Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
I dreamt about you again last night. I tried so hard not to kiss you in my dream, I asked if you loved her and you said yes, I woke up hurting and feeling guilty about my boyfriend. I'm sorry, we all deserve better than this.
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~Why did you spring that on me all of a sudden on me like that. You knew way in advance....you could have told me weeks in advance, instead you told me only gave me a few days to prepare...did you forget about my abandonment problems??? I know they aren't as bad as before, but I still have them...I still have to deal with them...and this week I am left alone to deal with them alone...I wish you would have given me advance warning...you know better...you are my T for goodness sakes!!!
~I am angry at you....how could you steal from you workplace and then lose your job-just to save money for beer-you said you had the money to pay for the stuff! How can I trust you in my own home? How can I trust you not to steal from me to buy beer? You even steal from your own parents! You have lied to me so many times...but I have forgiven you over and over and over again...what am I supposed to do??? You want to get together now...I don't want to be your friend anymore...it's too much...what kind of friend repeatedly lies to the other, I have never lied to you...How do I know that you have not already stole from me already to feed your habit??? You have been to my place so many times...I just don't trust you anymore...and why should I...But how do I break off my friendship with you...I am good friends with your boyfriend(before you were an item)...I don't want to mess that up...what a mess you put me in...he's mad at you too you know...but he's not saying anything...yet anyway...
~I am angry at you....how could you steal from you workplace and then lose your job-just to save money for beer-you said you had the money to pay for the stuff! How can I trust you in my own home? How can I trust you not to steal from me to buy beer? You even steal from your own parents! You have lied to me so many times...but I have forgiven you over and over and over again...what am I supposed to do??? You want to get together now...I don't want to be your friend anymore...it's too much...what kind of friend repeatedly lies to the other, I have never lied to you...How do I know that you have not already stole from me already to feed your habit??? You have been to my place so many times...I just don't trust you anymore...and why should I...But how do I break off my friendship with you...I am good friends with your boyfriend(before you were an item)...I don't want to mess that up...what a mess you put me in...he's mad at you too you know...but he's not saying anything...yet anyway...
"If you learn from your suffering,
and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,
you might be able to help someone else who's now
in the phase you may have just completed.
Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."
Anonymous
and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,
you might be able to help someone else who's now
in the phase you may have just completed.
Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."
Anonymous
J: I think I am in love with you, and that scares me to no end as we are literally on opposite ends of the world.
M&D: Fuck you both for not being there for me when I needed you the most. If ever you expect forgiveness for all the shit I have supposidly put you through, you can forget it. You weren't there for me, and I didn't intentionally act out, I was just trying to find any sort of attention you would give me. You shouldn't have had me if you hadn't wanted to love me.
L: Thank you for rescuing me all those years ago
P: I wish I had said this when you were alive, but I love you.
M&D: Fuck you both for not being there for me when I needed you the most. If ever you expect forgiveness for all the shit I have supposidly put you through, you can forget it. You weren't there for me, and I didn't intentionally act out, I was just trying to find any sort of attention you would give me. You shouldn't have had me if you hadn't wanted to love me.
L: Thank you for rescuing me all those years ago
P: I wish I had said this when you were alive, but I love you.
- Silent_Tears
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why can't you leave me the fuck alone? why do you have to continually bother me? why can't you just let things go? i don't know if i love you. i don't know if i ever loved you. i can't feel any of that right now. all i feel is blank. the only emotion i feel when you're around is anger. the sight of you makes me angry. talking to you makes me angry. no i don't know why. i know i have to figure it out.... but i don't know if i really want to EVER get back with you. you keep bringing God into the picture. you keep saying HE wants us back together. it makes me feel farther from you. it brings up stuff with my dad. he used to pray for God to forgive US. it was HIM that needed forgiveness. and it was him that would continually do things even after asking for forgiveness.
how do i know that you're going to stay this way? how do i know that you're not just going to leave me ten years down the road? i'd rather save myself the trouble now and get it over with. maybe everything does stem from me and what happened with my dad. maybe i'm just a cold bitch (not that you said that directly). even thinking about having sex with you scares the shit out of me. i'm so enjoying my time by myself. i've never had this... neither have you... but you're not enjoying it. i really don't know what to do anymore. i'm lost and confused. i don't know what i want. i don't know who i even am. it makes for a shitty relationship.
are you sure you even love me?
how do i know that you're going to stay this way? how do i know that you're not just going to leave me ten years down the road? i'd rather save myself the trouble now and get it over with. maybe everything does stem from me and what happened with my dad. maybe i'm just a cold bitch (not that you said that directly). even thinking about having sex with you scares the shit out of me. i'm so enjoying my time by myself. i've never had this... neither have you... but you're not enjoying it. i really don't know what to do anymore. i'm lost and confused. i don't know what i want. i don't know who i even am. it makes for a shitty relationship.
are you sure you even love me?
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Jules: I dreamed about dancing with you last night. I want to hold you close to me and feel you there. You are such a beautiful lovely boy, and I'm proud to be your friend. Is it selfish that I want more?
An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth.
Very good. That way the whole world will be blind and toothless.
Very good. That way the whole world will be blind and toothless.
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I wish I could tell you how much I just want to make you happy. That the things I do that hurt you, are because I just can't be perfect. No matter how hard I try i just can't do it. You say you're not looking for perfection, but what else could you want? I wish I could be perfect.
Never to suffer would never to have been blessed.
-Edgar Allan Poe
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-Edgar Allan Poe
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i wish you would have helped me take care of my wounds and not walked away from the bathroom so you couldn't hear my do it.
[I'm talking about my life.][I can't seem to get that through to you.]
[I'm not just talking about one person,][I'm talking about everybody.]
[I'm talking about form, I'm talking about content.][I'm talking about inter-relationships.]
[I'm talking about God, the Devil, Hell, Heaven!]
[Do you understand?]
[Finally?]
(one flew over the cuckoo's nest)
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J: I'm not going to tell you until I've managed it, cause I want you to be proud of me, and you won't be if I fail. But I'm starting to learn ballroom dancing so you'll be proud of me when we dance. I want to make you proud.
An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth.
Very good. That way the whole world will be blind and toothless.
Very good. That way the whole world will be blind and toothless.
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feel better soon <3
'cos i am a rocket on fire[[alone on its journey, home to the quickening ground with no-one there to catch it]]
-kate bush
You do it to yourself, you do, that's what really hurts,
you do it to yourself, just you, you and no-one else
{radiohead}
*~*happiness isn't happiness without a violin playing goat*~*
-kate bush
You do it to yourself, you do, that's what really hurts,
you do it to yourself, just you, you and no-one else
{radiohead}
*~*happiness isn't happiness without a violin playing goat*~*
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**drugs**
I don't want your shitty coke. You have BAD drugs, and I don't fucking want them. I want good clean speed. Or acid. Or junk. I want good drugs. And I want them now. It serves you right for taking bollocks drugs. It really really does.
It's shit. But you keep going back to the same guy you stupid twat.
I want drugs.
It's shit. But you keep going back to the same guy you stupid twat.
I want drugs.
p1. i hope one day you realize that all those decisions you made for me and for my own good are the same ones that almost drove me insane.
p2. i just wish from the bottom of my heart that you get what you deserve, and i hope it hurts..
p3. i thought i could count on you, after all that's why we met. i give up.. thanks for the good times..
p4. you are the most wonderful person i've ever met, i love you =*
p2. i just wish from the bottom of my heart that you get what you deserve, and i hope it hurts..
p3. i thought i could count on you, after all that's why we met. i give up.. thanks for the good times..
p4. you are the most wonderful person i've ever met, i love you =*
Ever unfolding, ever expanding, ever adventurous and torturous and Never Done..
Making my entrance again with my usual flair, sure of my lines.. No one is there..
~Send in the Clowns~ <-- my place
~Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name~ <-- expressions
Making my entrance again with my usual flair, sure of my lines.. No one is there..
~Send in the Clowns~ <-- my place
~Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name~ <-- expressions
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im sorry. please let me explain that what i said wasnt cos i hate you. its cos i was angry. i needed someone to blame. im sorry it had to be you.
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R.I.P. 1953-2008
counting stars
im over existing in limbo
im over the myths and placebos
i dont really mind if i just fade away
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R.I.P. 1953-2008
counting stars
im over existing in limbo
im over the myths and placebos
i dont really mind if i just fade away
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I hate people like you, who go around putting other people down to make yourself feel good. Your a disgusting bitch, and need to be slapped in the face. (people at my school not for anyone here)
Life's complicated.
*hugs* + Me = always
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand... Then South America.
how dare you judge me?how do you manage to judge me so silently??
your lack of words speak volumes and makes me so angry.but then you shouldnt even matter.your no better than anyone else in my life.you think your so perfect.and you are.
your lack of words speak volumes and makes me so angry.but then you shouldnt even matter.your no better than anyone else in my life.you think your so perfect.and you are.
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I want to talk to you. the text said it all "as much as I hate talking about it, not talking about it can be almost worse at times". Please reach out and save me...
~Megan
~Megan
"The impossible just takes a little longer."
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
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