I've been struggling to make my five month benchmark, and today I had the day off. Usually, that would give me more opportunity to think about how much I have been feeling the urge to SI. So today, I took the advice of some of the answers to my posts. I employed a number of coping skills to keep me going through the day. I :
Slept in
Took a nice hot shower
Used my special lotion
Cleaned my room
Put all the rubber bands I found lying around my room while I cleaned around my wrist
Worked on the mittens I am knitting as a gift (they look like alligators!)
Went fabric shopping
Made French Onion Burgundy soup (Ok, so I haven't eaten it yet, but I'm working on it.)
Watched my favorite TV show on DVD
Cuddled with my cat
Watched it flurry
Watched the snow melt (almost as exciting as watching grass grow and paint dry)
Answered some BUS posts
Reread the card sent to me by a camper telling me what a positive impact I've had on her life and how much she loves me.
I'm pleased with myself for the number of things I managed to do today that wasn't SI. Anyone else want to share?
Love,
Stevie
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In Which Something Oooh Occurred
And it felt like a winter machine that you go through and then you catch your breath and winter starts again, and everyone else was springbound. And when I chose to live, there was no joy, it's just a line I crossed. I wasn't worth the pain my death would cost, so I was not lost or found....But when you live in a world, well, it gets in to who you th ought you'd be. And now I laugh at how the world changed me. I think life chose me after all.
--Dar Williams
And it felt like a winter machine that you go through and then you catch your breath and winter starts again, and everyone else was springbound. And when I chose to live, there was no joy, it's just a line I crossed. I wasn't worth the pain my death would cost, so I was not lost or found....But when you live in a world, well, it gets in to who you th ought you'd be. And now I laugh at how the world changed me. I think life chose me after all.
--Dar Williams
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Good thread! I'm glad you're taking such good care of yourself today~
Today, I played with my squishy, green thing whenever I was anxious, took pictures when my mind was losing focus, and planned socialness for later tonight to be less lonely. I also feel really good that I invited my friend to come with us who hasn't been doing much socially but didn't want to be as forward as I was (kind of invited myself... but, hey, I figure they can think of a way to ditch me if they really don't want me to go).
Today, I played with my squishy, green thing whenever I was anxious, took pictures when my mind was losing focus, and planned socialness for later tonight to be less lonely. I also feel really good that I invited my friend to come with us who hasn't been doing much socially but didn't want to be as forward as I was (kind of invited myself... but, hey, I figure they can think of a way to ditch me if they really don't want me to go).
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.....I woke up with a heavy heart so I went back to bed to try to start over.....I called a freind that I have been neglecting for a long time........I cooked a nice vegitarian meal for my family.......and I told my wife how important she is to me......
I like this thread
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I like this thread
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Let me put on my clown face,
Before I roll out of bed.
So everyone who looks at me,
Won't know how sad I am.
Before I roll out of bed.
So everyone who looks at me,
Won't know how sad I am.
I was nice to the somewhat useless and unwittingly stupid Saturday girl at work even though she was rude about my department last week
I wrote four pitch letters to try and get some kids authors to do events at our shop
I spoke to my friend and agreed not to drink (too much!) at the pub tonight
I realised I was parked next to one of my oldest friends in the car park today so left a message for her on her windscreen
I didn't tell the prick who woke me up last night to piss off, I sent him a very amicable text message instead even though I hate him
I didn't SI even though I had the means, opportunity and the desire
I wrote four pitch letters to try and get some kids authors to do events at our shop
I spoke to my friend and agreed not to drink (too much!) at the pub tonight
I realised I was parked next to one of my oldest friends in the car park today so left a message for her on her windscreen
I didn't tell the prick who woke me up last night to piss off, I sent him a very amicable text message instead even though I hate him
I didn't SI even though I had the means, opportunity and the desire
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I need to keep reminding myself of all the healthy things I did to encourage myself. It's not been a marvelous week.
So today, I
Slept late (oops)
Did a little happy dance for making five months SI free!
went to work
snapped the rubber bands on my wrist instead of SIing
Read my card again.
Played a bunch of silly games on the "games" forum
Asked for help
Love,
Stevie
So today, I
Slept late (oops)
Did a little happy dance for making five months SI free!
went to work
snapped the rubber bands on my wrist instead of SIing
Read my card again.
Played a bunch of silly games on the "games" forum
Asked for help
Love,
Stevie
In Which Something Oooh Occurred
And it felt like a winter machine that you go through and then you catch your breath and winter starts again, and everyone else was springbound. And when I chose to live, there was no joy, it's just a line I crossed. I wasn't worth the pain my death would cost, so I was not lost or found....But when you live in a world, well, it gets in to who you th ought you'd be. And now I laugh at how the world changed me. I think life chose me after all.
--Dar Williams
And it felt like a winter machine that you go through and then you catch your breath and winter starts again, and everyone else was springbound. And when I chose to live, there was no joy, it's just a line I crossed. I wasn't worth the pain my death would cost, so I was not lost or found....But when you live in a world, well, it gets in to who you th ought you'd be. And now I laugh at how the world changed me. I think life chose me after all.
--Dar Williams
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