Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
- acdcrocker1909
- forum moderator emeritus
- Posts: 10453
- Joined: Fri Dec 10, 2004 3:42 am
- Gender: Transguy
- Location: Little Blue dot in a sea of Red
i need you.. i need you right now to tell me everything's going to be okay... i need you to make me believe in myself.. i need you to tell me not to be afraid of my own damned self.. i really need you.
Music is life.. we each have our own symphony.. and we control it for the most part.. sometimes instruments drop out.. and others join in.. but when the music fades and the symphony is done.. then we have created a beautiful, personal piece. - Me.
Less Traveled Roads <-- Everyone Welcome.
- half/hearted
- orange smartie
- Posts: 1728
- Joined: Sat Aug 19, 2006 7:49 am
- Gender: androgyne
- Location: suburbia
WHAT THE xxxx IS WRONG WITH YOU?! WHY COULDN'T YOU HAVE BROUGHT ME UP NORMAL SO THAT I COULD SURVIVE AROUND NORMAL PEOPLE?! YOU REFUSED TO PUT ME IN A NORMAL SCHOOL SO I'VE GROWN UP A FREAK. NOW I CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT. I CAN'T WRITE THIS xxxxING ESSAY, I CAN'T EVEN MAKE FRIENDS.
YOU KEEP ASKING IF YOU'RE GOOD PARENTS. YOU KNOW WHAT? YOU'RE NOT. YOU RUINED ME.
xxxx YOU.
YOU KEEP ASKING IF YOU'RE GOOD PARENTS. YOU KNOW WHAT? YOU'RE NOT. YOU RUINED ME.
xxxx YOU.
Please be gentle with me.
you will fly and you will crawl
god knows even angels fall
no such thing as you "lost it all"
god knows even angels fall
you will fly and you will crawl
god knows even angels fall
no such thing as you "lost it all"
god knows even angels fall
- Licentia Poetica
- forum moderator emeritus
- Posts: 24935
- Joined: Sat Jan 25, 2003 10:06 am
- Gender: Female
- Location: Australia
- Contact:
If we knew each other's secrets, what comforts we should find.
John Churton Collins
- daisy_chain
- bus conductor
- Posts: 5354
- Joined: Mon Mar 28, 2005 8:55 pm
- HakunaMatata
- one of us
- Posts: 6860
- Joined: Thu Oct 06, 2005 8:30 pm
- Gender: Female
- Location: See that place in the distance? Not there!
I only met you once. We'd talked before that. But you gave all the right signals. So no wonder I was kissing you etc. Then you went off with some other girl-who you're actually seeing. I wouldn't usually mind, but I actually like you. I rarely like lads in the sense that I would actually date them, now where does this leave me? Back in the rut I just crawled from? Great. I'm just glad you told me, instead of letting me think it was another randomer and that something still might happen between us, but equally now I'm confused- if you're seeing another girl who is there, why go with another girl too.
Ache-me se for capaz HM's place- everyone welcome but please read first post!
'Love is worth everything. How much are you willing to risk?'~Umara, gone forever, forgotten never.
'You can't put a price on happiness. Follow your dreams'~ Mithz
I don't like country and western. I don't like rock music, I don't like rockabilly or rock and roll particularly. I don't like much, really, do I? But what I do like, I love passionately. ~ The Pet Shop Boys
- Scatterbrain
- bus conductor
- Posts: 5074
- Joined: Thu Sep 22, 2005 3:17 am
- Location: Washington state, USA
I want to tell you. I want your help. I want to know your opinion on my situation. I want guidance and help to make this decision. I just dont know if I want to start this process over. Last time you get scared and thought that telling someone would make it all go away. I dont want you to tell someone because, believe it or not, I have this sort of under control. I'm not going to kill myself any fucking minute. But you dont understand that SI doesnt = SU... I'm not sure I can risk telling you and having you misunderstand...
~Megan
~Megan
"The impossible just takes a little longer."
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
Im sorry Im not there for you more, if i could be I would, Im so sorry that its my fault that you've fallen apart, Im selfish and I wish there was another way, but at the moment there's no way out for me to be there, but Im here and Im listening and I always will be, so sorry baby.
'Art washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life' Picasso
'IS THERE NO WAY OUT OF THE MIND?' Sylvia Plath
My Poetry
http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=97459
My Place
http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=97307
'IS THERE NO WAY OUT OF THE MIND?' Sylvia Plath
My Poetry
http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=97459
My Place
http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=97307
- styled_wrong
- beyond inspiring
- Posts: 8268
- Joined: Fri Oct 14, 2005 1:36 am
- mephistopheles
- cow control
- Posts: 24355
- Joined: Thu May 26, 2005 4:40 pm
- Location: London
- red umbrellas
- beyond inspiring
- Posts: 8175
- Joined: Mon Mar 01, 2004 8:50 am
- Location: Sydney
i'm leaving again
i can't cope in this house, this city
it's nothing you've done
it's just that there'snext to no one and nothing here for me
so i'm gone. soon.
i can't cope in this house, this city
it's nothing you've done
it's just that there'snext to no one and nothing here for me
so i'm gone. soon.
And excuses and excuses and excuses
Hold On To Yourself - Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds
"We paint a picture of a scenario - and then we become afraid of it" - Andrea Fella
- zombiepeople
- knows the ropes
- Posts: 4561
- Joined: Thu Jan 11, 2007 3:53 am
- Location: next to the spooky bus stop...i've never seen a bus there though...hmm
- Contact:
- Scatterbrain
- bus conductor
- Posts: 5074
- Joined: Thu Sep 22, 2005 3:17 am
- Location: Washington state, USA
Shut up! I cant deal with your fighting and your passive aggressiveness right now...
"The impossible just takes a little longer."
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
-
- settling in
- Posts: 106
- Joined: Sat Mar 03, 2007 12:54 pm
- Location: Bangor, NI
W: You mean the world to me and I miss you. I know you don't want it, but I just want to hold you in my arms and love you. It's hard to accept that it was only a physical thing, but I'm glad it happened. S is so lucky to have you.
X: I can't help you if you won't help yourself. That is one of the reasons I have distanced myself. Also I can't stand your double standards.
J: C is one of the luckiest guys in the world, having someone like you. You are always there for me - I want to be there for you the same way. I hope we stay friends forever.
Ju: I love you. You know I do. I wish you'd let me in.... I wish we could be together... You are such a good person, and it feels good being around you. I hope we can be together in the future when I'm closer to you... All my love.
X: I can't help you if you won't help yourself. That is one of the reasons I have distanced myself. Also I can't stand your double standards.
J: C is one of the luckiest guys in the world, having someone like you. You are always there for me - I want to be there for you the same way. I hope we stay friends forever.
Ju: I love you. You know I do. I wish you'd let me in.... I wish we could be together... You are such a good person, and it feels good being around you. I hope we can be together in the future when I'm closer to you... All my love.
An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth.
Very good. That way the whole world will be blind and toothless.
Very good. That way the whole world will be blind and toothless.
- balletomane
- one of us
- Posts: 13705
- Joined: Fri Feb 11, 2005 3:54 am
- Quiet little Angel
- just plain inspiring
- Posts: 7754
- Joined: Wed Nov 02, 2005 2:10 pm
- Location: somewhere between blue tulips and anxiety...
i'm so sorry i lied to you... but i had to... you'd never have considered getting me a T if i didn't... please forgive me...
/May
Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
- Scatterbrain
- bus conductor
- Posts: 5074
- Joined: Thu Sep 22, 2005 3:17 am
- Location: Washington state, USA
I feel so bad for you. I didnt know that you still love her. She was bad for you, but it she was the one who made you realize all that stuff... You dont know how much I wish I could make it all better for you and fix your life, but I cant do that. I'm not able, and I'm not at a point where I can take on your issues and really try to help you... Please take care of yourself. I love you!
~Megan
~Megan
"The impossible just takes a little longer."
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
-
- settling in
- Posts: 106
- Joined: Sat Mar 03, 2007 12:54 pm
- Location: Bangor, NI
How dare you. My behaviour that weekend was more fucking masculine than I ever am or will be naturally because I was TRYING to fit in. I may "champion" myself as a queen now, but back then I tried my fcuking hardest to be as masculine as I could. They judged on looks, not personality. THAT is what annoyed me.
And as for the "other people didn't appear fully male or female" comment, were they judged to not be "genuine" based on that? That is my point. They were accepted at face value. They weren't suspected of not being trans. So why was I?
And as for the "other people didn't appear fully male or female" comment, were they judged to not be "genuine" based on that? That is my point. They were accepted at face value. They weren't suspected of not being trans. So why was I?
An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth.
Very good. That way the whole world will be blind and toothless.
Very good. That way the whole world will be blind and toothless.
Who is online
Users browsing this forum: No registered users and 95 guests