Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by PassingCloud » Wed Apr 18, 2007 8:58 pm

i miss you. and it's really unfair of you to leave me like that. and i wish you could see the joy and the pain both at the same time. yes things were ugly when i was there. and yes it was very very unpleasant for both sides. but i was able to appreciate the pain you were in. why can'T you?
why do you have to be so silent. i MISS you!
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Post by a shadow in the wind » Wed Apr 18, 2007 9:01 pm

i love u more than life itself

all i want is 2 be with you
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Post by fortune » Thu Apr 19, 2007 3:59 am

i thought we were friends. but you turned out just like i thought you would, you left me... (i told you and you denied it remember?) and right when i needed you the most. maybe you don't think it was important. but it was, it is. i could have died. i could have followed it through. but i'm still alive and it isn't thanks to you. it's time for us to say goodbye. because we can't be friends if only one of us cares.

talk to me! please - you're the only one i can tell. who do i have if i don't have you? forgive me. for this, for everything, come back!
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Post by wilson » Thu Apr 19, 2007 8:07 pm

im so sorry it has come to this. but you cant change it. not anymore
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Post by Callisto » Fri Apr 20, 2007 10:39 am

that hurt. i know you probably think i don't care etc etc but that still hurt. guess maybe you're not who i thought you were...makes me glad im getting a new job soon.

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Post by TheAlmightyMogg » Fri Apr 20, 2007 6:21 pm

Tim

hey tim
just to say i Hate you for doing that to me
i Hate you so much it hurts
why didnt i just end it? why did i stay your gf? why didnt i realise that after that i couldnt trust you anymore? they say the first love is unforgettable...maybe it wasnt love. maybe i forced myself to beleive it was love. i know i forced myself to beleive that you loved me....you wouldnt have tried to force me if u didnt would you? but no. i know now you didnt love me. you couldnt give two shits about me right? thats right.
then why cant i get angry at you when we talk?
afetr all you put me through....all the nightmares i still have.....why cant i be nasty to you? i dont understand it. i wish i could. i wish it hadnt happened. it will be a year since in August.
i wih i could slap you so hard you bled.
but i also wish you all the best at the same time. i hope you learnt, and i hope if you ever get another gf you dont put her through that.


oh yeahand

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Post by TheAlmightyMogg » Fri Apr 20, 2007 6:26 pm

To Rob

ok so today has been Hard.
polly got kicked outa her house again. thats twice in about a month. i dont know how to feel. i dont know what to do. she told her mum bout what happened with Him. her mum kicked her out last night and she had to stay round M's
i was really down last night
i wanted to die
i hope you never find out how hard it gets sometimes. you make me happy. i havnt slipped in so long and now im teetering on the edge just of stupid exams and stupid problems with my friends who i worry about...and im missing you. its like missing a limb. but i know you arent thinking the same right now. you will be sitting in your lil tent and writing in your diary and you wont be thinking anything remotly connected with me. its been a month tomorrow.
if we get through this separationg and we are together when you get back, ill be so happy. but i think you will probably email me soon letting me know that i "dont have to wait" for you or...."the separationg is too much holding us apart it wont work"
i can almost see the words. i can almost taste the bitterness in my mouth. its a coppery taste, like blood only worse. at least blood will wash away

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Post by daisy_chain » Fri Apr 20, 2007 9:15 pm

I thought we were getting somewhere. I understand you dont like talking about emotions, but i thought you would be willing to tell me cos you know how important it is to me. Feels like you cant have loved me as much as you said you did cos you are coping better than i am. Which in turn makes me feel completely pathetic and worthless. I thought i meant more to you than that.I was obviously wrong.
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Post by Scatterbrain » Sat Apr 21, 2007 1:50 am

I want to call you and ask you what I should do. I am afraid that I will somehow cross a boundary and then you wont want to talk to me... All I need is some reassurance, but I probably wont call because I am afraid to change the status quo...

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Post by wish » Sat Apr 21, 2007 1:57 am

how can you say those things to me?how can you behave the way you do towards me when you know what you do about me?dont you care or have you just forgotten.i trusted you.your the only one
sometimes i catch a glimmer of the person you used to be,how caring you can be.so why dont i deserve that anymore?
its making hate you a little more each day.but if i say these things to you,im a bitch
why cant you just accept me for me??
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Post by Flower[~on~the~]wall » Sat Apr 21, 2007 1:20 pm

Sorry for not being good enough, for failing, for letting you down. For not being who you want me to be. But I have to be me now, for me, not others. I just wish that that me didn't fail or let people down, but perhaps that how it goes. I wish you'd never put the pressure on, tried to make me what I'm not, I don't care if you say you can see that I am the person you are trying to make me, let me make any of my own changes to myself. Thank-you very much. :evil:

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Post by mephistopheles » Sat Apr 21, 2007 1:48 pm

thanks for not walking me outside you wanker.
would have taken you five minutes.
just to make sure i wasn't murdered.
glad to see you've checked this morning as well
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Post by 5th section » Sat Apr 21, 2007 2:50 pm

*lang *self hate (not just self!)

to someone, he knows who he is
1 hour means 1 hour. I'm sick of being treated like this...not just me, all of us. you probably think I should tone down my language - well, I fucking did. you haven't heard the fucking half of it.

to someone else, both of them also know who they are
Until today I have never wanted to kill anyone other than myself. that has just changed.

to J______
tonight is for you, like everything else

to the rest of you
I'm a fucking waste of space and I don't deserve you. why can't you see that everything I do is a disaster? you're better off without me.
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Post by xx mimi xx » Sat Apr 21, 2007 3:59 pm

Im sick and tired of being a burden to everyone.

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Post by Eva » Sat Apr 21, 2007 7:24 pm

I love you so much. Didn't realize it before yesterday. I can't move on. I don't know what to do. Please call or write. I'm dying without you.

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Post by PassingCloud » Sun Apr 22, 2007 12:02 pm

god i dunno how many times i will have to repeat this. but i MISS you. i miss you so much. why don'T you care anymore? what have i done that was so horrible that you haven'T done as well? why can'T you forGIVE?! i miss you, sister. so much. please just overcome this and write. please. :cry:
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[I'm talking about God, the Devil, Hell, Heaven!]
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[Finally?]
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Post by lost_alone » Mon Apr 23, 2007 8:45 am

I don't want to be here anymore. Take me away and this pain will go with me. I hate you for what you are, and I hate myself for hating me because of you.
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Post by Forget Me » Mon Apr 23, 2007 9:53 am

you are allowed to notice my cuts. fuck, i wish you would say something! i know youve seen and i know you know i still do it sometimes, just sometimes, because i need to and because i dont understand what all the fuss is really about. i just wish youd say something so i could tell you that.
and i wish you knew without me having to tell you that i dont like you always being here... you know, we can see each other without saying over at one anothers place. other people do it. have you noticed? and its not like its a mission from mine to yours. and im sorry we dont have sex all that much. believe me, i fucking wish we did. fuck it, im losing it, i am.
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Post by mywildrainbow » Mon Apr 23, 2007 4:52 pm

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i love you. i've loved you from the moment we met and it's never gone away, nor do i want it to. it's a magnificant form of torture. i know that you may never feel the same way about me, but i needed to say that little piece. i feel better now.
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Post by black_23 » Mon Apr 23, 2007 10:46 pm

Im scared and I have no right to be, its not me going through this and yet all I want to do it cut, your selfish. Its jst so sad and unfair why him, why, why ,why. I jsut want to get drunk and forget it all for an hour is that so bad??
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