Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by HiddenByLies » Sat Nov 04, 2006 4:57 am

PM's are fine :star:

I "try" to make myself believe that I'm over your death, and that I will be okay.

The truth is every day is a struggle to get through without you. How could I move on from someone who helped me with everything and who I talked to everyday?

I need you, but for now I'll just keep hiding behind my own self-destructive failures, and pray that someday I'll be with you.
the worlds her stage the people her crew
she looks so happy to me and you
but inside her body are secrets and lies
they're all her own that she hides behind
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but inside she's wondering why she's stuck in this place
but into her being she'll fall and remain
until someone frees her it's all just the same
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Post by flipflopfetish » Sat Nov 04, 2006 9:22 pm

I think I'm in relatively good shape
So why, as soon as I have to go to a soccer game, I get jittery and my body refuses to work?
Well, at least this is the last game I shall have to go to...

I feel so bad for not liking it too. Everyone else seems to.
I must be a freak :-?

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Sat Nov 04, 2006 9:56 pm

I've been purging lots.
Like once a day
but not because i binge
just because i eat more than i "planned" to.

I'm scared I won't get through the week because you're away.

I'm scared you won't even care.
Because you're going to leave me
I know it.

I keep losing too much blood.
my forearm is all fucked
i will never get a job
or be able to wear short sleeves
ever again
& when my mum sees she will kill me
:redstar: the time to tell a person you care is now :redstar: the paper crane chain of hope :redstar:

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Post by ballet_dancer7 » Sun Nov 05, 2006 2:44 am

i hurt myself.. pretty bad.. and i told you it wasnt your fault. i did it because you werent talking to me when i needed you.. you joked.. you didnt understand that i needed you more than ever.. and i was pissed off
just keep trying.. something is learned every time a mistake is made...

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Post by (*Haven*) » Sun Nov 05, 2006 6:43 am

PMs are appreciated.

~ K....I hope you fail at your little budge planning. And if you do, I won't be there to help you pick up the pieces. And don't ask me for anything because I'm not giving into you anymore!

And also, don't ignore my text messages. When I said "we need to talk" that's what I meant. Now talk to me!
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Post by mephistopheles » Sun Nov 05, 2006 3:58 pm

even if I get a first in my degree. I'm not guaranteed a job. In fact. I'm pretty much guaranteed to NOT get a job. Shit.
“Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.”

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Post by Callisto » Sun Nov 05, 2006 4:14 pm

:star: pms ok i guess :star:

there's so much of my life that i regret already that sometimes i wonder if there's any point me continuing when all i do is make mistakes and fuck things up

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Post by marshmallowfluff » Sun Nov 05, 2006 8:13 pm

i never stopped self-harming. I just stopped cutting.
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Post by amerylis » Sun Nov 05, 2006 10:41 pm

PM's are fine :)

Im terrified if I tell you what goes on in my head, what these scary thoughts are you'll think me a freak and run away. i want to tell you, i need to tell you and you are the only one i can trust with it right now.

I dont want the thoughts to stop. they scare me, they hurt me but if they are there I know Im not dead to all feeling when I get scared and emotionally low Its like I cant feel. this proves I can.

right now I need help, mentally self harming to me is only a small step from actually self harming. yet I dont know how to ask for it, the words get stuck and dont come out.
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Post by monkey » Sun Nov 05, 2006 11:40 pm

PMs fine


I want to be in physical fights.
I want to hurt other people and be hurt myself.

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Post by xanemicroyaltyx » Mon Nov 06, 2006 12:50 am

i think my depression is coming back and i'm terrified

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Post by steady hands » Mon Nov 06, 2006 5:42 am

i hate myself for failing you.


[especially since i know it was all my fault.]

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Post by poet with probs » Mon Nov 06, 2006 6:43 am

he is the one that drove me to it but he is aslo the one that kept me from it
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Post by Hisforever » Mon Nov 06, 2006 7:28 am

i did it myself.

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Post by MusicalMorphine » Mon Nov 06, 2006 7:16 pm

I fucking miss you but I don't know how to tell you. You obviously don't care.

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Post by mephistopheles » Mon Nov 06, 2006 11:16 pm

I thought I hated you. But I've just realised I don't. I feel...weird every time I think of you. And it hurts that you're talking to her and not me. I'm still pissed that you think I'm fucking stalking you. If I was I'd do a beter job than avoiding you 24/7. DO you know how many fucking times I've seen you and hidden? of course you dont. but I wish you did. you deserve to know. I want to be friends. I dont want you to fall in love with me or anything. I just want to be FRIENDS. Is that so fucking difficult?


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Post by red umbrellas » Tue Nov 07, 2006 3:30 am

one moment, it's like i don't exist. or like i'm just stupid.
the next, you tell me you miss me lots. and that you care.

and i'm not sure if i can keep bothering with this or if it's just too hard.

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Post by RainyDays » Tue Nov 07, 2006 5:39 am

You keep asking what's behind my wall...

I want to be held.
But I'm afraid to ask.

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Post by black_23 » Tue Nov 07, 2006 10:45 pm

I cut and it made me feel better, feel so stupid cos now Im calm and in control, but I've let you down all at the same time. I just hope I can hide it from you. I think im losing control.
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Post by VowsOfSadness » Wed Nov 08, 2006 12:07 am

where are you I am looking for you please come find me fast...
*Challenges welcome*
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