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i see no reason to hang on anymore. and i don't want you to help me figure it out.
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Forever Satan of RW
Married to Reine, nicki, han & klove
WDS, snowangel, kicks, figment & Chey (plus kitties) belong to me!
Stef is my twin
Klove's partner....(in crime! Get your mind outta the gutter already!)
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Forever Satan of RW
Married to Reine, nicki, han & klove
WDS, snowangel, kicks, figment & Chey (plus kitties) belong to me!
Stef is my twin
Klove's partner....(in crime! Get your mind outta the gutter already!)
:.*.:NO HUGS:.*.:
- Abba's Girl
- unpacking boxes
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- Location: North Carolina
I thought telling you would make everything better. It didn't - now it's worse, and I don't know what to do anymore. When the person I thought I trusted most in the world rejects me - why should I bother with anyone else.
But you see the real me, hiding in my skin, broken from within. Unveil me, completely. I'm loosening my grasp, there's no need to mask my frailty, because you see - the real me. And you love me, just as I am.
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i so want to tell you how much pain i'm in... i know you think i'm strange... but it's not me... it's the facade talking... crackling facades give off strange vibes... i know that what i say doesn't match with how i look... i know i don't smile with my eyes at the moment... i whish i could tell you about it... i wish i could share this pain with you... i don't want to lie to you... yet i do... i'm sorry i keep telling you i'm fine... i'm not... at all... i'm so sorry... i truly want to tell you... i'm so sorry...
/May
Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
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- Location: The traffic jam of life
I really hope you've left me. For once someone might have actually listened to my needs and accepted them.
My Place Visitors are welcome. New First Post 12/16/08
Forever Satan of RW
Married to Reine, nicki, han & klove
WDS, snowangel, kicks, figment & Chey (plus kitties) belong to me!
Stef is my twin
Klove's partner....(in crime! Get your mind outta the gutter already!)
:.*.:NO HUGS:.*.:
Forever Satan of RW
Married to Reine, nicki, han & klove
WDS, snowangel, kicks, figment & Chey (plus kitties) belong to me!
Stef is my twin
Klove's partner....(in crime! Get your mind outta the gutter already!)
:.*.:NO HUGS:.*.:
- Quiet little Angel
- just plain inspiring
- Posts: 7754
- Joined: Wed Nov 02, 2005 2:10 pm
- Location: somewhere between blue tulips and anxiety...
Dad:
i'm so sorry you're in this much pain... but sometimes i don't think you realize just how much you hurt me when you take it all out on me like you did tonight... i know your job is hard... i know you're physically ill... remember i've seen you become what you are now... but this is not my fault... not moms fault... none of us are forcing you to work like this... or work at all...
i love you... but you hurt me...
i try not to blame you... but you're making it damn hard...
i try to do my best... but you're never satisfied...
i'm so sorry i'm not perfect... but neither are you...
i love you... but i hate the pain you bring me...
i'm so sorry you're in this much pain... but sometimes i don't think you realize just how much you hurt me when you take it all out on me like you did tonight... i know your job is hard... i know you're physically ill... remember i've seen you become what you are now... but this is not my fault... not moms fault... none of us are forcing you to work like this... or work at all...
i love you... but you hurt me...
i try not to blame you... but you're making it damn hard...
i try to do my best... but you're never satisfied...
i'm so sorry i'm not perfect... but neither are you...
i love you... but i hate the pain you bring me...
/May
Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
- mephistopheles
- cow control
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- Location: London
why in gods name should I have to hide in the bathroom to si? You lot drink and smoke and do drugs wherever you want. Why do I get relegated?
i'm so sorry. i didnt realise. if i'd known i'd have said/done something sooner.
i'm sorry.
if anything's happened i will never forgive myself.
please be ok. please.
i'm sorry.
if anything's happened i will never forgive myself.
please be ok. please.
And the birds up on the wires and the telegraph poles
They can always fly away from this rain and this cold
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- red umbrellas
- beyond inspiring
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why? why?
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry i probably drive you crazy. i'm sorry i'm not a good friend.
i'm so so sorry.
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i'm sorry
because i don't deserve you. at all.
i'm not good enough. and i'm selfish and boring and bad.
and i'm sorry. because i know i've hurt you.
And excuses and excuses and excuses
Hold On To Yourself - Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds
"We paint a picture of a scenario - and then we become afraid of it" - Andrea Fella
- K8ty
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M & D,
I wish both of you would die so I wouldn't have to worry about you anymore. I am so terrified every day that it will be the day I get the call that you've been murdered, you've OD'd on some drug, or you've finally committed suicide successfully. I could finally grieve and move on.
C,
I still want to die.. why don't you notice?
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M & D,
I wish both of you would die so I wouldn't have to worry about you anymore. I am so terrified every day that it will be the day I get the call that you've been murdered, you've OD'd on some drug, or you've finally committed suicide successfully. I could finally grieve and move on.
C,
I still want to die.. why don't you notice?
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i'm an utter mess. in my head. and i keep telling you that the best way i can. why? why cant you just... idk, acknowledge it?
i feel like dying. with every minute that passes the feeling gets stronger.
and you just want to tell me about a girl you met.
do i have to die for you to realise how much i'm hurting?
i feel like dying. with every minute that passes the feeling gets stronger.
and you just want to tell me about a girl you met.
do i have to die for you to realise how much i'm hurting?
And the birds up on the wires and the telegraph poles
They can always fly away from this rain and this cold
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- mephistopheles
- cow control
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- Quiet little Angel
- just plain inspiring
- Posts: 7754
- Joined: Wed Nov 02, 2005 2:10 pm
- Location: somewhere between blue tulips and anxiety...
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try looking at me for once... not just see that i'm there... but look at me... see the tearstreemed face and puffed up eyes... you can't not see it... are you really that selfabsorbed? or am i a better actress than i thought? just fucking look at me... i so wish you'd see that pain... i've stopped trying to hide it... and yet you don't seem to notice... why? are you ignoring this? please just see me and care...
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i'm so sorry... i'm no fun... i know you're not ready to handle my pain... i wont put it on you... but i wish i could... i just don't want to drive you away... i want you to like me... and not just feel pitty for this miserable little girl... but truly like me... so i'm sorry i've been no fun today...
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try looking at me for once... not just see that i'm there... but look at me... see the tearstreemed face and puffed up eyes... you can't not see it... are you really that selfabsorbed? or am i a better actress than i thought? just fucking look at me... i so wish you'd see that pain... i've stopped trying to hide it... and yet you don't seem to notice... why? are you ignoring this? please just see me and care...
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i'm so sorry... i'm no fun... i know you're not ready to handle my pain... i wont put it on you... but i wish i could... i just don't want to drive you away... i want you to like me... and not just feel pitty for this miserable little girl... but truly like me... so i'm sorry i've been no fun today...
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/May
Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
- red umbrellas
- beyond inspiring
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- Joined: Mon Mar 01, 2004 8:50 am
- Location: Sydney
you promised me. if i ever felt down, i could count on you. and that you'd be there.
and you're not.
and i know i'm being selfish.
but all i want is an hour of your time.
and i want to hate you for letting me down
but i know that's not fair.
but it hurts so much.
and you're not.
and i know i'm being selfish.
but all i want is an hour of your time.
and i want to hate you for letting me down
but i know that's not fair.
but it hurts so much.
And excuses and excuses and excuses
Hold On To Yourself - Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds
"We paint a picture of a scenario - and then we become afraid of it" - Andrea Fella
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ANSWER YOUR FUCKING PHONE
...then one day I realised that the people you see in waiting rooms and car parks and on trains are really far more interesting. That they all have whole novels inside them, a fabric of scar tissues, photos and memories. They are comedies and tragedies and - more often - both at the same time.
- Anna James (1984-2007)
son of ultimate starshine / brother of Eisa & Sprink / Birdie's ornithologist / married to Mande / Chey's uncle
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- my band (or more accurately, the band of which I am the bassist) some SI/SU triggers in lyrics...proceed with caution...
GOING STRAIGHT SINCE 1ST DECEMBER 2009
- Anna James (1984-2007)
son of ultimate starshine / brother of Eisa & Sprink / Birdie's ornithologist / married to Mande / Chey's uncle
- my place
- my band (or more accurately, the band of which I am the bassist) some SI/SU triggers in lyrics...proceed with caution...
GOING STRAIGHT SINCE 1ST DECEMBER 2009
LANGUAGE WARNING
If you want to say it, have fucking balls and come out and say it. Don't be a bunch of fucking cowards who commiserate somewhere else just because you're unhappy and not fucking adult enough to recognize that everyone has different places, different faces and different needs.
YOU ARE A BUNCH OF FUCKING COWARDS. Not only that, but pathetic, infantile right gits. Honey, I believe in karma and I totally believe that all the shit you're pulling is so going to bite you in the fucking ass. And I hope it does and I hope it takes out the biggest sonofabitchin' chunk that it can possibly take out. Because it will be good. It'll be so good to watch you motherfucking cockroaches fall.
You are a bane. You are a curse. You mean NOTHING. YOU ARE NOTHING. If you think that this is the right fucking way to get attention - or maybe you're just bored - I don't know anymore - then you are sadly, sadly mistaken. The only reason why nobody does anything is because they recognize just how much of a group of selfish asstarded BABIES you lot all are.
D'awww. Can't get what you want?
D'awww. Wanna be an attention whore?
D'awww. Finally realized the world doesn't revolve around you?
D'awww. Someone shat in your cornflakes?
Here's a clue bat. Keep hitting yourself with it until you get a clue. Actually, why don't you just knock yourself the fuck out with it for a while, so there can be some peace and quiet in the land.
You obviously haven't heard the meaning of "Fuck 'em if they can't take a joke."
You FUCK.
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[this is for someone else]
Stop living in the land of drama. Nobody likes it and nobody appreciates it. Your big dramafest of yesterday made people annoyed and not actually realize that there was a serious situation going on. And if you're crying so hard that nobody can understand you, it's more difficult to get your needs met.
I'm scared too. You know I'm not exaggerating when I say that I don't have much left in this world. You know that I'm not playing the Drama Card when I say that I'm pretty much alone. We both know this. I understand that you're scared and I know that you're scared but fuck we are a TEAM and we will get through this together - all three of us. It'll take time and most likely an unconventional set of resources, but we'll get through it OK. And this isn't just me being optimistic because you know that dog doesn't hunt here.
If you want to say it, have fucking balls and come out and say it. Don't be a bunch of fucking cowards who commiserate somewhere else just because you're unhappy and not fucking adult enough to recognize that everyone has different places, different faces and different needs.
YOU ARE A BUNCH OF FUCKING COWARDS. Not only that, but pathetic, infantile right gits. Honey, I believe in karma and I totally believe that all the shit you're pulling is so going to bite you in the fucking ass. And I hope it does and I hope it takes out the biggest sonofabitchin' chunk that it can possibly take out. Because it will be good. It'll be so good to watch you motherfucking cockroaches fall.
You are a bane. You are a curse. You mean NOTHING. YOU ARE NOTHING. If you think that this is the right fucking way to get attention - or maybe you're just bored - I don't know anymore - then you are sadly, sadly mistaken. The only reason why nobody does anything is because they recognize just how much of a group of selfish asstarded BABIES you lot all are.
D'awww. Can't get what you want?
D'awww. Wanna be an attention whore?
D'awww. Finally realized the world doesn't revolve around you?
D'awww. Someone shat in your cornflakes?
Here's a clue bat. Keep hitting yourself with it until you get a clue. Actually, why don't you just knock yourself the fuck out with it for a while, so there can be some peace and quiet in the land.
You obviously haven't heard the meaning of "Fuck 'em if they can't take a joke."
You FUCK.
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[this is for someone else]
Stop living in the land of drama. Nobody likes it and nobody appreciates it. Your big dramafest of yesterday made people annoyed and not actually realize that there was a serious situation going on. And if you're crying so hard that nobody can understand you, it's more difficult to get your needs met.
I'm scared too. You know I'm not exaggerating when I say that I don't have much left in this world. You know that I'm not playing the Drama Card when I say that I'm pretty much alone. We both know this. I understand that you're scared and I know that you're scared but fuck we are a TEAM and we will get through this together - all three of us. It'll take time and most likely an unconventional set of resources, but we'll get through it OK. And this isn't just me being optimistic because you know that dog doesn't hunt here.
-marya hornbacher
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LANG
STOP GOING IN MY FUCKIGN BEDROOM! If i want my blinds open, i will open the bloody tihngs myself.
I HATE eatign in front of you, because i think you're passing judgements all the time, and yesterday just proved it, didnt it? So now, its tea time. You ring up and ask me if i've eaten. Have i? No. What do i tell you when you ask? Yes. I'm stuck in a self-destructive cycle, and truth be told, its partially down to YOU.
STOP GOING IN MY FUCKIGN BEDROOM! If i want my blinds open, i will open the bloody tihngs myself.
I HATE eatign in front of you, because i think you're passing judgements all the time, and yesterday just proved it, didnt it? So now, its tea time. You ring up and ask me if i've eaten. Have i? No. What do i tell you when you ask? Yes. I'm stuck in a self-destructive cycle, and truth be told, its partially down to YOU.
"Dance like no one's watching.
Love like you'll never be hurt.
Sing like there's nobody listening.
And live like it's heaven on earth."
- Quiet little Angel
- just plain inspiring
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you don't listen do you? i try and tell you i'm not feeling good... do you even hear the words? i don't think you know just how hard it is for me to admit i need help... but i tried hard today... and you did nothing... and that only shows me that i'm right in not asking people for help cuz they just don't give a fuck... but really... wont you just listen to me for once...
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you don't listen do you? i try and tell you i'm not feeling good... do you even hear the words? i don't think you know just how hard it is for me to admit i need help... but i tried hard today... and you did nothing... and that only shows me that i'm right in not asking people for help cuz they just don't give a fuck... but really... wont you just listen to me for once...
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/May
Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
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