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tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by steady hands » Wed May 02, 2007 3:58 am

I want drugs.

I'd take fucking anything right now.

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Post by wish » Wed May 02, 2007 12:07 pm

i know my drinking is getting too much.yet i dont like to be told.
someone said i was turning into my mother,the other day,and i wanted to smack them.cos im so so scared its true

but right now id take or drink anything to make this go away
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Post by Callisto » Thu May 03, 2007 11:03 am

my self worth is dependent on my weight

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Post by volta » Thu May 03, 2007 3:09 pm

last night i almost made my friends my excuse to cut.
i was so pissed at them when they stopped being upset and mad at me.
i wanted a reason.

i wish i was crazy so i could have an excuse to not act so okay all the time.

i don't want to be okay. i'm scared that maybe i'm getting there.

i don't want to be there.

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Post by volta » Thu May 03, 2007 8:47 pm

i slipped.

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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Fri May 04, 2007 1:30 am

I'm afraid that I'm never going to be believed...

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Fri May 04, 2007 9:50 am

everyone here..

it's okay.

It's okay to wish everything was better. It's okay to feel hurt, or pissed off. It's okay to regret things you've done. It's okay to be scared, and terrified.

You are here, and that means you are trying. Even if you slip. Even if you drink after you promise yourself that you wouldnt.

You are not a failure because you feel overwhelmed.

I believe you. All of you. I believe IN you.

If I could pm each one of you right now I would, but I can't.

So next time.. you think your ED is your only self worth, or the only way you can feel okay is to take drugs, or hurt yourself, or drink, or mess up your life.. remember:

You are valued.
You are beautiful.
This can be okay.
Believe in yourself.
You can do this.
We can do this. Together.

Tomorrow won't feel so bad.


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Post by Callisto » Fri May 04, 2007 8:19 pm

i feel like i can't breathe in this house.

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Post by mephistopheles » Fri May 04, 2007 8:51 pm

i hate you for being so selfish
how could you leave me like this?
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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Sat May 05, 2007 2:33 am

I'm afraid i'll infect the happy people.

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Post by handmade mute » Sat May 05, 2007 8:02 am

It's not the severity of my slip that scares me. It's the fact I want to do it again, right now, for no reason whatsoever. I don't think I can control myself right now.

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Post by Callisto » Sat May 05, 2007 8:18 pm

im taking diet pills again.

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Post by Rodwy » Sun May 06, 2007 6:18 am

I so scared after what I did the other day. I just don't feel like I can try again.
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Post by fortune » Sun May 06, 2007 3:13 pm

i need a friend. i need someone, anyone. i need to talk. i need to be something other than what i am. i needneedneed so incredibly much. i am being crushed under the weight of all this pressure and i just can't do this anymore. i'm drowning in school work that i'm more than capable of doing, if there weren't so much of it. i'm drowning in the pressure of my expectations. i live a lonely invisible existence. i'm fatfatfat and i want to starvestarvestarve. i crave the numbness of overdose. all these issues are eating away at me... and i can't cope. but i say i can because i feel such incredible guilt otherwise. i'm frightened of death but it hurts too much to live like this. it hurts too damn much. and it's so incredibly hopless, i'm so incredibly hopeless. but. if you were to mention anything i'd probably deny any of this was true. i'm too ashamed and my shame is slowly killing me.

but this is now. and everything changes so fast. it changes. but it still hurts so damn much.
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Post by Silentdancer » Sun May 06, 2007 3:13 pm

I am glad to be in therapy and it is actually helping. I so desperatly want to get better, and I finally admitted that to someone who can help.

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Post by HakunaMatata » Sun May 06, 2007 3:44 pm

*SU*la*

I left BUS, people here care too much. People irl care too much (well a few anyway) I want to be left, hidden in a corner, to fester, and rot away. I can't talk to anyone anymore, that's why I'm here, if I talk, people get attached, then one day if they wake up and I don't, they won't be as affected as much. It's easier, keep my head down, there's nothing to say anyway, and when I talk it doesn't help people anyway so there's no point. It works better this way, I don't even know the fuck I've come back- to vent? It's not constructive, I shouldn't even be here anyway.
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Post by starcatuk » Sun May 06, 2007 4:58 pm

i want to curl into a corner and hide from the world

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Post by Quiet little Angel » Sun May 06, 2007 5:37 pm

i'm so scared of having to live alone that i might just ask someone to share a dormroom... even though the person isn't someone i have much to do with other than going to the sam city next year... i tell myself i can live alone, but when i look at how i manage being home alone for 24 hours i just don't think i can ever really do it...
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Post by mephistopheles » Mon May 07, 2007 9:24 am

I want to let it take over.
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Post by Kaleb » Mon May 07, 2007 2:15 pm

i really need some advice ! :(
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