Candys Coping Thread
Candy's Coping Thread
My boy-friend had left and I am watching t.v.,and I will be going to bed soon,cause I have to get up early to go to program in the morning. I do not feel anxious at all. I took my medication for the night and I feel alot better. I know that I did not write in my journal or do any coloring tonight,but I promise that I will work on it tomorrow. I have been using my coping skills and it has helped me alot. I had urges of doing SI earlier,but I kept myself busy talking to my boy-friend and it helped me alot.Dealing with uncomfortable emotions and feeling are not easy for me,but I dealing with them the best I can. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I will be back on the bus tomorrow evening. I am going to get a good night sleep. taking it easy
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I just woke up and I am getting ready to go prorgam,I am getting frustrated with my boy-friend, I am trying to lose weight and I told him,not to bring snacks over here,cause I will eat them,and he continues to do so,I do love him and I know he loves me,he tells me that they are for him,but when I tell him to stop bringing the snacks over here,he does anyway. I do not know what to do about this situation. I have told him over again,but he does not listen. I am getting frustrated and angry and I do not know what to do. I am doing good otherwise,just trying to get ready,I am proud of myself for not doing any SI. I have to get going now and I will be back on the bus later when I get home. I going to have a great day,cause I deserve it. I am taking care of myself. Any suggestions,please let me know. hanging in there.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I am came home from program early,cause I have a headache and I am feeling tired. I am doing pretty good so far,just tired. I still have the urges of doing S1,but I keep fighting it,and it is not easy. There are sometimes that I feel alone,like there is no one that understands my problem and I hate that. It is the way that I am feeling right now. I wish there were more groups where I live that deal with SI and Borderline Personality Disorder,but I do not know of any. I just feel alone inside and that is scaring for me,and not to able to feel any good emotions is other thing that I do not like, I want to change that as well,but I do not know where to start. I am going to go lay down for awhile and take it easy. I will be back on the bus later,promise
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I just woke up from a nap,what I do not like is going to sleep with a headache,and waking up with one.I am doing pretty good. It is soo hard not to do SI,but when I feel the urges coming on,that is when I use my coping skills,but there are somedays that are harder then the next. I am going to watch t.v.,and wake up. It has been raining here alot,which makes me more tired than usual. The verbal abuse that I have received by my mother and past abuse,has affected my self-esteem so much,that I have to work on my self-esteem,to get it back.Does anyone know of a good website that deal with self-esteem,cause I need to feel good about myself and to like myself. If anyone knows of one,could you please let me know. Thanks alot. I am going to relax and take it easy for awhile. I will be back on the bus later,promise 
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I am watching t.v.,and playing checkers and of course I am not winning.I am doing pretty good. I am doing good with my SI,and it does get hard sometimes,but I am trying very hard.I fight the urges and it is never easy. I have off of program tomorrow and it will give me time to do things that I like to do. I get scared sometimes,cause I never know when the urges are going to get to strong or I start to dissocate,if I spell that word right,and that scares me as well. Has anyone felt this way,and I do not know how to handle it.I am going to watch t.v and relax;plus try not think about any negative thoughts or emotions that I am feeling inside. I am going to keep myself busy no matter what and keep myself safe,cause that is what I need to do for myself right now.I am hanging in there and doing the best I can.I am going to watch t.v and I will be back on the bus later on.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I am doing pretty good. My boy-friend just left and I am watching t.v.,and I will be going to bed real soon. I have the day off tomorrow and I have some cleaning to do and I plan on doing positive things for myself,not sure at this point,but I have a few good ideals.I did not do any SI today,and even though it has been over a week,it is still on my mind and I think about it,but I have not acted on it,it has not been easy for me,and there are times that it is sooo hard for me,but I get through it. I am trying very hard not to think about it,but it is not easy for me. I already took my medication for the night and I am getting tired. I hope everyone has a great night and I will do the same. Just hanging in there and I will be back on the bus tomorrow sometime.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I am having a good morning so far,I am cleaning my apartment and when I am finished,I am doing to do something pleasant for myself,like writing in my journal and coloring,even if I have to punsh myself somewhat. I had a great night sleep and I promise myself that today that I was going to do something helpful for me. I hope everyone had a great night sleep. It is my day off and I am going to make the best of it and take care of myself for a change. I am some more cleaning to do and I will be back on the bus later on,promise
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I am doing pretty good. I got done cleaning my apartment,and my nurse left,did my medications. I am sitting here watching t.v. and I am going to go for a walk afterwards,it is real nice outside. I have not written in my journal today or did any coloring,which I need to do,feel kind of anxious right now,and trying to keep my mind focus on other things then my anxiety or the urges of SI,it is not easy,but I am trying very hard. I will use my coping skills and keep my thoughts on other things right now. I am going to go and watch t.v and take care of myself. I will be back later on.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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i think it would be fun
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im going to make myself a homemade coloring book. maybe you can do the same?
i think it would be fun
Candy's Coping Thread
I am doing pretty good. I was thinking the same thing about coloring and I agree I think it would be great ideal. I still have not written in my journal or coloring,it is not that I do not want to,I have been soo busy for the past couple of days,besides not feeling well,and doing other things that I have not had a chance to,I have not done any SI,for over a week,and I am proud of myself,but there are times that it is not easy for me. Thanks so much for the pictures,I love them!!!!!!!!!! I am sitting her watching t.v. with my boy-friend and we are having a great time. I took my medication and I am feeling better,still feeling anxious,but not as bad as I was before. I have to go to program tomorrow,but I will be back on the later on. I hanging in there and doing the best I can. Again thanks for the pictures.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I am doing pretty good,my boy-friend,just left and I am getting ready to go to bed pretty soon. I already took my medication for the night. I do feel bad,,cause I did not get to write in my journal or color like I planned,besides being busy here,and spending time with my boy-friend I did not get a chance to do what I want to do. I feel bad about that,but I did not do any SI,which is very positive thing,but I do feel bad though. It is 11:00 am here and it is getting late,so I am getting tired,that I do not feel up to it. I have program tomorrow,so I will be back on the bus later on in the evening. I had a pretty good day and that is a good thing.I feel alot calmer than I did earlier,so I feel more relax. I am going to go and watch t.v,till I go to bed. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I will be back on tomorrow evening.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I just got home from program and I had a great day. I also went for a walk and it helped me alot. It felt great to get outside and walk the anxiety off. I also had a great day at program and that went well. I am doing pretty good and I am going to go lay down for awhile and take it easy. I got a gift in the mail from a friend and she send me a birthday gift and I know it was early,but she doesn't live near me,so she wants to make sure I get it before my birhtday,which is Easter Sunday on the 8th. It was a nice gift,maining bath gels and stuff like that.I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I made it another day without doing any SI,and I feel proud of myself. I am tired and the waking helped alot with that. I will be back on the bus later,promise,sorry if I repeated myself.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I finally woke up from my nap,and I was tired from walking. I am sitting here watching t.v with my boy-friend and waking up,that walk helped me alot with my anxiety and my stress that I have been feeling inside lately. I did write in my journal last night,even though it was late,I did write some,it is hard for me to write when I have company. I am doing pretty good,just have dry mouth today and nothing seems to be working,I know it has to do with my medications,but today it just got to me. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I am going to go and watch t.v. I will be back on the bus later,promise
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I am just relaxing and watching t.v.,I am feeling pretty good,just feeling some anxiety,but not that bad. I took my medication for the night and hopefully I will write in my journal tonight,if it is not to late.I still have thoughts of SI,but I have not acted on the urges or the feelings of doing so,it has not been easy,and I find out that walking has helped me alot today.I wanted to let everyone know how I am doing,and I have program tomorrow,I will be back on the bus before I go to bed,taking care of myself right now.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
My boy-friend left and I am watching t.v and I wrote in my journal which I need to do right now. I am dealing with something that is bothering me,how do I get the feeling of trust back in myself again. It has been over a week since I last did SI,and even though I feel proud of myself,how do I trust myself again,if it doesn't make sense I am sorry about that,but it is the way I am feeling inside right now.I was feeling anxious when I came home,and the walk helped and writing in my journal and that helped me alot,but the feelings of not trusting myself with SI,is scaring me,and I do not like that feeling. I do not know what to do,I have been keeping myself safe and it is working,but the feeling of not trusting myself is a horrible feeling to have.If anyone has any suggestions you can post them here. I took my medication for the night and I will be going to bed real soon. I have program tomorrow and I will be back on the bus later on in the evening. I learned alot today at program.I am hanging in there and doing the best I can do.Going to watch t.v. for awhile.I hope everyone has a great night and I will be back on tomorrow sometime.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
sometimes going to bed is a very good option.
whether or not you think you have control over hurting yourself.... you *do*....
regardless of what you label yourself as or use as an excuse... it is a choice.
often a veryvery hard one.
one that is painful & aches & is awful to get through.....
the more you hurt yourself the harder it'll be to fully stop.....
i hope you do manage to go to bed & not hurt yourself
whether or not you think you have control over hurting yourself.... you *do*....
regardless of what you label yourself as or use as an excuse... it is a choice.
often a veryvery hard one.
one that is painful & aches & is awful to get through.....
the more you hurt yourself the harder it'll be to fully stop.....
i hope you do manage to go to bed & not hurt yourself
Candy's Coping Thread
Thanks for your messages. I do not plan on doing any SI,it is the thoughts and the urges that are really getting to me and that is when I feel like I can not trust myself. I am planning on going to bed real soon. I am doing really good it is just the way I feel right now,before the urges get to strong,sorry if I wrote that wrong in my last post. Again thanks for messages. I will be back on tomorrow evening.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I want to check in and let everyone know how I am doing. I sleep good last night and think I mention that I wrote in my journal as well. I am getting ready for program,cause I leave here at 8:30am in the morning. I got through the night without doing any SI,and I am proud of myself. I feel somewhat anxious,but not as bad as I was last night.When I get home I will either go for a walk or take a nap,it depends on how tired I am. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can.At least the sun is out side,which it makes me feel better. I will be back on the bus later on sometime. hanging in there
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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