Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by Callisto » Sat Jan 13, 2007 1:11 am

wish i could save you from yourself at times

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Post by Aly » Sat Jan 13, 2007 11:57 pm

I get jealous of your other friends because I know ou like them more. I get jealous and abusive towards them in my head.

I know you need friends. I just wish I could be the one you liked most.


Feeling this makes me feel pathetic and ashamed. But it's true. I wished you liked me best, and not....50 billionth best...
The wind and I, we speak the same, but he don’t hear so well.
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.


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Post by Quiet little Angel » Sun Jan 14, 2007 1:59 am

i wish you all knew... then maybe you would understand how much i need your hugs...
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Post by wilson » Sun Jan 14, 2007 2:35 am

i wish you would understand then maybe you might realise why i cant live like this. then you will realise your gonna push me over the edge. then maybe you would stop being fucking violent. im doing the best i cant. i cant do any better. cant you understand that?
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Post by red umbrellas » Sun Jan 14, 2007 8:30 am

if you do that, i swear i will never forgive you
It's all life and fire and lunacy
And excuses and excuses and excuses

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Post by tattybluetrees » Sun Jan 14, 2007 12:49 pm

I don't know if you even like me any more. And now you aren't calling and neither am I. Suddenly I'm too tired to bother anymore.

I wish I was strong enough to not need anyone.

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Post by mephistopheles » Sun Jan 14, 2007 1:29 pm

you want to know why i hung up?
because i knew what you were going to say.
and if you say you love me then i'll be forced to never see you.
you saying you love me will kill everything we have.
loving me makes you stupid.blind.dangerous.
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Post by LT » Sun Jan 14, 2007 1:34 pm

Well thanks for last night leaving me by myself in the cold.
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Post by MusicalMorphine » Sun Jan 14, 2007 5:09 pm

I have a big 'fuck you!' to throw at a couple of people. I can't be bothered to explain right now.

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Post by Aly » Sun Jan 14, 2007 10:10 pm

It truly makes me heart bleed for you...


Pms fine.
The wind and I, we speak the same, but he don’t hear so well.
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.


If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure...

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Post by 5th section » Sun Jan 14, 2007 10:23 pm

I just came very close to saying something you really don't want to hear. one day I will say & then fuck knows what'll happen...i don't want to say it but I feel like i'm going to.
...then one day I realised that the people you see in waiting rooms and car parks and on trains are really far more interesting. That they all have whole novels inside them, a fabric of scar tissues, photos and memories. They are comedies and tragedies and - more often - both at the same time.
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Post by 5th section » Sun Jan 14, 2007 10:25 pm

it should have been me
...then one day I realised that the people you see in waiting rooms and car parks and on trains are really far more interesting. That they all have whole novels inside them, a fabric of scar tissues, photos and memories. They are comedies and tragedies and - more often - both at the same time.
- Anna James (1984-2007)

son of ultimate starshine / brother of Eisa & Sprink / Birdie's ornithologist / married to Mande / Chey's uncle
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- my band (or more accurately, the band of which I am the bassist) some SI/SU triggers in lyrics...proceed with caution...

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Post by Aly » Sun Jan 14, 2007 10:33 pm

I miss you...

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Last edited by Aly on Mon Jan 15, 2007 12:03 am, edited 1 time in total.
The wind and I, we speak the same, but he don’t hear so well.
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.


If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure...

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Post by Seeshellz » Sun Jan 14, 2007 10:46 pm

I can't take this life. I can't keep going like this. I can't live up to what you want. You don't want me anyway. I might as well SU now, I'm gonna die anyway. It just doesn't matter. I can't do it. Nobody understands. Even my therapist doesn't understand.
"If you learn from your suffering,

and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,

you might be able to help someone else who's now

in the phase you may have just completed.

Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."

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Post by Aly » Mon Jan 15, 2007 12:04 am

It feels like I'm the only one who hasn't moved on yet. In two days. It will be 6 months. That's 6 months too many. That's 6 months that you should have been living for. That's 6 months since a little part of me died with you. 6 months buddy. I wish you could have seen how amazing life can be. I wish you could have held on. I miss you chick. More than perhaps I will admit to anyone. How am I meant to explain to people that someone who I 'only' knew online affected me and touched my life so much that his absence tears me apart sometimes. I still hope you'll post again. Just like with G+G I still hope that it is some cruel joke. I'm waiting buddy, for you to come back. And I do so much to feel closer to you. I read back over old posts of yours hoping I will feel closer to you afterwards. Hoping that you will somehow feel my love and come back. I miss you Noel. 6 months. And it still feels like it could have been yesterday. 6 months and I still have to remind myself to remember. because forgetting is about a million times easier....I'm sorry though my darling. I'm sorry.

Always your Little Ray of Sunshine...

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The wind and I, we speak the same, but he don’t hear so well.
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.


If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure...

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Post by black_23 » Mon Jan 15, 2007 1:13 am

I want to drink until I forget, how Im never going to be anyone different because im me.
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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Mon Jan 15, 2007 1:28 am

why? just.. why are you this utter bitch?
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Post by black_23 » Mon Jan 15, 2007 1:29 am

Your (me) stupid and self indulgent why couldn't you see she was hurting as much as you, she only shouts out when she's scared or anoyed, you should have been there for her and not been an idiot. Your worthless, utterly worthless sometimes.
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Post by treasure » Mon Jan 15, 2007 4:11 am

i really wish i had the guts to say -
dad, you shocked me with your actions and now i'm not sure how i should act towards you. you are not openly critical usually, but so many little comments make me feel i'm not acceptable to you. like if i was open and honest you would not want to talk to me or see me. do you really care about the *real* me or do you just want a plastic perfect daughter?
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Post by Scatterbrain » Mon Jan 15, 2007 11:30 am

I love you. I love you so much it hurts. When you grabbed my hand tonight, I just wanted to kiss you. I'm just too scared to tell you how I feel. I love you and I have never stopped loving you since you broke up with me 4 months ago.... Dammit, why do I still love when it seems you have moved on completely?

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