Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by black_23 » Mon Oct 09, 2006 11:13 pm

If you don't approve of me then that's just tough. I've come so far and yes I trip up but Im trying. I might not be articulate and confident like you would like, but that just me, it doesn't make me anyless of a person. Your son is with me and is just starting to be proud of me too, just leave me alone. I just wish the fact you didnt approce didn't bother me so much
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Post by Koru » Tue Oct 10, 2006 10:44 am

You know now how I feel about you and I wish I knew if you felt the same. I want to trust you, I want to believe you are being honest with me. I really hope you are and I have no evidence that your not. It's just that common sense suggests that if you lie to everyone else you care about, you probably lie to me and that only causes more hurt in the long run.

Please, please, be honest with me, it's all I ask of you.
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Post by Callisto » Tue Oct 10, 2006 2:30 pm

knowing that you're feeling this way is killing me because i love you so damn much...i wish i could do more to make things better.

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Post by fortune » Wed Oct 11, 2006 3:38 am

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fucking leave me alone okay?! you aren't my friend, you know absolutely nothing about me and i refuse to let you use me for sex. :( and now i feel like a bitch, thankyou.
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Post by Quiet little Angel » Wed Oct 11, 2006 10:58 am

i'm so sorry... but i can't be really here now... i know i'm letting you all down... i'm supposed to be so good at this... i'm supposed to be active here... i'm supposed to be the one who listens and answers... this'll fuck up my grades and i'm eternally sorry... i'm sorry i'm no good to anyone working with me in groups... i'm so sorry... i know you all think i'm being wierd and closed... i know you all think i'm strange... i know it's my own fault that none of you care... that none of you notice me hurting... i try so hard to keep it from showing... but now it is... and i'm so sorry... so sorry... i just wish you'd notice... and hug me... just once...

sorry... so sorry...


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Post by Quiet little Angel » Wed Oct 11, 2006 9:08 pm

can i ever do anything right? will you ever think i'm good enough? just give me a break please... i'm never going to be like her... but please let me think i'm good enough just being me...
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Post by mephistopheles » Wed Oct 11, 2006 10:49 pm

I fuckin hate you right now. I know you think you were being funny but I'm tired and it just hurt. It hurt you bastard. you hurt me and didnt ring back. I know You've got no credit and I'm being needy. But still. It hurt. And I wont tell you.
“Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.”

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Post by red umbrellas » Thu Oct 12, 2006 1:29 am

you know, i'm starting to wonder what to talk to you about....properly. speak to me, don't just want me. i don't want to be wanted, i need to be needed.
sometimes it's all starting to feel too unreal and i don't know how long i want it to be this way.

and to you all I WANT TO LIVE AGAIN. I WANT TO BE ME. I DON'T WANT RULES ANYMORE. I WANT TO BE FREE. I DON'T WANT TO LIVE HERE. BUT I DON'T THINK I WANT TO LIVE THERE/ I DON'T WANT TO BE THIS ME - I WANT TO BE THE OTHER ME.
It's all life and fire and lunacy
And excuses and excuses and excuses

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Post by Catylyx » Thu Oct 12, 2006 4:12 am

i want to stay here. in oklahoma. i want to live with friends, and share rent, and live pay check to pay check, and fight tooth and nail to make it.
i want to be poor and happy if thats what it takes. i want to be on my own. with noone but god and my heart to guide me.

and yes a major reason is daniel. i'll be the first to admit it. i love him. i want to spend the rest of my life with him, wether that changes or not i don't know. but i believe in it too much despite the flaws, depite the mistakes, despite the all out messed up things we do, to just give it up.

i fought too hard to keep him.

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i'm scared. i'm so so so scared that it'll all end in flames. that i'll be left here, fighting, and knowing that it was all a lie.
i don't want us to end up like my parents. i don't want us to end up like anyone other than us.

but i need two months away from this because i'm scared. i'm scared that i'm basing my life off of you too much. that i really will end up like my mom. i'm so scared.

i'm scared of having it all the time, but i'm even more scared to lose you altogether.

i'm confused and i'm trying so hard to give it to god...i'm trying. and i'm fighting. and i know you're there. and that you don't want me to do anything that could be bad...i love you so much.

it hurts to breath when i feel like i'm losing you.
please tell me i'm not.
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Post by mephistopheles » Thu Oct 12, 2006 12:50 pm

you hate me. I'm sorry. But you're not listening.
“Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.”

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Post by 5th section » Thu Oct 12, 2006 12:59 pm

I need you more than ever and I can't say it. I need someone to make the first move. Please notice something.
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Post by _____iamacliche » Thu Oct 12, 2006 9:26 pm

you don't realise how much i want to die right now.

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Post by Peege » Fri Oct 13, 2006 12:30 am

i cant do this right now cos i'm not believing anything i say to you to make you feel better. and i'm like a step away from not being here anymore and... i just cant be what you want me to be... i cant tell you its all going to be ok cos it isnt.

once, just once, it would be nice if YOU told ME that its all going to be alright... and that its alright to be the real me.

but then... you dont know the real me, do you?

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Post by Callisto » Sat Oct 14, 2006 10:33 am

i don't know if i still love you..........or if i ever really did

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Post by Kaleb » Sat Oct 14, 2006 9:03 pm

You're too good for me but i love you so much
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Post by black_23 » Sat Oct 14, 2006 10:24 pm

Im obsessing and paranoid but have no one to tell. Im scared tht Im falling and I swore this wouldn't happen a again.
'Art washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life' Picasso

'IS THERE NO WAY OUT OF THE MIND?' Sylvia Plath


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Post by April » Sat Oct 14, 2006 11:26 pm

I need you to say the right thing. But even I don't know what that is.
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Post by mephistopheles » Sun Oct 15, 2006 1:50 am

If you want to hate me then that's fine. I just wish you'd SAY it to me. Just bloody SAY SOMETHING! Anything.
“Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.”

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Post by Peege » Sun Oct 15, 2006 7:49 pm

i'm beginning to realise you really arent the person i thought you were...

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Post by fuyumi » Sun Oct 15, 2006 9:16 pm

i was just so scared before and i ended up panicking when i couldn't reach you and then i got so angry with myself
and then you just disappeared.
and gods, i hope you're okay.

- so i turn myself inside out in hope someone will see -
- these precious things let them break their hold on me -

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