Right Now I Feel... Version 2.0

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Right Now I Feel... Version 2.0

Post by Spidey » Wed Feb 07, 2007 6:00 pm

<i>Right now I feel...
Version 2.0</i>

This thread is meant to be a place where you write how you feel at the moment.

Some advice and guidelines to help make your stay in the thread better (xD):

- Are you having problems naming your emotions? <a href="http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=6769">This thread</a> might help you.

- Focus not only on the negatives, but on the positives as well. As it was said in the <a href="http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=106362">Coping Challenge</a> thread, it's possible to feel <i>both</i> a positive and a negative emotion.

- Okay, so you feel x way. There's a thread on <a href="http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=101831">how you feel and what you are going to do about it</a>. Many feelings are a call for action on your part, so in that thread you can plan out what it is you'd like to do given the specific feeling.

- I know this is often said, but if you are suicidal please get help offline. There is not much that we can do for you online. Talk to an adult, a peer or someone you trust, your crisis/therapist/psychiatric team, or go to the ER / A&E.

- Please remember to spoil where necessary, and remember: <a href="http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=105570">SI is an <i>action</i>, not a <i>feeling</i>.</a>
there is, in the end, the letting go.
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Post by Smeagol » Wed Feb 07, 2007 6:42 pm

I am feeling frustrated, because my instincts tell me that my sweetheart is upset with me and I feel like I'm being ignored except to fob me off with "no, nothing's wrong". (No, really. Not paranoicially "I've screwed up for all time" because I did this little thing wrong. Just plain old "we were in the middle of an almost fight and he's stopped emailing me except when I ask point blank for him to clarify whether he's not emailing because he's upset or whether he's not emailing because he's busy, at which point he says "I'm fine" and ends the email right there, with no kisses and no elaboration) This is frustrating because I can't sort things out unless he's willing to talk to me, and I find it hard to think warm thoughts about him when I feel like I have to defend the feelings and thoguhts I expressed in our not-quite-fight on Monday. ("Not-quite" because he was going ballistic at me but I was trying to stay calm and reasonable).

I am feeling daunted by the evening ahead. It feels lonely and full of work and because of the aforementioned fight, I can't cheer myself up by thinking of how I'm loved even though I'm on my own right now, or by looking forward to seeing my sweetheart tomorrow.

I am feeling pleased at having made dinner, though I am regretting the number of mushrooms I cooked.
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Post by one out of none » Wed Feb 07, 2007 6:51 pm

In a positive sense, I feel proud that my exam went well and my essay grade was good. :) I also feel a little isolated, but I'm going to try and fix that soon.

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Post by Seeshellz » Wed Feb 07, 2007 7:03 pm

tired
terrified
hopeful
glad
guilty
hurt
sorry
loved
"If you learn from your suffering,

and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,

you might be able to help someone else who's now

in the phase you may have just completed.

Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."

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Post by Smeagol » Wed Feb 07, 2007 9:43 pm

sad and trapped because he is cross with me and he's insisting that I'm totally worng and out of order and I don'tt hink I am and he's acting in a really hurtful manner. I feel trapped because I feel that I'm getting treated like shit because he's stressed about other stuff, and I've been as reasonable and calm as I can be and I don't know what to do when he's just misrepresenting what I've said to him.
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Post by balletomane » Thu Feb 08, 2007 12:49 am

I feel tired, anxious, hopeful, sad, and a little relieved all at the same time.

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Post by StevieLynn » Thu Feb 08, 2007 2:33 am

Scared, miserable, exhausted, and depressed.

But also pleased that when I really examine how I am feeling, I know that I do not want to die, as I used to when I felt this way, I want to find a way for the hurt to go away.
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Post by there_is_hope » Thu Feb 08, 2007 4:37 am

sad
su
tired
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Post by Licentia Poetica » Thu Feb 08, 2007 7:00 am

tired
down

but supported.
:redstar: the time to tell a person you care is now :redstar: the paper crane chain of hope :redstar:

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Post by Neviah » Thu Feb 08, 2007 9:27 am

Happy
Sleepy
Excited
SU

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Post by friarygirl » Fri Feb 09, 2007 5:20 am

Void
Invalid
Invalidated

I'm not "allowed" to feel anything else. I have to be strong.
Let us think the unthinkable, let us do the undoable.
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Post by 5th section » Fri Feb 09, 2007 12:18 pm

bloody brilliant....but worried it won't last...but wanting to enjoy it while it does...
...then one day I realised that the people you see in waiting rooms and car parks and on trains are really far more interesting. That they all have whole novels inside them, a fabric of scar tissues, photos and memories. They are comedies and tragedies and - more often - both at the same time.
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Post by fuyumi » Fri Feb 09, 2007 5:20 pm

hopeless
worthless
helpless
worried
tired



dysphoric

- so i turn myself inside out in hope someone will see -
- these precious things let them break their hold on me -

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Post by chnacat » Sat Feb 10, 2007 12:52 am

suicidal
afraid
alone
tired
out of touch with myself
urgy
triggered

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Post by zombiepeople » Sun Feb 11, 2007 3:42 am

unpleasent
dirty
sleepy
sad
SU
somewhat hungry

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Post by the edge of the world » Sun Feb 11, 2007 6:12 am

sad
forgotten
scared
hopeless
small
insignificant
unworthy
su
tired
:bag: like hiding.

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Post by steady hands » Sun Feb 11, 2007 7:25 am

cold.
a little lonely.
tired, but not sleepy.
urgy.
anxious.
I wish I had something to smoke.

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Post by Masquerade » Sun Feb 11, 2007 7:42 am

Tired
isolated
calm

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Post by K8ty » Sun Feb 11, 2007 8:20 am

I'm feeling rather.. disjointed right now. Like nothing is really connected, and everythings just far away. Having trouble putting things together in relation to each other.. like if I spend too much money on one thing I won't have enough for something else like food. That and just far away.. the world outside the hospital takes time to get used to.

Tired as well.. kinda late.

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Post by the edge of the world » Sun Feb 11, 2007 8:44 am

calm
sad
alone
disappointed

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