound up and i couldn't
relax after a full day where i tried
so hard to be positive and social
and energetic. and i did a good job.
but when i got home i just couldn't
relax and i did it. i guess i just fall
back on what makes me comfort-
able/relax. i haven't even been
trying to stop while i am here
because its such a big deal for
me to be out of my comfort zone/
space.

[Callisto]

Mel: bti of a daft question but could you go to your gp about your suspicions possibly? feel free to PM me to discuss this properly.

in answer to your question, there's not really anyone who i feel comfortable burdening with this.

[_____iamacliche]

i put myself in a position last night where i knew i was going to hurt myself because i didn't want to feel.

[Callisto]

ameh:

[Callisto]

i hate everything about my body. seeing myself naked makes me feel physically sick. i wish i could just erase myself and start over.

[Stripe]

Kimmy.... Starting over is sadly impossible, but fwiw I think you're pretty, and yeh.

I purged today, after a two day binge.

[Typoqueen]

a.v: Tommorrow is a new day. It started right now. You can stop it, right now.

I'm tired of trying

[Callisto]

TQ: being tired doesn't mean giving up, its just means pushing that extra bit until it becomes less tiresome and more of a goal that you want to achieve.

also

[BrokenSoulDreaming]

to all of you. Don't give up just because your tired! Getting through it although you're so tired will just make you realise that you can keep on trying.

I'm scared of what will happen when the truth comes out. Scared of dreaming. Ha and I think I'm about to be kicked out of college ahaha

[Stripe]

Is there anything you can do not to be kicked out?

I don't feel like I can do this now.

[nzgurl]

Ever since ive been trying to stop si, when i don't eat or skip a meal it makes me feel better about myself... mmm i know its not good but sometimes its easier