Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

[mithz]

I have feelings. I may not show them. But they're there and I get hurt easily. Why don't any of you fucking realise this?

[acdcrocker1909]

why can't you just see how much you've fuckin' hurt me? Why are you so damned blind to that? WHY?!

[Binayshee]

thank you so much for the present, it was really sweet of you to stop by on my birthday like that. sometimes i wish that you knew me a little better, and knew things like i like to pick out my own clothes, cause i am hopelessly particular about what i wear, and it kinda hurts that you stopped by for 5 mintues to drop that off and didn't want to spend any time with me. quality time is the main way i feel loved.

[Binayshee]

i actually feel really angry. you don't call me. you don't let me know you're coming. you don't invite me to actually go shopping with you, i have a fucking closet full of coats you keep giving me that i want to get rid of that don't fit me and don't look good. i have my own fucking sense of style. i don't wear just anything. i may not look that great, but it has to be something i feel comfortable in. don't you know me??? i'm a f*cking freak about my clothes, and my appearance. have you NOT seen me freak over that shit all my life? and it was shocking having someone pounding on the door when i was all settled in for the night and got myself into a good space, and having you come in, drop that off, like it means the world to you that i like it, like its something i have to do FOR YOU or you'll be crushed if i don't like it, and never want to get me anything ever again. I DON"T WANT ANYMORE COATS. and i could have used the money you spent on that coat to pay some bills. and now its another thing cluttering up my closet. i'd like to burn all the fucking coats you've given me that i feel guilty for not liking in my fucking closet.

[StevieLynn]

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I am afraid of you. When you get angry or upset, I fear for my safety. Can't you see that I punish myself? You don't need to do it for me. I am no longer a little child who needs to be spanked for discipline. I am an adult. You hurt me for so long that you don't even need to touch me to make me feel hurt and fear. Why can't you treat me with the love and respect I deserve?

[Binayshee]

i feel guilty for what i said before because at least you thought of me on my birthday.

[red umbrellas]

you can be such an insensitive prick sometimes....but you'd never realise it. and you'd be horrified if i told you.
take a long hard look at yourself.

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i wish you cared about me more....and i don't know why it matters to me so much.

[mephistopheles]

"y'know, you could probably stand to lose a few pounds"

what? I'm sorry, WHAT?! From WHERE! I have spent years getting this carefully formed starveling physique and you tell me I could LOSE a few pounds? Of what? Bone?! Organs? It's pretty much all that's left in here!
You stupid, blind, self-obsessed, ignorant little bitch.

And on a side note - you could stand to lose, what? A few stone? Don't start me on this game, I will win!

[Aly]

Ignore it and....be safe. I quite need you to stay safe....



Be okay little guy. Pleqase be okay.

[5th section]

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this is ridiculous. Why am I so obsessed with you? it's been months for fuck's sake. why can't I be normal and move on like everyone else does?
I've lost you because I'm inadequate and shit and I never deserved you in the first place. and I haven't tried to change any of that, even though I could at least try, because I know I still don't deserve you and I'm eventually going to lose touch with you completely and I will hate myself for wasting the best chance I ever had. I want to keep my fucking useless inconsequential life away from you because you deserve better. I want your life to go on as if I'd never had anything to do with it. you are a wonderful person and I hope you make the most of it.

I love you

[fortune]

the answer you're looking for is: because you let me down and i expected too much of you. it broke me, i was alone. i became bitter to survive. self-preservation you see?

and the thing is... i still bloody love you

[Bella Muerte]

Your blindness makes me sick. You go about your life, convinced that your way is the right way and that anyone different from you needs to change to fit your ideals before you will accept them. You think that nobody is entitled to feel unhappy, and that suffering ought to be punishable by law. You think it's ok to make friends with me, maueuver me until you are all I have left, put me down, treat me like dirt until I have no self-esteem left, and then just abandon me. It was never enough that I was just me; I had to be perfect. But no matter how much I changed for you, the bar was always moving higher so that I would never be good enough in your eyes. And if I ever asked for help, you would rip me to shreds.

You are one of the most self-obsessed, narcissistic people I have ever had the misfortune to make friends with. But even after everything you put me through, after all that you did, I still care about you. And I'm scared because I can see that you're headed for a big fall, and I won't be there to help you when everything comes crashing down around your ears. I'll be powerless to do anything, because you've shut me out. I guess you deserve everything that's coming to you. I just wish you would have waited for me to recover, so that I could show you the person I really am.

[Koru]

You say that you don't want to be with me, that I remind you too much of her and yet you are behaving more like my ideal boyfried than any guy I've ever been out with. You come to dinner with my family, make me laugh, buy me presents that you know I'll love, call me when I'd down, tickle me, tease me and treat me like a proper lady when you take me out. Then you tell me how you have to stop yourself calling me by her name, how we couldn't live happily ever after with me because she's the only one you'd ever marry.

Well, I talked to her last night and your name didn't even come up. She doesn't want to know you or know about you. I don't know if that's because she's over you or because she's not but she doesn't want you back.

If I thought that the two of you could live happily ever after then I'd do everything in my power to get you back together however much it hurt to watch because you are my friends and I want you to be happy. But, it isn't going to work like that - I understand if you don't want to be with me for whatever reason but don't waste the rest of your life longing for something that can never be. Your relationship with her was never the amazing, perfect time that you make it out to be, you fought and yelled and screamed, you both lied, and threw things and cried and sulked. Yes, I'm sure she made you very happy sometimes but she hurt you deeply too. Yes, you were guilty of a lot of stuff but she's no angel either - stop idolising her and move on. She has.

As for me, I'll move on too in time. I just need the self control to bring this back to just friends but it's so hard when you are everything that I want.

[Seeshellz]

I don't understand why you are not calling me back. You are just proving what I am thinking. That you don't care about me. And it hurts so much. I feel really rejected by you. And I don't know what to do about it. I need you so much.

[Not_what]

I wish we were still doing panto.

I wish you were still here to take care of me and catch me as I fall.

[red umbrellas]

i'm hoping and praying you don't ring.
because i don't want to go anywhere. or do anything.

[Seeshellz]

I invited you over here for supper, and now I don't know if it's such a good idea. At the time I was feeling OK, now I'm not, so I'm afraid we will get into a fight or something. I will be ultra sensitive, feeling depressed like I am, and any nit pick thingy thing you say will hurt and I will react. Maybe you shouldn't come over...but at the same time I want you to come and hope we have a good time. I need you.

[Quiet little Angel]

don't you care anymore? am i being dumped as a friend? have you all moved on without me? is it all over? am i just going to be all alone now? wont you atleast tell me?

[finding neverland]

You are a fucking bitch. The only people that like you are the ones who are too blind to see through your stupid act. Maybe you should stop being so fucking selfish and realise that you can't treat people like a piece of shit on your shoe.

You know I really hope you wake up one day and realise what you've done and you hate yourself and have to live with that forever.

Just leave me alone.

[acdcrocker1909]

i hate you.. i can't take this anymore. you act like a friend.. then stab me in the back.. and leave me home alone while you party with those who i hung with before you.. thanks for turning all of them against me. but you wanna know something ya whore.. i will be better than you.. i will be fucking a-m-a-z-i-n-g .. and you will be nothing.. i've always known I'll make a decent place in the world for myself.. but fuck you.. i'm going for gold. i will be known.. because you make me out to be a nobody.. and i will be somebody.