Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

Lenny · Post by **Lenny** » Sun May 20, 2007 10:05 am

im not as strong as everyone thinks
i want to take off my mask
i dont want to be strong
i want to be weak
sometimes i feel SU is the only way to get out of this

b3autifu2l37 · Post by **b3autifu2l37** » Sun May 20, 2007 1:56 pm

i think about you everyday, and i miss you so much. i don't think i will ever be able to accept that you're not coming back. i wish you were here.

starcatuk · Post by **starcatuk** » Sun May 20, 2007 4:49 pm

i want to stop doing i and get on with my life but i cant i still do it because i cant stop however hard i try.

Silentdancer · Post by **Silentdancer** » Sun May 20, 2007 8:07 pm

my heart is numb. I miss you my sweet darling.

xmcrx37 · Post by **xmcrx37** » Mon May 21, 2007 12:06 am

my dad practically abandoned my mom, sister and I for his girlfriends family

never admited to that before.

steady hands · Post by **steady hands** » Mon May 21, 2007 4:48 am

I haven't taken anything in four days. Not even my allergy pills.

Post by **treasure** » Mon May 21, 2007 4:56 am

last week my t commented on the fact my parents rarely contact me and maybe they should, and to tell me they are proud of me. i don't know if my parents love me and it feels like i've been cheated something. if i think about it, i feel so angry and hurt, but i can't really deal with it cos the feelings are so deep and scary. what if i'm unlovable? how am i supposed to build my self-esteem with this sort of mess in my past?

(pms welcome)

jaded melody · Post by **jaded melody** » Mon May 21, 2007 9:10 am

my secret was going to be that I was worried I had an eating disorder. Then I decided that was a stupid secret. I still feel "not thin enough". Not sick enough.

HakunaMatata · Post by **HakunaMatata** » Mon May 21, 2007 11:04 pm

NO IRL. Thanks.
Sex/religion (minor) trigs.

I'm more than a little confused. I like her. But she's straight. And she has a boyfriend. And yeah, I'm the good little Christian girl, I'm not even supposed to have slept with anyone, but I have. But I don't care, how did that happen? And now I'm getting attracted to girls, I've always had a fascination with females. But I can't act on these feelings cause I don't know anyone that would return them. And it's probably just a passing phase. But I don't even know. I still find guys attractive too. Confussled

astepawayfromlife · Post by **astepawayfromlife** » Tue May 22, 2007 6:08 am

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half/hearted · Post by **half/hearted** » Tue May 22, 2007 6:25 am

I'm scared of messing up this chance to make a friend.

But I'm scared of making a friend, too.

PMs are welcome.

red umbrellas · Post by **red umbrellas** » Tue May 22, 2007 10:22 am

he told me he couldn't promise anything.
i feel lost.

no pms please

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Wed May 23, 2007 8:13 am

The last place I want to be is at home.

My only parent makes it impossible to love her. But I'd do anything, and I mean ANYTHING, for her approval.

My grandmother is really ill. If I had a choice.. I'd rather lose my mother. I think that makes me an awful person.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Wed May 23, 2007 8:56 am

El that doesn't make you a horrible person, its understandable that you'd feel that way

I'm scared that you'll leave me again

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Wed May 23, 2007 9:00 am

thanks

Weetzie Bat · Post by **Weetzie Bat** » Wed May 23, 2007 3:02 pm

im worried I might be gay and that I'm living a lie by being with my boyfriend. I dont know if I could ever tell him though because it would break his heart and I *do* really love him.

Stripe · Post by **Stripe** » Wed May 23, 2007 8:19 pm

I keep seeing him around my area. I am scared he is back to hurt me

Scatterbrain · Post by **Scatterbrain** » Wed May 23, 2007 11:10 pm

I havent called. I dont plan to.

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I'm sorry I am who I am. I wish you didnt have to see this side of me and I wish I could stop disappointing you. But, at the same time, I want to you to see this part of me so you wont think we are all crazy, fucked up, dangerous people...

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It hurts when you talk to me like that. Why are you so belittling and condescending with me? I dont hear you talk to other people like that... Thats why I dont want to be around you and why I am afraid to share anything personal.... You are so goddamn condescending. I wish you would stop talking to me because I dont have to the strength to stop talking to you.

~Megan

Stripe · Post by **Stripe** » Thu May 24, 2007 9:37 am

I fucked it all up, but it's me I left to deal with it.
Only I am scared that I won't deal with it
I don't trust my T but I ahve to to tell her what's been happening
I have to let myself tell her or I won't get through this

Sometimes I want to die, but I think I will never have the guts to SU
And I am glad about that

red umbrellas · Post by **red umbrellas** » Thu May 24, 2007 12:19 pm

i'm probably stronger than i realise. i could maybe do more. but that scares me and confuses me too.

no pms please

bus

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