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tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by Callisto » Fri Sep 29, 2006 6:29 pm

i pretend like im gettin better but that's just it, i'm pretending. i still hate myself. i'd still give anything to be as thin as a catwalk model. i still think about cutting. i'm still afraid that you'll just turn around one day and say you never loved me and that it was all a lie and that your leaving me because you're bored and because i'm not good enough in bed.

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Post by Callisto » Sat Sep 30, 2006 8:17 pm

:star: PM's ok :star:

drinking makes me feel confident. it makes me feel better about being me. it makes me feel happy. and that's the reason why i drink, to feel something good for a change.

edited to add:

seeing hot girls that are my type turns me on more than you do right now
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Post by Quiet little Angel » Sat Sep 30, 2006 8:26 pm

i sometimes wish my dad would actually hit me... that way i'd have something to show for the pain he's causing me... that way people might understand it...

pm's ok...
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Post by last_day » Sun Oct 01, 2006 1:35 am

PM's ok.

I want people to hate me, yet I'm so scared of being alone.

I'm so scared of judgement that I stop myself from doing things.

I hate Hawaiian people who think that Hawaii is theirs and that haoles should leave. I know it's racist, but I can't help it. :oops:

I think I like someone else. I may not love him anymore. And I'm scared that he may not really love me. It's been so long.

I am so nervous. His return is going to change everything. Is it wrong of me to not want him to go to my school? I'm trying to build a new life, I may not be able to do that with him there.

I plagiarized work for the last three years. I'm still going to, just not in English.


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Post by mephistopheles » Sun Oct 01, 2006 6:02 am

I didn't stop taking drugs.

I just got better at hiding it.
“Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.”

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Post by April » Sun Oct 01, 2006 10:28 am

I don't think I can love anyone as much as they love me.

What kind of person does that make me?
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Post by mephistopheles » Mon Oct 02, 2006 1:40 am

I love you. I don't tell you because...well...I think you know. I hope you know. But I do. Anyway. I love you more than him. Even if you don't believe it. Even if I didn't believe it to start with.
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Post by fortune » Mon Oct 02, 2006 8:09 am

-su trigger-

it's my birthday tomorrow and all i really want is to be dead.
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Post by powdahchica » Wed Oct 04, 2006 7:57 am

I think I'm supposed to be a nun, but I want to have sex anyway...

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Post by Not_what » Thu Oct 05, 2006 10:37 am

I don't like you
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Post by MusicalMorphine » Thu Oct 05, 2006 4:49 pm

I need someone. I know people say they don't, and it's kinda materialistic, but I do. And I'm afraid I won't have for a long time. Even If I did, I don't know if I'd be able to get close. I dream about having someone that would understand, and be cool about it.


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Post by ViolinPlayingGoat » Thu Oct 05, 2006 9:12 pm

i'm falling again. and i keep trying to tell myself that i;m not cos i think that will bring me back up, but i am. i can;t help it.
i thought i was doing so well.
i should never acknowledge that i am though, it always goes downhill when i say to myself 'i am doing well'.

but i didnt go to see her today. that was strong.
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Post by marshmallowfluff » Thu Oct 05, 2006 9:56 pm

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Post by fuyumi » Thu Oct 05, 2006 10:13 pm

PMs okay



you know
when i lock myself in the bathroom
it's so that i can hurt myself
without you interrupting me
again

- so i turn myself inside out in hope someone will see -
- these precious things let them break their hold on me -

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Post by MusicalMorphine » Fri Oct 06, 2006 4:17 pm

It hurts me to see him with her. First it was D now S. Is he going to circle all of my friends? It never going to be me is it?

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Post by Quiet little Angel » Fri Oct 06, 2006 8:54 pm

Pm's ok...

i'm scared of the sleep-over tomorrow... i'm scared they'll see my scars and recent cuts when i sleep... or that i'll panic and they'll see it... or i'll break down and cry for no reason... they're my friends and i love them, but i don't want them to ever see that side of me... it'd only freak them out...
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Post by Kaleb » Sat Oct 07, 2006 10:05 pm

After we broke up i cut once for everytime we had kissed everytime i had said i love you, so i couldnt forget them .....i though they would be the last time i would ever get to hold you or tell you how i felt, how much i love you, when we got back together i cut so i would remember it a noticeable mark that would stand out (but only to me). Then he has come along and is trying to spoil everything, he is the source of my anger but i dont want you to not be friends with him, she can buy you things when i cant and i am the person who loves you more than life, im jealous and so very ashamed to admit it, jealous of her and jealous of him, jealous of the people who can tlk to you whenever they like, jealous of the people who can meet you at the weekends......im so ashamed


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Post by Licentia Poetica » Sun Oct 08, 2006 9:05 am

I always fall asleep wishing it'd be the last thing I ever do.
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Post by WorkDaySarcasm » Sun Oct 08, 2006 9:53 pm

-deep down inside i've never stopped hating myself.

-For ages i lied to myself about having a eating disorder and that im been moving on, but its got worse.

-i act strong and unemotional when really i am weak and long tyo show emotion to people.

-i have sexual feelings for girls as well as guys, but none of my mates know.

-everyone thinks ive stoped SIing but ive just got beta at hiding it.
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Post by mephistopheles » Sun Oct 08, 2006 11:51 pm

I will never be thin enough

yes. thank you for signing me up to a program which makes me feel watched all the time. that doesn't fuel my schizophrenic tendencies at all.
“Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.”

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