Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

hey_joe · Post by **hey_joe** » Sat Mar 17, 2007 2:56 pm

I'm very sorry.

Scatterbrain · Post by **Scatterbrain** » Sat Mar 17, 2007 6:50 pm

Your door was locked, but I saw you in there. I wanted to come in and say hi and talk. I'm afraid that I will scare you away if I tell you more of my issues... I've gotten to this point of openness with a couple people before and then after a couple more conversations they freaked out and either ditched me or told someone. I want you to tell me that you are here and that you wont ditch me. I want you to tell me that everything is going to be ok. Please. I need someone stable and who is willing to help me and just listen. You are the closest I have to that right now. Please dont ditch me.

~Megan

Quiet little Angel · Post by **Quiet little Angel** » Sun Mar 18, 2007 10:07 am

R: i'm sorry i asked... you just confirmed my worst fear... don't go... please don't go...

mithz · Post by **mithz** » Mon Mar 19, 2007 10:30 pm

Why do you have to be nice to me? Why can't you just tell me to piss off? I don't like having to try and make sense of the confusion all the time, because I know that I keep doing the wrong things.

mephistopheles · Post by **mephistopheles** » Mon Mar 19, 2007 10:33 pm

you mean something to me. but not enough for me to stay here another year and beat my brains out against the same sodding wall.

how dare you binge in front of me? am i not lesson enough? your voice is fucked. if you get sores on your hands i'm taking you to hospital. no questions.

Porcelain_Doll · Post by **Porcelain_Doll** » Mon Mar 19, 2007 10:41 pm

I can't be what you need me to be. I know I say I'll try, but I know i can't. I just can't do it.

PassingCloud · Post by **PassingCloud** » Tue Mar 20, 2007 6:59 pm

I FUCKING HATE YOU! fucking bastards. every single one of you. i HATE you.
and i wish i could tell you in your FACE!

finding neverland · Post by **finding neverland** » Tue Mar 20, 2007 10:17 pm

You are so fucking low. This is not a game at all or a little play thing, just grow up please.

Peege · Post by **Peege** » Tue Mar 20, 2007 11:55 pm

i miss you. so much.

i only said goodbye because i thought you'd stop me.

i just wanted you to tell me you care. it hurts so much that you dont.

Scatterbrain · Post by **Scatterbrain** » Wed Mar 21, 2007 4:09 am

Can I come by on Friday? I have a question and I want to talk with you. I need to talk with you. I'm afraid that if I tell you more that you will ditch me. I will scare you and you will think I need more help and you will tell a counselor or my parents. I'm not in danger right now. I dont need more help at the moment. What I need is someone to listen and just be there. That is you. Please dont leave me. I dont know what I would do.

~Megan

cinitrom · Post by **cinitrom** » Wed Mar 21, 2007 4:57 am

I hate you I hate you I hate you.
I bet you hate me, too.
I bet you think I'm disgusting and stupid and selfish and worthless.
I bet you'd like to disown me.
You always say that, don't you? When I talk back and you're already angry or stressed, it's your threat. "I'm not going to take this shit anymore! You give me any more of this--" This is where you put your hand on my neck, right? You know, I don't like people touching me neck because of you. Thanks. "--bullshit and I'm going to disown you! You hear me? I'm going to fucking disown you!" That's what you say, right? Well, guess what! I don't give a flying rat's ass if you disown me! I don't want your money. I don't want your house. I don't even want your love.
I hate you.
(But sometimes I love you so so so much because you're my dad and I don't know what I'd do if I lost you I love you I love you I love you I'm so sorry so sorry sorry sorry please forgive me.)

Porcelain_Doll · Post by **Porcelain_Doll** » Wed Mar 21, 2007 8:21 pm

I hate you. I want to tell you how bad a parent you are. You have completely failed. You can't do anything right, and yet you expect me to be perfect. You tell me that's not what you expect, but nothing I ever do is good enough. And when I get praise from somewhere else you you shoot it down or hide it from me. I hate you.

Silentdancer · Post by **Silentdancer** » Wed Mar 21, 2007 11:09 pm

I want to let you in, but I can't for some reason. I've never let people in, not like this. Maybe someday...

Scatterbrain · Post by **Scatterbrain** » Thu Mar 22, 2007 5:04 am

Fuck you. I was looking forward to one thing this week. Watching the movie with you guys was going to be the highlight of the week. It was the one thing I was optimistic about. How stupid am I? Things like that always seem to get shot down and they never work out. When I am I going to learn that expectations only lead to disappointment. I thought it would be different this time. Its the day before your birthday, I thought you would be interesting in watching it and hanging out. I just wish things would work out once. Just once.

~Megan

Post by **Poppies** » Thu Mar 22, 2007 11:30 pm

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MusicalMorphine · Post by **MusicalMorphine** » Thu Mar 22, 2007 11:49 pm

I didn't know what to think when you said you were glad I turned out okay and normal considering. I am so fucked up you don't even know, but I don't want you to. I don't think it would do either of us any good right now.

crs13 · Post by **crs13** » Fri Mar 23, 2007 6:11 pm

okay. I've had it. It's not funny that I'm having trouble. I was sicker than you've ever been in your entire life. I have effing depression and I should have been in the effing hospital instead of taking the goddamn final exams. Your dad doesn't have a personality disorder; when you went home for winter break, he didn't end up in jail for the third time; you've never had to testify against him in criminal court; you've never had to deal with the idea that some of the stuff he's done constitutes emotional abuse; you've never had to deal with the nightmarish family conflict that will never go away; you've never had to talk your younger brother out of attempting suicide; you've never had to watch helplessly after your mom attempted suicide; you even have the freedom to not worry where your next semester's tuition is coming from, and what's going to happen to your family when you get kicked off your ex-stepfather's medical insurance. You're not struggling to keep yourself off the path to eating disorder; you've never hurt so much emotionally that all you could do was lash out at yourself, give yourself physical scars to go with the emotional ones; you've never stared down off a bridge, unsure if you can control the desire to jump.

Yes, I collapsed under the weight of all that. Don't you DARE tell me that makes me weak.

Porcelain_Doll · Post by **Porcelain_Doll** » Fri Mar 23, 2007 9:51 pm

I need help, breathing excersises aren't going to cut it. I just can't bring myself to talk to you, just because you're an adult. I need help but I stop myself from getting it.

I don't know if I want to have sex with you. It scares me.

she's.just.a.girl15 · Post by **she's.just.a.girl15** » Sat Mar 24, 2007 4:03 am

I need your support. I've wanted to tell you for so long but I don't want to bring you down like she did last year. I don't want to be like her. I need someone to talk to. I want us to be able to act like real best friends and not pretend these things aren't happening. I want you to care.

Porcelain_Doll · Post by **Porcelain_Doll** » Sat Mar 24, 2007 2:39 pm

I am afraid that she messed messed me up permanently. That I will never be able to let anyone close to me lean on me without me running away. I'm afraid that he'll get sick of it and leave me. I'm afraid that it isn't her fault at all and I'm just a selfish fucked up bitch.

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