Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by Lynds » Sat Jan 13, 2007 10:19 pm

pm's ok

*language*

They keep leaving me out and then having a go at me for not knowing what's going on-well maybe you should give me some fucking help and show me the fucking reports I need to know about rather than just leaving me to sort it all out on my own. I run the fucking department on my own for christs' sake-there's 4 of you down the front there. How the hell am I supposed to do it all and for it to be perfect when I only have one pair of hands...but I'm still too scared and sad to leave.

Sorry, didn't actually mean to go off on one there.

I hate the fact you think she's better than me when actually the rest of us hate her, she's so mean and pretentious sometimes

I feel like everyone else has progressed and been promoted and I'm still where I was a year ago.

I don't think you like me anymore, at least not as much as you used to and it makes me feels so bad. I think you're disapointed in me, please don't be I feel bad enough as it is. I'm so sorry, Phil.

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Post by mephistopheles » Sat Jan 13, 2007 10:39 pm

i can't love you
i don't love me

i can't help you
i can't help me

i don't want to help me
“Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.”

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Post by falling... » Sat Jan 13, 2007 10:55 pm

imscared of myself

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Post by wilson » Sun Jan 14, 2007 2:41 am

i dont want to hurt you but i know i will. i dont want to talk to you or anything but at the same time i need your support. i rely on you too much to get me through this. only coz you've been through it. i want to talk to you but im scared.
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Post by (*Haven*) » Sun Jan 14, 2007 3:09 am

You're pushing me closer to another attempt.....
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Post by Scatterbrain » Sun Jan 14, 2007 4:24 am

I came really close today, but last time REALLY scared me. What am I doing to myself?
"The impossible just takes a little longer."
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )

"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
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Post by LT » Sun Jan 14, 2007 1:36 pm

I think about you all the time, just wish i could be the one to love you and have you love me.
I am an architect, they call me a butcher
I am a pioneer, they call me primitive
I am purity, they call me perverted
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I find it kinda funny, i find it kinda sad, the dreams in which i'm dying are the best i've ever had - Mad World

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Post by Seeshellz » Sun Jan 14, 2007 11:04 pm

SU trigs....











I wish I could kill myself, but I won't.
"If you learn from your suffering,

and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,

you might be able to help someone else who's now

in the phase you may have just completed.

Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."

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Post by Kaleb » Mon Jan 15, 2007 11:47 pm

I think i made one of the most important people in the world to me's best mate fall out with her and i know she will never say as much but i know how much it has hurt her and sometimes think if i hadnt come along they would be mates still and she would be happy. sometimes i think if i went away they might fix things.

Pm's fine xx
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Post by Aly » Mon Jan 15, 2007 11:49 pm

I could fall in love with you...




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I think I would go to the ends of the earth for that kid.
The wind and I, we speak the same, but he don’t hear so well.
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.


If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure...

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Post by F.I.N.E. » Tue Jan 16, 2007 12:25 am

I'm not bothered about PMs; if you feel the need you can do but no big deal.

I was sexually assaulted by my best friend's boyfriend (now ex). No one knows and I still blame me.
I'm scared that I'm getting depressed again, not sure I can take it much more
the only thing holding me back from hurting myself is the thought that my bf won't love me anymore, that he'll reject me if he finds out the truth.

SU trigger
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I live on the third floor and I often think about jumping out of the window.

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Post by mephistopheles » Tue Jan 16, 2007 12:33 am

i can't "call you back"
i know what you want to say.
and i won't let you.
i won't let you let me ruin it.
because i will.
just.
don't say it.
just. shh.
for a bit longer. so we can pretend.
and who knows?
i might catch up.
“Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.”

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Post by Seeshellz » Tue Jan 16, 2007 12:39 am

SU trigger.....















The only thing holding me back from killing myself right now when I get suicidal is my Mom, I'm afraid when my Mom dies, I will kill myself. I don't know what to do. She is getting older now too. She's a senior....
"If you learn from your suffering,

and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,

you might be able to help someone else who's now

in the phase you may have just completed.

Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."

Anonymous

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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Tue Jan 16, 2007 4:13 am

i hide everything.. my hurt.. my emotion.. my pain.. but deep down.. i pray to God someone notices there's something wrong..

i'm afraid of myself..
It does not do to dwell on dreams, and forget to live - APWBD.


Music is life.. we each have our own symphony.. and we control it for the most part.. sometimes instruments drop out.. and others join in.. but when the music fades and the symphony is done.. then we have created a beautiful, personal piece. - Me.

Less Traveled Roads <-- Everyone Welcome.

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Post by wilson » Wed Jan 17, 2007 1:08 am

SU trigs
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Im back where i was not very long ago. Ive taken the panadol. Im scared to tell you. Cos i will only hurt you. and you dont need to be in the same place as what i was. peace out and enjoy it.
<center>R.I.P. 23/07/89 - 05/11/01
R.I.P. 1953-2008

counting stars

im over existing in limbo
im over the myths and placebos
i dont really mind if i just fade away
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Post by Seeshellz » Wed Jan 17, 2007 5:32 pm

I used to get high on codiene a long time ago and thought it was OK because it wasn't an illegal drug.
"If you learn from your suffering,

and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,

you might be able to help someone else who's now

in the phase you may have just completed.

Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."

Anonymous

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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Thu Jan 18, 2007 4:20 am

*su-ish*








i have often wondered how things would be if i wasnt around.
It does not do to dwell on dreams, and forget to live - APWBD.


Music is life.. we each have our own symphony.. and we control it for the most part.. sometimes instruments drop out.. and others join in.. but when the music fades and the symphony is done.. then we have created a beautiful, personal piece. - Me.

Less Traveled Roads <-- Everyone Welcome.

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Post by April » Thu Jan 18, 2007 5:27 pm

I fell off the SI wagon weeks ago. I don't intend to get back on it for a while.
My place -
http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php? ... 46#3134946

*HUGS AND PMS ALWAYS WELCOME*

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Post by Seeshellz » Thu Jan 18, 2007 6:05 pm

SU, SI, OD triggers...














I feel very much like cutting or ODing again. I don't know if I really want to kill myself, but the thoughts are there, haunting me. And it's all because of one person that hurt me.
"If you learn from your suffering,

and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,

you might be able to help someone else who's now

in the phase you may have just completed.

Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."

Anonymous

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Post by Lynds » Thu Jan 18, 2007 9:41 pm

I want to type a secret here but I'm worried that it'll sound like I'm pining for an ex but I'm not at all...it's my best friend who always wanted us to be something more and I never did...I wish he could just accept us being friends...I miss him so much...but I'm sick of his mind games...I haven't seen him for 18 months now and it still hurts as much now as it did then...GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

I HATE THIS!!! WHY COULDN'T IT JUST BE SIMPLE?!?!

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