Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by Scatterbrain » Sun Mar 11, 2007 1:58 am

I want to tell you. I want to tell you everything. I want someone to know. I think you would have the best reaction and the best advice. But what if you dont, what if you hate me, what if your scared of me? I cant run the risk of that happening... I know I will most likely never tell you, but I still think about every once and a while.
"The impossible just takes a little longer."
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I'm not here/This isn't happening"
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Post by steady hands » Mon Mar 12, 2007 5:19 am



it's been more than 50 days since the last time I si'ed. i want to do it just because i'm afraid i'll never do it again.

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Post by chnacat » Mon Mar 12, 2007 6:18 am

i cannot stand myself. it's difficult to be in my skin. i want to die.

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Post by mephistopheles » Mon Mar 12, 2007 9:22 pm

commitment isn't commitment if it has an expiry date.
maybe if it had been indefinite i wouldn't have been able to handle it.
“Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.”

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Post by Silentdancer » Mon Mar 12, 2007 11:20 pm

I want to kidnap my niece to protect her from the rapist that is her father. If only I could...

There is no light at the end of my tunnel.

I can't stand the site of my naked body.

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Post by caged bird » Wed Mar 14, 2007 7:52 pm

i'm frightened that i don't have the willpower not to pick up the blade and SI again
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Being almost devastated is horrible because it lingers. But total devastation brings a kind of peace. It lets you give up.
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Post by PassingCloud » Wed Mar 14, 2007 8:16 pm

in my heart i know the abuse happened.
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Post by Quiet little Angel » Wed Mar 14, 2007 10:52 pm

i don't just swim to stay fit or to train my knees... i do it to get rid of the rest of my fat... i don't want to stop until theres absolutely nothing left...

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Post by Porcelain_Doll » Thu Mar 15, 2007 12:50 am

-PMs are ok-

Sometimes I feel like you're pushing me, but I don't say anything because I don't want to hurt you anymore.

I don't want to lose my childhood, and sometimes I feel like you're stealing it.

I just want you to hold me while I cry.

I hate lying to my little brother.

I hate my mom for not telling me she was on Prozac. I hate her for not mentioning her SAD. I hate that I might have been able to mention to her that I may have SAD if she had told me about herself. I hate that I thought that it would kill her to know about my SI.

I hate lying to my parents.
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Post by ComfortablyNumb » Fri Mar 16, 2007 5:34 pm

*PM's Ok*


Sometimes I miss you like hell, but I've moved on and so have you and I think that that's what hurts me the most...That you got over me.

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Post by MusicalMorphine » Fri Mar 16, 2007 7:42 pm

I really hate my mom sometimes.

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Post by Lynds » Fri Mar 16, 2007 10:48 pm

*SI Triggers*







I have a money box with teddy bears in circus outfits on that my late grandpa gave me years and years ago. I put pennies and 5 pence pieces in it to stop them clogging up my wallet...I also keep my razor blades and a small emergency stash of bandages and elastoplast in it.
I told my partner I would try and stop SIing but when we move I'm taking my money box with me and I'll tell him it's because of the sentimental value.
"She would never know, because he would never tell her. Somehow if she’d known the worst parts, she couldn’t have gone on being a haven for him… He needed her ignorance to hide in. Yet at the same time, he wanted to know and be known as deeply as possible. And the two desires were irreconcilable"
From Regeneration by Pat Barker

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Post by Lynds » Fri Mar 16, 2007 10:57 pm

It makes me happy that when I'm off work-either sick or on holiday-they often have to close my department as there is no one else to run it. The shop loses money but it makes me feel like they need me(which I very rarely do when I'm actually there!) I feel guilty for thinking this though...
"She would never know, because he would never tell her. Somehow if she’d known the worst parts, she couldn’t have gone on being a haven for him… He needed her ignorance to hide in. Yet at the same time, he wanted to know and be known as deeply as possible. And the two desires were irreconcilable"
From Regeneration by Pat Barker

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Post by Scatterbrain » Sat Mar 17, 2007 11:59 pm

I'm scared of what you will think of me. All of you... Please dont judge me...

~Megan
"The impossible just takes a little longer."
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )

"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead

Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics

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Post by luckyou03 » Sun Mar 18, 2007 6:07 am

Im waiting for my parents to die so i dont hurt them.

I want to be 5 again when i had dreams.

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Post by wilson » Sun Mar 18, 2007 7:48 am

PM's ok

i have made myself very ill by trying to od. and i wont get help because i dont want to worry you and call you from hospital explaining everything
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Post by Silentdancer » Sun Mar 18, 2007 3:49 pm

many days, I don't think I am going to make it. I want to create my own end.

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Post by starcatuk » Sun Mar 18, 2007 5:09 pm

I am scared that i wont be able to stop SIing
I tell people when they see my cuts that I was scratched by a cat, the only problem is that I don't have a cat.
Sometimes I want people to just leave me alone but when I ask them they always want to know whats wrong.
I hate lying but I do it all the time
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Post by miffy » Mon Mar 19, 2007 4:04 pm

*PM fine*


I wish that i had the courage to give up




* SI triggers below*





I wish that i could cut myself deeper, harder and longer, i wish that i could make myself bleed for ages and i wish that i could hurt myself in other ways too

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Post by Porcelain_Doll » Mon Mar 19, 2007 10:46 pm

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I sit in church and think about blowing my brains out.
Never to suffer would never to have been blessed.
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