Sometimes I wish I didn't have to fight so hard for things that are just part of other people's lives naturally. I know I'm lucky in a lot of ways, but there are just some things that are out of my reach sometimes, and it's frustrating that other people don't even have to *think* about some of the things that I can't do.
i can relate to this alot - - it's a common topic in "therapy for izz" time.
my therapist handles it in a really great way.
me: (much frustration) 'darnit how come it's so hard for me to do ___ when everyone else can do it without even thinking! "
her: (irritatingly calm, with a bit of smart-assery) really? everyone? are you sure?
me: well... uh... i mean, it seems that way (voice trailing off in mock-defeat, frustration wearing off, defeated by LOGIC).
my point:
one thing i'm learning (slowly, cuz i'm stubborn like that!), is that human experience is pretty universal. chances are, if you're going through something, someone somewhere else is going through the same thing. EVERYONE has areas in their lives which they have trouble in. the key is to learn to play with the cards you've been dealt. don't give up on those things that are difficult, but also realise that you have strengths and abilities that other people do not. everyone does.
for me...
haha i wish i would take my own advice.
no but seriously, i wish i knew how to open up to people. well i *know how* but i wish i could do it. it's like even though i have people who i love and who love me, i feel so closed off from the rest of the world and it's frustrating as hell sometimes. it's one of those things that i've declared
other people can do so easily but i can't.