Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
- marshmallowfluff
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Why don't you just fuck off. Yer?
The wind and I, we speak the same, but he don’t hear so well.
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.
If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure...
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.
If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure...
- Seeshellz
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I should have known better. I should have left well enough alone. But I felt I needed more help. Now I am getting more help, but I am feeling worse. I know you are trying so hard to help me. You are doing all of the right things. But I don't know you very well, I have trust issues. I had to tell you stuff about the abuse, now I am freaking out about what I said. And am wondering what you think about me. Always thinking if I deserved it. I can't help it. Wondering if somehow you think I deserved it. And other things too. You think I am this good person, you don't know what goes through my mind, I try, but I'm not perfect and I do bad things too. I don't think I can live up to what you want and I'm gonna let you down. I'm gonna fail again. I can't handle that. I feel like SIing, if I did, what would you think of me? I would disappoint you so much, I wouldn't be this good person you say I am, maybe I should quit before I get in too deep.
"If you learn from your suffering,
and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,
you might be able to help someone else who's now
in the phase you may have just completed.
Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."
Anonymous
and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,
you might be able to help someone else who's now
in the phase you may have just completed.
Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."
Anonymous
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you've done it all wrong. piss off and let me take over.
...then one day I realised that the people you see in waiting rooms and car parks and on trains are really far more interesting. That they all have whole novels inside them, a fabric of scar tissues, photos and memories. They are comedies and tragedies and - more often - both at the same time.
- Anna James (1984-2007)
son of ultimate starshine / brother of Eisa & Sprink / Birdie's ornithologist / married to Mande / Chey's uncle
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- my band (or more accurately, the band of which I am the bassist) some SI/SU triggers in lyrics...proceed with caution...
GOING STRAIGHT SINCE 1ST DECEMBER 2009
- Anna James (1984-2007)
son of ultimate starshine / brother of Eisa & Sprink / Birdie's ornithologist / married to Mande / Chey's uncle
- my place
- my band (or more accurately, the band of which I am the bassist) some SI/SU triggers in lyrics...proceed with caution...
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I fucking hate you. You've ruined so much for me. And enjoyed it. The worst part is that you get away with it, and she believed everything you said. You know, I could quite gladly go, but now I have motive not to. Sometimes I don't know which would better. Maybe you should go.
<p><center>You know that place between sleep and awake, the place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always love you. That's where I'll be waiting.
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Scar tissue has no character. It's not like skin. It doesn't show age or illness or pallor or tan. It has no pores, no hair, no wrinkles. It's like a slipcover. It shields and disguises what's beneath.
[That's why we grow it, we have to something to hide.]
~
Every window on Alcatraz has a view of San Francisco.
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Scar tissue has no character. It's not like skin. It doesn't show age or illness or pallor or tan. It has no pores, no hair, no wrinkles. It's like a slipcover. It shields and disguises what's beneath.
[That's why we grow it, we have to something to hide.]
~
Every window on Alcatraz has a view of San Francisco.
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- raindreamer
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You annoy the fuck out of me you attention seeking twat. With your stupid cronies hanging around you. Need the protection and back up it would seem. You pathetic waste of space.
Please, do good on your threats. Because however much you pretend they are not threats, they quite clearly are. Designed purely to manipulate people and make them respond to you how you want. Fuck knows how everyone doesn't see through it. But. Apparently they dont.
Urgh. I wish you to just fuck off. Really I do. You annoying fucker.
Please, do good on your threats. Because however much you pretend they are not threats, they quite clearly are. Designed purely to manipulate people and make them respond to you how you want. Fuck knows how everyone doesn't see through it. But. Apparently they dont.
Urgh. I wish you to just fuck off. Really I do. You annoying fucker.
The wind and I, we speak the same, but he don’t hear so well.
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.
If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure...
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.
If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure...
- Something Else
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Wish I could stop it all. Because it hurts when I think about what's coming to you...
The wind and I, we speak the same, but he don’t hear so well.
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.
If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure...
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.
If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure...
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Just shut up. Shut up and grow up. Please do us all the favour.
<p><center>You know that place between sleep and awake, the place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always love you. That's where I'll be waiting.
~
Scar tissue has no character. It's not like skin. It doesn't show age or illness or pallor or tan. It has no pores, no hair, no wrinkles. It's like a slipcover. It shields and disguises what's beneath.
[That's why we grow it, we have to something to hide.]
~
Every window on Alcatraz has a view of San Francisco.
</center><p>
~
Scar tissue has no character. It's not like skin. It doesn't show age or illness or pallor or tan. It has no pores, no hair, no wrinkles. It's like a slipcover. It shields and disguises what's beneath.
[That's why we grow it, we have to something to hide.]
~
Every window on Alcatraz has a view of San Francisco.
</center><p>
please make it better?
please go away.
please help.
please tell me what to think and how to feel, because by myself I am messing it up.
please stop it. stop the hurting. stop the confusion.
do to me what i cant do to myself.
no one would have to know. because no one would notice. because no one really cares anyway.
because how could they? I am fucking disgusting waste of space.
IF anyone noticed, they would be fucking glad to see the back of me.
so.
please? do to me what i cant.
hurt me. hurt me more than i thought possible. to match the pain inside.
hurt me. and then end it.
end all the pain for always.
do what i cant do for myself.
please?
pms fine
please go away.
please help.
please tell me what to think and how to feel, because by myself I am messing it up.
please stop it. stop the hurting. stop the confusion.
do to me what i cant do to myself.
no one would have to know. because no one would notice. because no one really cares anyway.
because how could they? I am fucking disgusting waste of space.
IF anyone noticed, they would be fucking glad to see the back of me.
so.
please? do to me what i cant.
hurt me. hurt me more than i thought possible. to match the pain inside.
hurt me. and then end it.
end all the pain for always.
do what i cant do for myself.
please?
pms fine
The wind and I, we speak the same, but he don’t hear so well.
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.
If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure...
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.
If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure...
- marshmallowfluff
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- marshmallowfluff
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- Joined: Tue Aug 16, 2005 11:52 pm
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- Location: South Yorkshire, UK Age: 26
I want to tell you everything. I want to open up to you and let you in. But I won't. Because the thought of doing so scares me too much.
The wind and I, we speak the same, but he don’t hear so well.
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.
If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure...
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.
If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure...
I'm sorry. I really am. And I wish that now you'd talk to me. And ask me what's wrong. Because. I want to tell someone. Anyone. I do. I'm so fed up of hiding. I want you to care. Care enough to overlook the rudeness. Care enough to ask what I'm struggling with right now that is making everything so hard. I want you to care enough. Period.
The jealousy I feel is actually stupid. Jealous that you pay more attention to them, and talk to them more than you do me. Jealous that you seem to have 'clicked' with them better. I am so jealous that I abuse them in my head, even when I don't really know them. And have already decided to dislike them. A lot.
I am jealous because I so wish you'd care about me like you do them. And it's clear that you don't. So I guess I'll just have to put up with my violent jealousy.
The jealousy I feel is actually stupid. Jealous that you pay more attention to them, and talk to them more than you do me. Jealous that you seem to have 'clicked' with them better. I am so jealous that I abuse them in my head, even when I don't really know them. And have already decided to dislike them. A lot.
I am jealous because I so wish you'd care about me like you do them. And it's clear that you don't. So I guess I'll just have to put up with my violent jealousy.
The wind and I, we speak the same, but he don’t hear so well.
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.
If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure...
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.
If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure...
- acdcrocker1909
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I want to tell you everything.. I'm just so damned scared too.. I'm afraid you'll think I'm attention seeking.. and I'm so scared of losing you.. I am losing you kinda.. but I don't want it to be that you won't speak or email me.. it's bad enough that i wont see you every day.. and that I wont be able to just sit on your floor and cry... and i'm so damned scared.. i'm just scared that you won't miss me even though you say you will.. please.. don't abandon me..
Fuck you okay, just fuck you.. You are the reason my "armor" is in place this year.. it's to keep you the fuck out.
I don't want to hurt you.. which is why I don't tell you much..
You fucked up this time.. I found out... fuck you too bitch.
Fuck you okay, just fuck you.. You are the reason my "armor" is in place this year.. it's to keep you the fuck out.
I don't want to hurt you.. which is why I don't tell you much..
You fucked up this time.. I found out... fuck you too bitch.
Music is life.. we each have our own symphony.. and we control it for the most part.. sometimes instruments drop out.. and others join in.. but when the music fades and the symphony is done.. then we have created a beautiful, personal piece. - Me.
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please please please please please please please please let me get through the next 24 hours without doing anything stupid. I know it'll be hard and I'll want to do things. It's been 10 weeks today, I don't want to spoil it.
...then one day I realised that the people you see in waiting rooms and car parks and on trains are really far more interesting. That they all have whole novels inside them, a fabric of scar tissues, photos and memories. They are comedies and tragedies and - more often - both at the same time.
- Anna James (1984-2007)
son of ultimate starshine / brother of Eisa & Sprink / Birdie's ornithologist / married to Mande / Chey's uncle
- my place
- my band (or more accurately, the band of which I am the bassist) some SI/SU triggers in lyrics...proceed with caution...
GOING STRAIGHT SINCE 1ST DECEMBER 2009
- Anna James (1984-2007)
son of ultimate starshine / brother of Eisa & Sprink / Birdie's ornithologist / married to Mande / Chey's uncle
- my place
- my band (or more accurately, the band of which I am the bassist) some SI/SU triggers in lyrics...proceed with caution...
GOING STRAIGHT SINCE 1ST DECEMBER 2009
- Seeshellz
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I'm not sure how to tell you this. I don't want to risk our friendship over this. It's only a vacation. We can plan another one. So sorry I have to cancel. I just don't have the money, and now I don't even have a credit card, I can't even go into debt, I can't keep borrowing off my Dad, it's too much for one week in Florida, I know we made plans, I know you are so looking forward to it, so was I, but I am so stressed out, I don't have enough money to go, I can't afford it, I can't go into debt again, I'm just gonna get out of debt in May, and then go into debt again in October, just for one week in Florida? It just doesn't sound right, it is stressing me out so much, I just can't do it. I can't go into debt again, and I can't borrow from my Dad or use his credit card...I hope you understand and I hope you don't hate me for this, it wasn't like we were planning this for weeks, it was only a couple of days if that...I truly hope you understand my position and forgive me for backing out..I thought my circumstances were different when we were planning things...but now they are different and flights are so expensive...I just hope you forgive me and we remain friends like we always are...please???
"If you learn from your suffering,
and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,
you might be able to help someone else who's now
in the phase you may have just completed.
Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."
Anonymous
and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,
you might be able to help someone else who's now
in the phase you may have just completed.
Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."
Anonymous
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No. It is not okay that you watch what you eat and count calories this much.
No. It is not okay that you take so much coke at the weekends you can't even see by Sunday.
No. It is absolutely not okay for you to touch me while I'm asleep.
No. It is not my fucking job to pick you up when you're passed out on the bathroom floor.
No. It is not normal. Me doing it makes it fucking weird. Not normal.
All of this. And I'm still jealous that you're coping better.
No. It is not okay that you take so much coke at the weekends you can't even see by Sunday.
No. It is absolutely not okay for you to touch me while I'm asleep.
No. It is not my fucking job to pick you up when you're passed out on the bathroom floor.
No. It is not normal. Me doing it makes it fucking weird. Not normal.
All of this. And I'm still jealous that you're coping better.
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