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Post by TheRockingHorse » Wed May 16, 2007 1:13 am

why dont you care what you do? you had fucking did it with him last night, do you know what could fucking happen to you? he is a player, he will play you like he plays everyone. you are only 13 damn years old. how can you do this to yourself? do you even care how much u worry all of us? u just fucking left without any concern for how we felt about that.
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Post by Porcelain_Doll » Wed May 16, 2007 9:51 pm

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Thu May 17, 2007 8:16 am

WHAT THE FUCK.

what did I do to deserve this.

I'm sick of these fucking games.
I'm sick of people pretending they give a shit and then leaving me.

You can go to hell.
I'm cancelling Wednesday.

I can take a hint.

I cannot trust anyone but myself.
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Post by wilson » Thu May 17, 2007 12:31 pm

why the fuck did you suddenly turn around and be nice to me only to fucking stab me again.
you realise you are the force which is killing me.
its always when im already feeling like shit you plan your attack.
isnt it.
you want to push me over the fucking edge.
and you are getting close.
ARGH!!
i wish i fucking hit you harder last time. and more.
then you would of gotten the point.

im stupid for thinking you had changed.
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Post by steady hands » Sat May 19, 2007 3:09 am

I don't care what you think of me.
Never have.

I know you think i'm an arrogant bitch because of that. You tell me every fucking chance you get.
But again, it doesn't matter how many times you tell me that i'm a bitch, or that you think i'm a whore, or that i'm fucking up my life.
Because that's what YOU think, and it's MY life, not yours.
And truthfully, I think you should just fuck off and leave me alone.

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Post by kendra » Sat May 19, 2007 6:53 am

Just leave me the hell alone!
GO AWAY! NOW!
I don't give a damn what happens to you, it's your choice, not mine!
I have my own crap to deal with! I don't need yours too!
I want you out of my life, I wish I never knew you!
Fuck off
Some day I will tell someone what you've done. That you really are the creep I've said you are... Someday I'll get the guts to say it! But for now... Fuck off

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Post by xmcrx37 » Mon May 21, 2007 12:12 am

My dad can just go fuck him self. Take all his money buy another new car, and go live a double life. Well sit here and rot away like he has always wanted. Break down, and bring back wounds that never healed.

And I just dont give a shit anymore if you even try. Dont look at me. Stop talking to me. Temptations Temptaions. Your a fucking mile a way that can never be reached.

Stuck on a road that doesnt end.

Your critizing ends now.

We arent your fucking property that you own, and can just push us in any direction you please. GET OUT OF MY LIFE
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Post by mephistopheles » Mon May 21, 2007 12:32 pm

There has been a dog barking in a garden round the back of my flat constantly since yesterday morning.

I have to revise. I can't concentrate anyway. And for fuck's sake!!! Why doesn't someone take it in?

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Post by xmcrx37 » Tue May 22, 2007 3:02 am

WHY WONT YOU FUCKING LISTEN TO ME!>? everything is about you guys. You all had a bay day you all got in a fight. You guys got upset. I DONT GIVE 2 SHITS. WHAT ABOUT ME FOR ONCE? Oh how are you doing? Are you ok?
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Post by Spidey » Tue May 22, 2007 4:16 am

Congratulations. You have now officially burned your bridges with everyone solely for the fact that you refuse to relinquish control of situations. They are not your children and you had absolutely NO FUCKING RIGHT to treat them as such. And now you are up shit creek without a paddle and I have almost ZERO sympathy for you. And it is not OTHERS that are defeating you but rather YOURSELF.

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Post by steady hands » Tue May 22, 2007 4:47 am

*pms ok*



maybe next time, before you go and assume things, and then fuck shit up, you should LISTEN to what I have to say.
you had no right to do what you did, and I got fucked over because of a stupid bullshit mistake you made.
I don't care if you "had to get it off your chest". I know that's bullshit. you didn't even know what was going on, you had no clue, but yet you made up your own side of it, and now i'm at risk for getting sent away to somewhere I know i'm not going to be able to cope. i'm hardly fucking coping here, much less some new place with people I don't know, and don't want to get to know, while I get someone else's beliefs shoved down my fucking throat. I can't believe you laughed when I told you what you've caused. and then said it would be good for me. for fuck's sake, NO ONE is listening to me now, because of what you said. MY OWN FUCKING BEST FRIEND isn't listening to me. he told me yesterday that he thinks you did the right thing, and that this will help me, and that you're right for saying what you did, even though I told him you were lying and that none of the shit you said happened did. well, you know what I think? I think this whole fucking thing is going to come right back and tear you fucking
apart. I honestly hope it does, and that when it does, I'll be right fucking there to watch.

I HOPE YOU HAVE A NICE FUCKING LIFE, BECAUSE I'M SURE AS HELL GOING TO ENJOY THE REST OF MINE AT FUCKING CHRISTIAN SCHOOL BECAUSE YOU'RE A BITCH AND DECIDED TO FUCK UP MY LIFE WITH LIES AND FUCKING BULLSHIT THAT THE "ADULTS" IN MY LIFE SUCKED UP SO FUCKING FAST THAT THEY SHOULD'VE CHOKED TO DEATH.


FUCK YOU.

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Tue May 22, 2007 9:38 am

SEW YOUR OWN FUCKING CURTAINS.
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Post by Briony » Wed May 23, 2007 12:05 am

FUCK you. You're so god-damn condescending.

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Post by hidden behind a mask » Wed May 23, 2007 6:32 pm

i am so tired fo your fucking drama grandma
and why the hell do u get mad at me for the way i sighn my name and then turn around and say that u should sighn to ware people cant read it
who the hell cares of my h looks l ike a fucking b u fucking whor
i hate you i cut becuae of you
i have my fucking anger adn i promised my love that i woulndt cuss and i cuss like a fucking saler it pisses me off
i hate myself i hate that i get introuble for going into a shat roomt o get support and then get jkicked out for saying that iw ant to thow up in a ED room they can go fuck themselfs
i hate that i feel so fucking guilty for getting 2 pepole booted for a coment i made about my dumb dog i resnt him becauye he gets more attion than me
and tamit i cik my dog u ficking olmost killed a girl by hitting her in the head with a hammer and i say oh poor dog i hate you u fucking hypacrit.
well thats enough venting for ritenow
wow this really helped

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Post by kendra » Thu May 24, 2007 6:31 am

Ya know what I'm glad you hate me. Maybe you'll finally get I've hated you for the past 2 years it's just now I've had the strength to fight back!
I hope to never hear from you again!
Mom, If I wanted him over for dinner don't you think I'd tell you. If I don't say that I want him over I dont want him over. Why should I have any feelings of guilt or whatever after what he's done that you know of. Why can't you get I don't want to see him or hear of him. I wish he never existed I fucking hate that I wonder how he is though, I'd never tell anyone that though... maybe if I ignore it it will go away... That Bastard

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Post by Scatterbrain » Thu May 24, 2007 7:09 am

I'm not your little bitch to talk down to. I have put up with this for the last 4 years... I've been able to put up with it until now because you used to be there for me and have nice things to say along with the mean things... Now all you are is a condescending bitch. Fuck you. You have no idea how bad that comment hurt. I'm not fucking stupid. Yes, you have a higher SAT score and a (barely) higher GPA. So, I can deal with my emotions. Even if I deal with them poorly, I dont put up a fucking front that my life is wonderful. I dont repress everything like you do. In fact, I pity you. I pity that you are so out of touch and so unable to focus on what is really important that you have to be so condescending and always put yourself above others... At least I know that I'm a fuck up and dont pretend I'm perfect.

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Thu May 24, 2007 8:30 am

Stop your fucking mind games. Just walking past my door and murmuring to yourself "[chocolates] which i'm not sharing with anybody..". Good! I don't WANT your fucking chocolates. YOU eat them. YOU get fat. I don't want or need ANYTHING from you.
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Post by Stripe » Thu May 24, 2007 10:26 am

Fucking bastards
phone on monday
By fucking tuesday
It's thurseday today and youre fucking sitting with him and have you told me, have you calle dme

I dont fucking know what i want
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Post by hidden behind a mask » Fri May 25, 2007 1:20 am

i don't understand you
you say that you love me, and u always will
i know that you have a boyfriend
but every time i hear your voice it angers me and breaks my heart again
and again
i love you and would die for you
why must you play with my emotions like a yo-yo toy
i don't like it
i love you so much i would die for you
i hate that i have to hide my hate and fear every time i talk to you
i love you so much
but i hate this
i am sorry that i cant pretend anymore
im sorry that i cant say that i dont love you, i would be lying and i dont want to do that i love you so much and i wish that u could only see

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Post by Never Again » Fri May 25, 2007 11:31 pm

fuck you. you say you'd be there for me if i needed you. well i do. it's not like i call you often, but when i do, it's because i REALLY fucking need you. this is NOT NOTHING. i NEED HELP damnit

two hours later, and you still havent called me back? WHAT THE FUCK. i thought i could trust you.


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