Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by Kaleb » Mon Feb 05, 2007 3:39 pm

im too pushy arent i ?? i just know it
im controlling and pushy and ............. i dont know
:purpstar: Hold Fast To Your Dreams, For If Dreams Die, Life Is a Broken Winged Bird, That Cannot Fly :purpstar:

If you think outside the box there's no such thing as square one.

No matter which sleeve you wear your heart,
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Tomorrow is another day to turn it all around
I will stop when I'm ready I'll shown everyone my cards
But for now I'll keep on playing even when the game gets hard.



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Post by beautiful_facade » Mon Feb 05, 2007 7:28 pm

i wish i never had to eat ever again.
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Post by Spidey » Mon Feb 05, 2007 8:47 pm

I've got a path and a plan.
I know what to do.
And I know where to begin.
And I know what is <i>right</i>.

[Fear not - this has *absolutely* nothing to do with suicide]
there is, in the end, the letting go.
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Post by purplefroggydishwasher » Tue Feb 06, 2007 5:07 am

i'm completely and hoplessly infatuated with him. i think about him all the time. i want him but i don't love him.

i keep throwing food to the chooks so i have an excuse not to eat, cus there is nothing there. it's the family's food.
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Post by Scatterbrain » Tue Feb 06, 2007 7:17 am

I'm invisible. I can see everyone else's pain and help them with their problems. Sometimes I *want* someone to see my pain and at least try to help me...
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Post by Koru » Tue Feb 06, 2007 1:03 pm

I'm not over you at all - I'm afraid I am only seeing this new guy to distract myself from you and that's not fair on him. It's stupid because I know there is no hope of areal relationship with you and with him it could be great but it's you I fall asleep thinking of.

Every time I see an army uniform, hear about our forces on the news, read of another military death in the middle east, I think of you.
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Post by Kaleb » Tue Feb 06, 2007 6:41 pm

I love you so much that it hurts me
and sometimes i might act cold but its because i feel like im going to bo over the top with everything and it might scare you
just ...... i love you thats all.
:purpstar: Hold Fast To Your Dreams, For If Dreams Die, Life Is a Broken Winged Bird, That Cannot Fly :purpstar:

If you think outside the box there's no such thing as square one.

No matter which sleeve you wear your heart,
Whichever way you wear your crown,
Tomorrow is another day to turn it all around
I will stop when I'm ready I'll shown everyone my cards
But for now I'll keep on playing even when the game gets hard.



:redstar: 19/07/1952 - 30/12/2013 Never Ever Forgotten :redstar:

13/05/14 - I Love Her

19/4/15 - The Day I Said Yes

17/06/17 - Rings swapped, Hearts interlocked

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Post by Quiet little Angel » Wed Feb 07, 2007 12:18 am

i can't deal with things like the Berlin trip... i need my safety... and i don't feel safe going on a trip that i didn't plan...
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Post by Seeshellz » Wed Feb 07, 2007 4:42 am

I'm scared to go to bed and I don't know why..and I need my sleep I only got 2hrs of sleep last night... :(
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and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,

you might be able to help someone else who's now

in the phase you may have just completed.

Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."

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Post by VowsOfSadness » Wed Feb 07, 2007 4:57 am

i loved you now im so scared how could you hurt me or is this all in my head
*Challenges welcome*
I always love a :lpurpstar:

I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.

Drop by my place & say hi :)
Ask me anything!!!

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Post by VowsOfSadness » Wed Feb 07, 2007 4:59 am

bad girl
*Challenges welcome*
I always love a :lpurpstar:

I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.

Drop by my place & say hi :)
Ask me anything!!!

I'm fully Recovered!

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Post by friarygirl » Wed Feb 07, 2007 6:21 am

I can't sleep. It's not fair, I want to sleep.

I pretend like I know the answers. sometimes I do, but I can't use them for myself. I'm tired of hurting and being there for her, I want someone to be there for me. I'm so selfish. so bloody selfish. sometimes I think I only want it to be ok for her so I don't have to suffer any more.

Oh damn, thats a big secret. :(
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Post by Seeshellz » Wed Feb 07, 2007 9:53 am

I don't know if I have been SA as a child or not but some wierd memories are coming up now that might suggest that...And I'm terrified...
"If you learn from your suffering,

and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,

you might be able to help someone else who's now

in the phase you may have just completed.

Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."

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Post by kendra » Wed Feb 07, 2007 10:38 am

Comments ok

~I don't want to forgive him, I want to tell someone what he did
~I wish I could get a T but i never know what to say
~I want to cry, I want people to know I have feelings
~I wish I just didn't care and not worry bout anyone elses feelings

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Post by Hisforever » Wed Feb 07, 2007 10:40 am

i say i hate him and i want nothing to do with him but thats just my way of protecting myself - i want him to be proud of me more than anything in this entire world.

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Post by Forget Me » Wed Feb 07, 2007 11:30 am

do i love your best friend more than i love you?
god, i hope not.
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Post by mephistopheles » Wed Feb 07, 2007 11:40 am

i'm only safe with a hospital band around my wrist



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Post by Guest » Wed Feb 07, 2007 6:01 pm

I am a good girl most of the time. Really i am :w:ink:
So, i don't much like the manipulative member that i seem to be seen as atm.

It took a lot of courage for me to be honest. Generally, i'm not very good at that. I just tend to say I'm fine, and that's that. And, it seems like when i finally pluck up the courage to be honest, I receive a negative reaction. And that hurts.

I felt confident in my mind that in x days I would not be here. Wrongly, i posted that. But NOT with the intent of threatening or manipulating people. But, it seems that a lot of people thought that WAS my intent.

I know I did wrong, and for that, I'm sorry to every single person involved. But now that everyone has seen the "real me", the bitch, i'm scared. Scared that people will always hate me, and be angry at me, and stuff.

If I could go back to Sunday, I would.

I had such a lovely bus reputation, the bus baby, the angel that can do no wrong, the person people just wanted to protect

But, in two days, i've completely ruined that.

And, idk if i'll ever get that back.

Idk what to do.

Whether i should even be here


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Post by Seeshellz » Wed Feb 07, 2007 7:08 pm

I'm scared to tell my therapist about some abuse that happened during my childhood. I'm not even sure what kind of abuse it is...And I only remembered it yesterday, but I remembered it clearly..I was 5 years old...

PMs OK..
"If you learn from your suffering,

and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,

you might be able to help someone else who's now

in the phase you may have just completed.

Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."

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Post by Quiet little Angel » Fri Feb 09, 2007 2:55 pm

i keep wishing someone would get worried and call me... i know they probably wont because they don't notice that i'm gone, but i want them to worry... just for once... that'd mean they actually cared a little...

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