Candys Coping Thread
Candy's Coping Thread
I am doing alright and keeping myself busy. I finally got my cleaning done and my nurse just left and I wrote in my journal and I am soooo proud of myself for writing in it and I am going to write in it every day,no matter what. I am just relaxing right now and watching t.v. and then my later my case-manager is coming over. I just did not like it when I started to dissociate,if I spell that word right,a few days to ago. I have problems with how to know it is coming on and what to do when it does;plus how to get out of it. If anyone has any information on this,please post it here,could not find it on the internet anywhere.Thanks. I am going to do alot of positive things for myself today,just wish I could feel it,that bothers me the most and dealing with anxiety. I am taking it one day at a time and that is all I can do for myself. I will be back later,going to go and watch t.v for awhile.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I am having a rough night,my boy-friend is back in the hospital again,not sure what is going on with him,and I will see him tomorrow,and I am not doing good,cause I slip with SI again and I am soo mad at myself for it,he did not even tell me he was going to the ER and that hurt alot. I am having such a rough time with it. I know that I wrote in my journal and know I am going to have to use my coping skills even more so than ever. I just feel so bad inside. I am hanging in there right now and that is all I can do at this point, I am feeling soo anxious right now and upset with my self and for what happen. I am going to watch t.v and take it easy,I will be back later,not feeling soo good inside. 
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I feel somewhat better now,it was not my night and to find out that my boy-friend was in the hosptial again did not help me much and SI did not help either. I talked to him and he is going to bed now,I just hope and pray that he feels better and I do love him. I have program tomorrow and I know sitting here while he is in the hospital is not going to help me any,it will make it harder on me,and I can go see him afterwards,we are so use to being to together,it is hard when we are a part, but I will get through it. By using my coping skills and being on the bus has helped alot. I am going to get to bed early tonight so I know that I will be alright. I usually slip at night when I am alone and going to bed soon,will be a good ideal for me. I wrote in my journal tonight and I will do it tomorrow as well. I took my medication for the night and eventually will go to bed. I will be alright. I will be back on the bus tomorrow evening sometime. I am going to go and relax and watch t.v. I am going to take care of myself and I will be good to myself. Have a great night and I will do the same. take care everyone. I am hanging in there. Be back tomorrow. 
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I just got home and I had a great day at program,and my boy-friend is doing great,he should be home tomorrow. I am doing pretty good so far,just not feeling well. I have program tomorrow and I will be off for the weekend,happy about that. I can not believe my birthday is April 8 which is falls on Easter this year.!!!!!!!!!!! I am going to lay down for awhile and watch t.v, I will write in my journal later when I get up. I just wanted to let everyone know that I am doing ok. I slip last night and I am not feeling good about that right now,but I am going to use my coping skills tonight and take care of myself. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can do. I promise to be back on the bus later on.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I am doing pretty good. I just got off of the phone with my boy-friend and he is doing pretty good. I am going to watch t.v. for awhile and yes I am going to write in my journal,thanks for reminding me about it. I do not know what my plans will be on Easter,probably spend it with my family and my boy-friend,I know that I will be moving eventually,when they get remodeling all these apartments around here,but they have to give me 30 days notice first and they will be helping me move,the workers around here,but everyone has to move into a new apartment,so I do not feel alone,but I will continue to post on the bus,when it does happen,not going to worry about it right now. I am going to go watch t.v and write in my journal,I have program tomorrow so I will be on the bus later tomorrow,more so in the evening time. I will be back on the soon,need to write right now
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I finally wrote in my journal and it helps so much,thanks for reminding me. I already took my medication for the night and I feel somewhat anxious,but I will be alright. I am going to play checkers on line and then I am going to go to bed. I am doing alright and I will be ok. It is hard to be alone when my boy-friend is usually here with me,but I manage it before I meant him and I will do it again. I just want him to feel better and get well,but I also have to take care of myself as well. I am going to get a good night sleep and I have program tomorrow,and I will be back on the bus tomorrow evening. I plan on getting a good night sleep,cause I need it right now. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I will be back tomorrow. Have a great night everyone,I will.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I am not sure if that is why my boy-friend is still in the hospital,all I know is that his white count is up,that is probably why he is in the hospital. I am watching a movie and I will be going to bed real soon.I hope you have a good night as well and get a good night sleep,I plan on doing the samething. I will be back on the bus tomorrow evening sometime. I am doing prettty good tonight. Have a great night and I will be back tomorrow,starting to get real tired. Thanks for asking.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I did not stay long at program,cause I was not feeling well,and I took a long nap, I just woke up and my boy-friend is out of the hospital and he is coming over for awhile,the doctor did not give him any medicaton to take when he got and he is feeling alot better. I am doing ok, I feel alot better than I did eariler. I feel somewhat anxious,but besides that I am doing ok. I have to take my medication after,cause I got up late from my nap,and did not take them yet,but I will after I get from the bus. I did have a good day at program. My therapist knew that I was leaving and she understand. I am going to watch t.v. for awhile and then I will write in my journal after I wake up some more. I did not do any SI today and I am proud of myself for that,it is not easy for me,but I am taking it one day at a time. I will be ok and I will be back on the bus later,promise.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I finally took my medication and I am sitting her spending time with my boy-friend before he leaves,and then I will write in my journal afterwards,before I go to bed. I am feeling alot better than I was before. I am doing pretty good and I am using my coping skills,which I will be using alot this weekend. I am taking it one day at a time and I am hanging in there. I am posting to let everyone know that I am doing alright. I will be back on the bus before I go to bed. taking care of myself right now.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
My boy-friend just left and I wrote in my journal and I feel good about that. What upset me is that I was sitting here waiting for his phone call and he never called me,which he never forgets,so I can make sure that he got home alright,and when I called him,he was downstairs having a cig.,and I asked him why he did not called me,and he told me that he thought his sister was on the phone,but when I tried it was ringing and I told him that. I also told him that I was upset cause I was worried about him,cause he just got out of the hopstial,it just made me mad that he did not call,he never forgets,maybe it is because I am feeling insurce,if I spell that right about the relationship,cause it is a new healthy relationship for me,and the past were abusive relationships. I just hope that I did not say anything that I should not of,I just wanted him to know how I was feeling and that it hurt me. I am going to be ok,he might be tired from the hosptial stay,he was only there for one night. I am glad that I wrote in my journal and it helped to get my feeling out. I am going to watch t.v for awhile and then go to bed. I am not mad at him,just hurt that is all. I am going to do alot of positive things for myself tomorrow and I deserve to do that for myself. I will be back on the bus tomorrow sometime,cause I have the day off. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I will be just fine tonight. taking care of myself right now. Be back tomorrow, going to bed
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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angelic212
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hi Candy sorry i havent been around lately,
ive been kind of busy with my photography course im taking , and doing homework and stuff, and also work, havent really had the time to stop by, but that doesnt mean i havent been thinking of you.
sorry to hear that your boyfriend is still in the hospital. i hope that he gets better soon,
you know something that is helping me? i made a special corner in m y room and i go there when i dont feel safe, i just made it two days ago,, but its helping me, i have pillows, blankets stuffed animals. and my radio next to it and also my portable dvd player and ipod
and my coping box, so when i dont feel safe i go to my corner and do something from my coping box.
also i made two mp3 cds and i listen to them when i dont feel safe.
i hope that you have a good day today. take care of yourself
i dont have therapy today, but i do have work, and lots of therapy assignmennts, i had family therapy yesterday. it went well i guess.
but i usually dont like family therapy .
i felt really tense yesterday.
but it went okay.
and today i have the off from therapy yay!
i hope that your day goes well take care of yourself
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ive been kind of busy with my photography course im taking , and doing homework and stuff, and also work, havent really had the time to stop by, but that doesnt mean i havent been thinking of you.
sorry to hear that your boyfriend is still in the hospital. i hope that he gets better soon,
you know something that is helping me? i made a special corner in m y room and i go there when i dont feel safe, i just made it two days ago,, but its helping me, i have pillows, blankets stuffed animals. and my radio next to it and also my portable dvd player and ipod
and my coping box, so when i dont feel safe i go to my corner and do something from my coping box.
also i made two mp3 cds and i listen to them when i dont feel safe.
i hope that you have a good day today. take care of yourself
i dont have therapy today, but i do have work, and lots of therapy assignmennts, i had family therapy yesterday. it went well i guess.
but i usually dont like family therapy .
i felt really tense yesterday.
but it went okay.
and today i have the off from therapy yay!
i hope that your day goes well take care of yourself
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Candy's Coping Thread
I had a hard time sleeping last night,cause I did not feel good,and I still do not,having my period does not help,sorry to put that there like that,but once I got to sleep,I did not want to get up. I am going to take it easy and do some positive things for myself. I did not do any SI to myself last night and I am proud of myself for that. I am not ready to move yet and I am not looking forward to it,but there is nothing I can do about it,everyone here has to move into a newer apartment. I am not going to think about it,cause it makes me anxious when I do. I am going to relax for awhile and take it easy,but I will be back on the bus later. going to have a good day
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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angelic212
- bus mechanic
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i made a special corner in m y room and i go there when i dont feel safe, i just made it two days ago,, but its helping me, i have pillows, blankets stuffed animals. and my radio next to it and also my portable dvd player and ipod
and my coping box, so when i dont feel safe i go to my corner and do something from my coping box.
also i made two mp3 cds and i listen to them when i dont feel safe
this is an idea that i think might help you candy
and my coping box, so when i dont feel safe i go to my corner and do something from my coping box.
also i made two mp3 cds and i listen to them when i dont feel safe
this is an idea that i think might help you candy
Candy's Coping Thread
That sounds like a great ideal,and I am going to try it,cause there are alot of times at night that I do not feel safe,even more so when I am by myself. I agree I think that,that would help me alot. Thanks for the ideal,I will give it a try. I hanging in there and I am doing the best I can right now.My boy-friend is glad to be home,he feels better.When I am home alone that is when the triggers get worse,or something happens that makes me feel anxious and then the SI happens.I will be back later on.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I have started to do positive things for myself,I did my nails,with this pretty nail polish and I am watching t.v.,then later I am going to write in my journal and work on my scapebook,besides that I am doing pretty good,just want to feel better.My case-manager is going to find me some information on dissocation,if I spell that right. I am going out for dinner with a friend later on and then my boy-friend is coming over later when I get back.I am going to keep myself busy today,but first I am going to lay down for awhile,cause the cramps are starting to bother me.I am glad that I have the day off,just wish I was feeling better,though. I will be back on the bus later on. I promise that.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I just woke up from a long nap,and I have a few things to do around my apartment and then I am going to sit back and do some fun things,I have not decided yet. My boy-friend is coming over at 3pm and he will stay here till I get back with my friend,we are going to go out and eat,she is volunteer from the Compeer Program,if anyone has ever heard of it,so we can have more time together.My boy-friend is doing pretty good. I am doing ok,just tired of my friends always want a ride from me,cause I have a car,and they do not,and I am starting to feel by them,have I told them how I felt? Yes I have,they know that I also have a learning disability and there are times that I think they are using me.It is the way I feel sometimes. I am not going to let it bother me,cause I will start to feel guilty and then my anxiety will start to go out,plus I do not want to slip with SI,cause of it.That happens with me alot when SI,there are times I feel so guilty for things. I have to remember that they have no control over my emotions or feelings,I do and I can not let them get the best of me,it is not worth it.I am going to go and get somethings done,and relax for awhile,but I will be back on the bus later on.I am hanging in there and doing the best I can do. Be back later
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I agree,cramps do suck and they make me feel lousy and the weight gain as well. I feeling alot better than I did before,just need to get motivaited,and I will do something pleasant for myself,no matter what. I have not SI today and that is a good thing,it is just hard for me,even more so when I am alone at night,and all the negative feelings come and they are soo strong and I do not like them at all.Which I can feel and get use to positive feelings more. Hate this. I am going to do some cleaning and I will be back later.taking care of myself right now.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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