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tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Sun Jan 07, 2007 11:46 pm


i hate feeling like my problems arent worth a backwards glace.

deep down.. i'm afraid that i am always going to hate myself.

i know i act like i'm tough.. but that's just a shell thats around me.. inside i'm weak and defenceles..

I hate hearing your voice in my head either telling me that i'm an attention seeker or that i was "going the wrong way" .. it hurts to hear that over and over and over again in my head..

i dont know if i can take this anymore.
It does not do to dwell on dreams, and forget to live - APWBD.


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Post by VowsOfSadness » Mon Jan 08, 2007 2:04 am

I've been hitting myself again in place of cutting.
It's getting hard to explain the brusises and I don't want people to think that someone is hurting me, but sometimes I rather them think that then that I did it myself.

I think i have a little crush on one of my friends whos pregnant with her boyfriend.

I don't want to get hurt and I know G will hurt me but he's playing nice. And I don't want to be alone. And I want to hurt him.

I've been smoking again.

I have a crush on my math teacher and I tried to get with him.

I guess I'm all over the place.

PM's OKAY
*Challenges welcome*
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Post by jaded melody » Mon Jan 08, 2007 2:14 am

pm's ok

*ED TRIGS*
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i wish i was skinny.

i wish i was thin enough that people noticed me.
i wish i was thin enough that i looked good in anything
i wish i was thin enough that i didnt want to cry when i look in the mirror.
i wish i was thin enough for somebody to listen when i try to tell them that i need help.

I wish i was pretty.
I wish i could be thin.
I want it more than anything in the world.

And if it takes pain, and starving, and hurting myself to get there,

so be it.
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Post by wish » Mon Jan 08, 2007 12:46 pm

everytime he touches me these days i feel trapped and violated and sick.and it shouldnt be like that it never used to be.
and he doesnt seem to notice or care.
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Post by Spidey » Mon Jan 08, 2007 1:24 pm

pm's are okay.






i'm scared of letting go. although i have to.
there is, in the end, the letting go.
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Post by Seeshellz » Mon Jan 08, 2007 2:56 pm

My pdoc really isn't a real pdoc, he's just a regular GP practicing as a pdoc. There is another doctor doing this in our city as well. It's because there aren't enought real pdocs to help. But what does that mean for me? :o :o :o
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Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."

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Post by marshmallowfluff » Tue Jan 09, 2007 8:10 pm

i have been making myself sick

pms are ok...
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Post by VowsOfSadness » Tue Jan 09, 2007 9:01 pm

I'm scared at work without you Amanda. Where is Wonder-twins? Now that you're gone a part of me is unshielded. I wonder if we'll have chances to see eachother and develope our special bond more. "Amanda, I love you, love Amanda"
<3 Amanda

Nicole I want to be closer to you. Sometimes I want to be you.
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Post by Binayshee » Tue Jan 09, 2007 9:52 pm

i've been feeling suicidal almost daily for over a week
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Post by beautiful_facade » Tue Jan 09, 2007 10:53 pm

i have gone veggie again for all the wrong reasons. :roll:

i am scared i am influencing a friend. That i am somehow responsible.

PMs fine.

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Post by red umbrellas » Wed Jan 10, 2007 11:27 am

i feel so horribly inadequate and dislillusioned...that i'm scared i'll never go anywhere or be anything. that i'll leave myself stuck in a rut forever.
It's all life and fire and lunacy
And excuses and excuses and excuses
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Post by fuyumi » Thu Jan 11, 2007 12:43 pm

i save everything i write
in hopes that one day i'll be published
and then when i die
you will inherit all those writings
and have a good life

i feel as though that is the only good thing i can do for you




*pm welcome*

- so i turn myself inside out in hope someone will see -
- these precious things let them break their hold on me -
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Post by Callisto » Fri Jan 12, 2007 12:52 am

i think im unravelling again
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Post by mephistopheles » Fri Jan 12, 2007 12:57 am

i'm eating just so i can throw up.
but i'm not cutting.
i don't have to. i just walk around.
“Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.”
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Post by pandablue » Fri Jan 12, 2007 10:12 pm

I'm lonely

Feb 22,2006

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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Fri Jan 12, 2007 10:27 pm

pm's fine.


im scared that i'll do something stupid.

i'm afraid that everything that i say or do will be read as "just for attention"

i've made myself sick.. from stressing.. i cant eat.. because i can't really keep it down..

everything just hurts.. and i feel as though im not worth a backwards glance..
It does not do to dwell on dreams, and forget to live - APWBD.


Music is life.. we each have our own symphony.. and we control it for the most part.. sometimes instruments drop out.. and others join in.. but when the music fades and the symphony is done.. then we have created a beautiful, personal piece. - Me.

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Post by VowsOfSadness » Sat Jan 13, 2007 7:38 am

Nicole, I love you. I know you're with ben but be with me. BE WITH ME. <3 Amanda
*Challenges welcome*
I always love a :lpurpstar:

I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.

Drop by my place & say hi :)
Ask me anything!!!

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Post by VowsOfSadness » Sat Jan 13, 2007 7:46 am

*ED TRIGGS*
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me and nicole are starting a fast i dont think i'll make it
*Challenges welcome*
I always love a :lpurpstar:

I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.

Drop by my place & say hi :)
Ask me anything!!!

I'm fully Recovered!
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Post by LT » Sat Jan 13, 2007 3:11 pm

I'm crazy about you
I am an architect, they call me a butcher
I am a pioneer, they call me primitive
I am purity, they call me perverted
- Manic street preachers

I find it kinda funny, i find it kinda sad, the dreams in which i'm dying are the best i've ever had - Mad World

Your no good for me, I don't need nobody, don't need noone - The Prodigy

You'll never walk alone

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Post by kelsta » Sat Jan 13, 2007 6:19 pm

pm's welcome

i fell in love with a minister at my church who is married with 2 kids. he told me he loved me and now all i want to do is run away.

i don't think i can handle life for much longer
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