Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by Not_what » Fri Jan 19, 2007 2:35 am

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Post by Scatterbrain » Fri Jan 19, 2007 8:34 am

I think you know about bus. Please have some tact for once in your lives. I know you both love me and want to be involved in my life. I dont want you to know about bus. I wish we could forget this ever happened. I'm not trying to hide it from you because it is "bad". I just want to be my own person and have a place where I can be myself. Is that really too hard to understand?

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Post by Binayshee » Fri Jan 19, 2007 4:01 pm

i am missing you
i hate being alone right now
it was so nice to feel like i had someone to go through life with even if it was an illusion
i am in such a bad mood right now
i feel like everything's sh*t and it'll never be okay and nothing will ever change
i feel sad, angry, restless, and like blowing it all as an expression of anger

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Post by Seeshellz » Fri Jan 19, 2007 6:25 pm

I'm scared to go to grp therapy. Scared of what it will do to me. Look what one session is doing to me now...
"If you learn from your suffering,

and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,

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in the phase you may have just completed.

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Post by Quiet little Angel » Fri Jan 19, 2007 7:38 pm

I'm always scared people don't like me... that's why i'm not calling the persons who're supposed to be my friends... i'm scared that because they haven't contacted me for so long, it means they don't like me anymore... i'll rather live believing i'm the one letting them down, than face the fact that they probably don't care anymore...


and i blame my SI'ing and lying and hiding for it... for their leaving...
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Post by ~starblaze~ » Fri Jan 19, 2007 7:39 pm

No one realises how badly im feeling at the moment and i don't even know who i could tell. My life seems to be falling apart more and more. And i know people think im overdramatic and if someone asked me if i was feeling badly, id say no im fine thanks. Just like earlier this morning, someone asked me if i was sleeping enough and okay because i looked so tired and worn out and unhappy and i said i was and that it was just one of those days. Deep down i know it is and ill get myself through this because too scared to do anything else

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Post by mephistopheles » Sat Jan 20, 2007 12:08 am

i'm running out of skin
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Post by Scatterbrain » Sat Jan 20, 2007 12:23 am

I feel invisible to everyone. I'm there and people talk to me, but no one notices how bad I am hurting. Maybe I have just gotten too good at hiding it...
"The impossible just takes a little longer."
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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Sat Jan 20, 2007 3:37 am

i feel like a nobody.. and have found myself thinking that if i disappeared.. that i wouldn't be missed...
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Post by danonegative » Sat Jan 20, 2007 6:47 am

*Comments welcome PM please


SI, SU Triggs......






-I often think about SU but I do not want my wife to have to make that phone call to my mother

-I embrace my misery because I am afraid without it I will not be able to feel at all

-I play rough with my cat sometimes so he will scatch me and make me bleed

-I make the water far too hot in the shower so it will scorch my skin
Let me put on my clown face,
Before I roll out of bed.
So everyone who looks at me,
Won't know how sad I am.

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Sat Jan 20, 2007 6:52 am

some days i'm sorry
some days i'm angry

other days i'm jealous.

i miss you :(
:redstar: the time to tell a person you care is now :redstar: the paper crane chain of hope :redstar:

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Post by TmptPlyr511 » Sat Jan 20, 2007 6:56 am

-feel free to commit PM me

- I wish I never told him....


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- I wish I was brave enough to actually pull the trigger that night

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Post by zombiepeople » Sat Jan 20, 2007 7:18 pm

-I think I'm a lesbian but I'm afraid to tell anyone.

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-Sometimes I wonder if I'm actually dead, and I did shoot myself the night I was holding a gun to my head.

-I steal cigarettes out of ash trays to smoke

-I feel I don't exist

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Post by LT » Sat Jan 20, 2007 10:51 pm

i came close to ending it all last night
I am an architect, they call me a butcher
I am a pioneer, they call me primitive
I am purity, they call me perverted
- Manic street preachers

I find it kinda funny, i find it kinda sad, the dreams in which i'm dying are the best i've ever had - Mad World

Your no good for me, I don't need nobody, don't need noone - The Prodigy

You'll never walk alone

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Post by Aly » Sun Jan 21, 2007 12:33 am

*Sex*
I just need a damn good fuck
The wind and I, we speak the same, but he don’t hear so well.
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.


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Post by Licentia Poetica » Sun Jan 21, 2007 10:48 am

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Hey everyone,

I just wanted everyone to know that I'm reading this thread, and there's a hell of a lot of pain here :(

Just posting a reminder for everyone. Yes, this thread is about secrets, and secrets are sometimes painful, and very abrupt without much elaboration.

But we're still on BUS and this is the coping forum, so let's try to focus on feelings a bit more sometimes rather than actions, or desires to die, or be thinner, kay?

These threads could be useful if you're in a really bad place:

The constructive venting thread

How you feel and what you're going to DO about it

Reasons for Living

Stay safe :redstar:

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Post by red umbrellas » Sun Jan 21, 2007 10:59 am

i am sad. again. i feel like i can never fully shake this feeling.



i'm starting to get so confused about my sexuality. i'm thinking maybe i'm bi. then maybe i'm straight, like what i had always always thought. then maybe i'm just plain asexual. i just don't know. and that scares me.
It's all life and fire and lunacy
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Post by Binayshee » Sun Jan 21, 2007 8:34 pm

i feel self destructive

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Post by LT » Tue Jan 23, 2007 9:38 pm

You know i'm trying
I am an architect, they call me a butcher
I am a pioneer, they call me primitive
I am purity, they call me perverted
- Manic street preachers

I find it kinda funny, i find it kinda sad, the dreams in which i'm dying are the best i've ever had - Mad World

Your no good for me, I don't need nobody, don't need noone - The Prodigy

You'll never walk alone

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Post by (*Haven*) » Wed Jan 24, 2007 11:37 pm

I have no motivation for a reason.
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