Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by Skyeler » Fri Nov 24, 2006 6:16 am

for the first time in my life I'm not underweight

it fucking terrifies me.


Most of the time I feel like I don't belong.
But I got my new favorite record today.
My favorites change every single day.
Except you,
You'll always be number one.
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Post by handmade mute » Fri Nov 24, 2006 9:06 am

I hate you for acting like you're some tragic hero in all this. You're not.

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Post by mephistopheles » Fri Nov 24, 2006 11:26 am

I get fucking angry when everyone keeps saying the wrong thing. I'm desperate and everyone says the wrong thing. The joke is. I don't even know what the right thing is, so who the fuck am i to judge when people are trying. It's more than I;m doing.

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Post by Arcadia » Fri Nov 24, 2006 6:28 pm

I think I'm in love :o

but i'm not sure he loves me back.

and i'm worried i've managed to lose most of my friends through spending so much time with my boyfriend

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Post by marshmallowfluff » Fri Nov 24, 2006 7:19 pm

i od'd again today.

I dont like you. You dont help me. I dont wanna play with fucking buttons and play-doh. it doesnt work. I spend most of the listening to YOU talk. you never give me the chance to talk.

but the thought of not seeing you for 2 weeks fucking terrifies me.

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Sing like there's nobody listening.
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Post by Aly » Sat Nov 25, 2006 12:02 am

I have a massive crush on you!

I love seeing you everyday at college!

:blush:

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Post by Lynds » Sat Nov 25, 2006 5:06 pm

I wish you would come back. I miss you so much. She's not the same, things were better when you were here. P misses you too. We haven't been to the pub in ages. And I cried when you left G's party the other night but I didn't tell you cos I thought it'd make you feel guilty. It was so much fun when it was me, you, R, L and M. All the girlies together. I'm glad you're happy...it doesn't make it any easier though.

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Sun Nov 26, 2006 1:31 am

I love you hating me.
:redstar: the time to tell a person you care is now :redstar: the paper crane chain of hope :redstar:

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Post by Spidey » Sun Nov 26, 2006 2:13 am

i want the dream i had to come true.

it would be beautiful.

we would be forever.
there is, in the end, the letting go.
-marya hornbacher

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(spidey ever onward)

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Post by Scatterbrain » Sun Nov 26, 2006 3:25 am

I like rap... Sorry I'm not "hardcore". This music cracks me up and its fun to listen to... I mean, really, who sings a song titled "I wanna fuck you"... How is that not hilarious?? Go ahead, judge me. Its not like you havent been judging me since we met 5 years ago. I'm used to it now. And you wonder why I dont tell you things... If you only knew.

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I'm not here/This isn't happening"
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Post by Never Again » Sun Nov 26, 2006 6:06 am

i never call you when im sober.
I have love. I have love but I don't know where to put it.

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Post by Quiet little Angel » Sun Nov 26, 2006 12:50 pm

i want to be left alone for once...
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Post by marshmallowfluff » Sun Nov 26, 2006 8:20 pm

i'm really ANNOYED that you didnt text me back.
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Sing like there's nobody listening.
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Post by marshmallowfluff » Sun Nov 26, 2006 8:26 pm

i'm not going to college tomorrow, because i cant cope with it, not because im ill.

i dont like the counselling, because i cant deal with having to deal with stuff and admitting that it happened and that its real. As long as i keep telling myself it didnt happen, it'll be fine. I couldnt talk about what happened the other day and you were fucking PUSHING it and that pushed me *over the edge*

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Love like you'll never be hurt.
Sing like there's nobody listening.
And live like it's heaven on earth."

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Post by LT » Mon Nov 27, 2006 7:57 pm

I like you so much and all i want to do is make you happy, i don't know how else to explain this to you and i iwsh you saw it.
I am an architect, they call me a butcher
I am a pioneer, they call me primitive
I am purity, they call me perverted
- Manic street preachers

I find it kinda funny, i find it kinda sad, the dreams in which i'm dying are the best i've ever had - Mad World

Your no good for me, I don't need nobody, don't need noone - The Prodigy

You'll never walk alone

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Post by LT » Mon Nov 27, 2006 8:38 pm

Not sure i can keep doing this,
maybe its time i accepted it,
I am an architect, they call me a butcher
I am a pioneer, they call me primitive
I am purity, they call me perverted
- Manic street preachers

I find it kinda funny, i find it kinda sad, the dreams in which i'm dying are the best i've ever had - Mad World

Your no good for me, I don't need nobody, don't need noone - The Prodigy

You'll never walk alone

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Post by Callisto » Mon Nov 27, 2006 9:32 pm

i'm scared that i'll be stuck in this dead end job forever

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Post by Skyeler » Mon Nov 27, 2006 10:22 pm

We're not spending christmas with you


Most of the time I feel like I don't belong.
But I got my new favorite record today.
My favorites change every single day.
Except you,
You'll always be number one.
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Post by Scatterbrain » Tue Nov 28, 2006 1:30 am

I just got over you like 3 weeks ago. Now all you do is flirt, make me laugh, smile. You make me HAPPY. I dont want to be happy, and especially not because of you. Dammit, stop playing games with you. I never stopped loving you even when you did break up with me 2 months ago. Last night you gave me a hug. It was exactly what I needed. THe problem is that it wasnt a "friend" hug. The first hug after mass was a friend hug, but you left your hand on my shoulder just like you used to do. Then after youth group you hung on for like 5 full seconds. And left your hand on my shoulder again. I love you. But I dont want you to leave me again. I go to college in 9 months, so I dunno if its worth it. The breakup totally fucked me up for 2 months and set me off on SI. I'm not blaming you, but that is what started me slipping and eventually ended 16 months cut free. But, dammit, I love you. Why do I have these feelings? Why are you so damn cute, nice, loving, sweet, cute, wonderfully catholic, have a great mom, supportive, etc. I love you, but I dont want to!

~Megan
"The impossible just takes a little longer."
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )

"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead

Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics

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Post by red umbrellas » Tue Nov 28, 2006 10:39 am

i realised today that i'm more willing to hurt myself, even irreparably than be fat. how fucking ridiculous and melodramatic and laughable is that? when so many people are really suffering?
god i suck
It's all life and fire and lunacy
And excuses and excuses and excuses

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