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- ViolinPlayingGoat
- bus mechanic
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i told myself i'm ok and i'm getting over it...but i'm not sure that i am. i've been ok for a while, but i'm not sure that keeping telling myself that i'm over it is going to work for very long. this would be so much easier if i didnt have to see her but i also think it would tear me apart.
i told myself i wouldnt find an excuse to see her until tues, when i know i will see her. that it will be better and easier if i don;t see her much. but i went to see her today. for a reason that was reasonable and useful, but not *necessary*. and means i see her again monday. this is bad, i shouldnt have gone to see her, if i carry on it will make things worse.
i told myself i wouldnt find an excuse to see her until tues, when i know i will see her. that it will be better and easier if i don;t see her much. but i went to see her today. for a reason that was reasonable and useful, but not *necessary*. and means i see her again monday. this is bad, i shouldnt have gone to see her, if i carry on it will make things worse.
'cos i am a rocket on fire[[alone on its journey, home to the quickening ground with no-one there to catch it]]
-kate bush
You do it to yourself, you do, that's what really hurts,
you do it to yourself, just you, you and no-one else
{radiohead}
*~*happiness isn't happiness without a violin playing goat*~*
-kate bush
You do it to yourself, you do, that's what really hurts,
you do it to yourself, just you, you and no-one else
{radiohead}
*~*happiness isn't happiness without a violin playing goat*~*
- red umbrellas
- beyond inspiring
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- Location: Sydney
they aren't home.
i can cut and deal with it properly right?
and i'd feel better too?
oh, god, i don't know what to do...
i can cut and deal with it properly right?
and i'd feel better too?
oh, god, i don't know what to do...
And excuses and excuses and excuses
Hold On To Yourself - Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds
"We paint a picture of a scenario - and then we become afraid of it" - Andrea Fella
- recovering4me
- spiffy maximus
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*secret*
would like comments PM
~~part of me doesn't want to get well
~~i want someone to talk to but don't know how to ask
~~i'm afraid of being alone forever
~~part of me doesn't want to get well
~~i want someone to talk to but don't know how to ask
~~i'm afraid of being alone forever
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Not Old But We Hate Every and All Text Speak
Completely cut free since sometime in Aug, im not going back.
My Place
Sober since June 19
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*grieving the loss of my little girl, Addie Leygh, RIP baby girl, mommy loves you*
Not Old But We Hate Every and All Text Speak
Completely cut free since sometime in Aug, im not going back.
My Place
Sober since June 19
[url=http://www.TickerFactory.com/]
*grieving the loss of my little girl, Addie Leygh, RIP baby girl, mommy loves you*
- handmade mute
- sprouting branches
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- Location: Brisbane, Australia
- Licentia Poetica
- forum moderator emeritus
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You live in this world of sunshine & happiness & going out & self esteem & trying hard.
& it feels like that's a place I as myself, can never exist in.
& it feels like that's a place I as myself, can never exist in.
If we knew each other's secrets, what comforts we should find.
John Churton Collins
- MusicalMorphine
- growing roots
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- Gender: Female
- Location: Hastings, England
- Quiet little Angel
- just plain inspiring
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- Location: somewhere between blue tulips and anxiety...
*Pm's are ok... if you feel like it... not requested though...*
***SU*** (Kinda...)
i'm a failure at everything... i couldn't even die... even that i failed at... i couldn't do it right... even though i want it so badly... i couldn't... i fail at everything... i wish i could just do that one thing right... for once i really want nothing but that... it's been a long time since i felt like this... but i'll probably fail everytime...
*Pm's are ok... if you feel like it... not requested though...*
***SU*** (Kinda...)
i'm a failure at everything... i couldn't even die... even that i failed at... i couldn't do it right... even though i want it so badly... i couldn't... i fail at everything... i wish i could just do that one thing right... for once i really want nothing but that... it's been a long time since i felt like this... but i'll probably fail everytime...
*Pm's are ok... if you feel like it... not requested though...*
/May
Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
- MusicalMorphine
- growing roots
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- red umbrellas
- beyond inspiring
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- Location: Sydney
i haven't heard from you...i know i'm meant to call.
but i wanted to see if i didn't, whether you'd try and contact me somehow
i'm not sure why i'm suprised you didn't.
and i'm not sure why i tried to test you that way.
but i'm sorry.
because i don't think you care as much as me
or as much as i did anyway.
because now i think i'm losing faith.
but i wanted to see if i didn't, whether you'd try and contact me somehow
i'm not sure why i'm suprised you didn't.
and i'm not sure why i tried to test you that way.
but i'm sorry.
because i don't think you care as much as me
or as much as i did anyway.
because now i think i'm losing faith.
And excuses and excuses and excuses
Hold On To Yourself - Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds
"We paint a picture of a scenario - and then we become afraid of it" - Andrea Fella
- Shaz
- sprouting branches
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- Joined: Tue Jun 03, 2003 2:09 pm
- Gender: female
- Location: South Africa
Comments welcome-pm. *I am sometimes afraid that my husband will hit me. *I know i shouldn't provoke him but i get tired of walking on eggshells and so i say wat i feel no matter what the consequences. *I love him more than life
i'm dying praying bleeding and screaming
am i too lost to be saved
am i too lost?
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my wounds cry for the grave
my soul cries for deliverance
will i be denied Christ
tourniquet
my suicide
-EVANESCENCE
am i too lost to be saved
am i too lost?
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my wounds cry for the grave
my soul cries for deliverance
will i be denied Christ
tourniquet
my suicide
-EVANESCENCE
- MusicalMorphine
- growing roots
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- Joined: Wed Jul 19, 2006 5:51 pm
- Gender: Female
- Location: Hastings, England
- Quiet little Angel
- just plain inspiring
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- Joined: Wed Nov 02, 2005 2:10 pm
- Location: somewhere between blue tulips and anxiety...
i'm in physical pain... but i wont see a doctor, cuz this pain takes the place of my SI and i wont have to do it...
/May
Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
- mephistopheles
- cow control
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