tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.
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steady hands
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by steady hands » Mon Oct 09, 2006 4:07 am
no, i'm not happy anymore.
i'
m sorry I lied to you.

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Callisto
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by Callisto » Mon Oct 09, 2006 12:54 pm
i'm thinking about dumping you because i don't believe that you love me because you don't act like you do
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Kaleb
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black_23
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by black_23 » Mon Oct 09, 2006 11:18 pm
I still tink about si, i visualise it, but im scared im falling and im trying so hard.
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onlymeallalooone333
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by onlymeallalooone333 » Mon Oct 09, 2006 11:43 pm
Notes r fine pm or im
My new secrets:
1. I wish the sex was better
2. Sometimes I do want the attention
3. I feel like I'm drowning
4. I revel in my depression
5. I'm thinking about breaking up with him even though I love him more then life itself
6. I'm in so much pain even when I say I'm happy.
notes r fine pm or im
"life's not worth a damn till you can say 'Hey world I am what I am!'"
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theboldeditalics
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by theboldeditalics » Tue Oct 10, 2006 4:57 am
i'm proposing
lately i've been feeling
like i don't belong
like the ground's not mine to walk upon
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fortune
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by fortune » Tue Oct 10, 2006 7:20 am
i sometimes take the bus at a different time just so that i can go past the hospital... to see that it's still there. i know it's odd but... everything is safe there.

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flipflopfetish
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by flipflopfetish » Wed Oct 11, 2006 5:27 am
i am too easily upset
it's stupid
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marshmallowfluff
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by marshmallowfluff » Wed Oct 11, 2006 8:50 pm
-i OD'd again today.
- A is ringing the center tomorrow to put me in touch with a counsellor. I've never been so scared in my life.

"Dance like no one's watching.
Love like you'll never be hurt.
Sing like there's nobody listening.
And live like it's heaven on earth."
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mephistopheles
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by mephistopheles » Wed Oct 11, 2006 11:00 pm
just posted about hating you.
I love you.
“Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.”
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Skyeler
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by Skyeler » Wed Oct 11, 2006 11:41 pm
Even though I know I wouldn't be here if it weren't for you.
I don't have one good memory from those two years.
Most of the time I feel like I don't belong.
But I got my new favorite record today.
My favorites change every single day.
Except you,
You'll always be number one.
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red umbrellas
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by red umbrellas » Thu Oct 12, 2006 1:23 am
i don't feel like i can ever be thin enough. but i don't feel like i can ever be strong enough to stop.
i'm not sure if i want to go back anymore. not permanently. but i don't think you love me enough to come here.
i wish i didn't have to go to your party. it's all too fucking overwhelming right now.
i went in and the job was actually still available. so did i walk out and cry behind my sunglasses?
It's all life and fire and lunacy
And excuses and excuses and excuses
Hold On To Yourself - Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds
"We paint a picture of a scenario - and then we become afraid of it" - Andrea Fella
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MusicalMorphine
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by MusicalMorphine » Thu Oct 12, 2006 6:32 pm
I kinda want you to notice, but at the same time I feel guilty about it. And scared about the idea you have of me.
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Callisto
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by Callisto » Thu Oct 12, 2006 7:44 pm
it ok to not like my friends, but being a dick about them just because they're gay and things isn't funny and i won't stand for it....you'd better be prepared to pick your ideas up or i may walk out on you
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pretty
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by pretty » Thu Oct 12, 2006 8:47 pm
I ate meat today by accident. It didn't even taste nice. It's really not a big deal, but I'm slightly embarrassed that I was slow enough not to notice.
'this is what she says gets her through it,
"if I don't let myself be happy now, then when?"' - jimmy eat world
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steady hands
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by steady hands » Fri Oct 13, 2006 5:04 am
i lied to mr l. it hasn't been two weeks. it's been two days.
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by Licentia Poetica » Sat Oct 14, 2006 12:17 pm
sometimes i look at my life
and i dont want it
the good or the bad
sometimes there is noone and nothing that matters to me
sometimes like now
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Catylyx
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by Catylyx » Sun Oct 15, 2006 3:25 pm
i want you to hold me until everything goes away.
please don't let me let go of this...
...i'm so scared of making my mom's same mistakes in love that i'm already making them.
i'm scared i'll fuck it up, and now i'm fighting myself to not run away.
I. Love. You.
and forever isn't long enough.
<i>I am innocent and I have been set free
I no longer have chains around my feet
And no matter where I go or what they say
I am innocent</i> --Third Day

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1 YEAR**~~back on the wagon 6/19/06~~
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mephistopheles
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by mephistopheles » Mon Oct 16, 2006 1:14 am
I dont want to be healthy. I want to be thin.
i dont want to be liked. i want to be hated.
i dont want you to want me. i dont want me.
i dont want to be here any more.
but over all that.
i want to be thin. i will die to be thin. i am dying to be thin. i'm trapped.
“Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.”
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ballet_dancer7
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by ballet_dancer7 » Mon Oct 16, 2006 1:25 am
Feel free to comment-PM
-i tell people i'm eating an adequate amount and believe it, until i really think about it, and i realize im not eating near enough
- i had sex. im not married. everything ive ever told anyone has gone down the drain. but we're both ok with it
just keep trying.. something is learned every time a mistake is made...
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