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Post by rainbow_rally » Sat Jun 02, 2007 3:38 pm

i wish things hadnt turned out the way they did, i still love you and will for a long time, i just want us to be friends, i wish i wasnt so clingy, i know it will cause me a lot of problems in the future, i wish we were still together, i just want to hold you tight, and kiss you. but we cant. i just wish you would talk to me more. i love you. :star:

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Post by Callisto » Sat Jun 02, 2007 3:51 pm

D:

I love you.

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Post by t_k » Sat Jun 02, 2007 4:11 pm

i don't want to go home.

i don't want to see you, s.
you scare me.
i do not like you.
please die before then.
please.
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Post by rainbow_rally » Sat Jun 02, 2007 5:18 pm

i want you back, i dont care how much we've fought or you've hurt me, be it intenionally or non-intentionally. i forgive you for everything.

i love you to the end of this earth, nothing you do or say can change that, i just want things to be the way they were. :star:

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Post by Quiet little Angel » Sat Jun 02, 2007 10:15 pm

i want to tell you... i really do... but i'm so scared you won't understand... i even wanted to let you know about bus... you seem to be in a place where you need it... but i don't dare... i mean... i would be so scared that you wouldn't keep my secret... i'm sorry... i'm being selfish... i should tell you so that Bus can help you too... sorry...

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Post by recovering4me » Sun Jun 03, 2007 1:48 am

i just want you to fucking notice that i am NOT okay. why wont you notice me??
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Post by raindreamer » Sun Jun 03, 2007 7:56 am

no really,
this isnt a game,
leave me alone

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Post by HakunaMatata » Mon Jun 04, 2007 12:36 am

It's obvious how you feel.
What we talked about the other night, ok, you were drunk I was stoned, but why the hell are we going to continue to avoid it.
You don't ask if I would never leave you, never cheat on you, say it's only me you want, and that T. doesn't trust you anymore for no reason. But now you're sober you can go on pretending? Yes. Cause that's the right thing to do. :roll:
I don't give a flying fuck as to whether we ended up together or not, but give yourself a chance, you as good as admitted you wanted to leave her, so stand on your own two feet and do it.
I want to say this cause I care. Only it seems selfish. But seeing you being manipulated and put through pain by her hurts me too. And I'm sad cause I know now you'll never leave her ( and be with me), and I was stupid for ever even entertaining that thought.
Can you not just please be honest though and have the guts even though some-ones going to get hurt, surely better to scarifice one person than all 3 of us.

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Post by b3autifu2l37 » Mon Jun 04, 2007 12:42 am

i miss you so much. everyday. i think of you especially when it's raining. i don't know why. maybe because i feel like it's a connection between us. i know i'll see you one day. but i can't bear the fact that you're never coming back. i love you.

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Post by marshmallowfluff » Mon Jun 04, 2007 1:26 pm

why didnt you tell me you didnt want me to go? I wouldnt have gone if you'd've said something.
i miss you so damn much :( its unbarable. can't handle the fact you're gone forever.
Im just... annoyed that no one told me the real truth. and that you let me go when you knew there was a possibility you could have died whilst i was there.
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Post by _____iamacliche » Mon Jun 04, 2007 4:21 pm

i'm scared.
and i'm not okay.
i'm finding this "being in recovery" business so fucking hard.
ugh.
please notice that i'm not alright, please?

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Post by Scatterbrain » Mon Jun 04, 2007 11:54 pm

Thank you. I dont know what else to say. just thank you. Thank you for understanding. Thank you for knowing me. Thank you for pushing me. Thank you for not giving up on me, for caring, for getting past my inability to communicate like an adult. Thank you so much. I love you.
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Post by heidi4battle » Tue Jun 05, 2007 12:01 am

I really don't understand how you could have Sexual abuse me. How you could have taken adventage of me when I was only 5 years old.

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Post by blue_the_puppy » Tue Jun 05, 2007 2:02 am

i was so scared over the weekend and i didnt let you know. im afraid my anxiety is going to get the best of me again.

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Post by astepawayfromlife » Tue Jun 05, 2007 6:43 am

your words cut deeper than anything i could do

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Post by raindreamer » Tue Jun 05, 2007 6:56 am

take my word for it
i know you dont understand
im not asking you too
just beleive me

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Post by steady hands » Tue Jun 05, 2007 8:58 am

I'm sorry I can't stop pushing you away.

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Post by red umbrellas » Tue Jun 05, 2007 12:07 pm

you know what? you're pathetic. PATHETIC.
is that the only way you feel good? by belittling other people? by trying to make yourself seem superior?
do you think ignoring me is actually going to achieve something? does it make you feel big?
i don't know why you dislike me. i really don't. i've never done anything. unless you count me defending my job when you told my manager how much you wanted it. in front of me. are you jealous? am i so threatening?

i can't stand you. you're a vicious, nasty, manipulative bully. but you know what? i pity you. because you're a complete twat. and with a chip on your shoulder like yours, you're never going to be happy.

so you're wasting your time. because i don't give a damn what you think of me. your opinions are now worthless to me.
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Post by Callisto » Tue Jun 05, 2007 12:47 pm

i have nowhere now.

no safe place.

no place to call my own that feels safe to me.

i am scared now.

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Post by wilson » Tue Jun 05, 2007 5:08 pm

i finally got what i wanted. i got you back.
but now people think im crazy when i talk about you.
i want you to be here. in real life form. i want to be able to hug you.
if not please can you go away. your making it all harder.
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