who are you right now? *lang trigs*

[half/hearted]

i am...
lonely. oppressed. afraid.

i am not...
a freak, a deviant, or a threat to society, no matter what they say.

i feel...
fear that they'll hurt me or the people i love.
confusion about why they would hate us so much.
frustration that i can't make them understand.
anger that they would dare threaten us.
despair, knowing that they can be anyone, anywhere.

i want...
the world to understand my kind.
equality in all things.
the security of knowing i won't be hurt because of who i am.

i need...
to keep hoping.
to remember that deep down, most people mean well.
to remember to love humanity.
...to cut to keep myself alive.

i have...
a name. a heart. a soul. a reason to live.
a curse. a blessing. a gift.
a dream.
too many scars to count anymore.

i love...
being with people who understand.
dreaming about the day when two of my friends can finally get married.
pretending the world doesn't have a death wish for me.

i hate...
myself, for being what i am...and letting their hate get to me.

[lotus]

i am...
judgmental of myself
vegan
isolative
uncertain
loved
anxious
lost
creative
artistic
brave
tattooed
pierced
scarred
intense
soulful
depressed
self-destructive
affectionate
needy
confused
sometimes ~long-winded~

i am not...
mean
*normal*
close-minded
a hypocrite
free
okay
open about myself
good at asking for help

i feel...
scared
unseen
misunderstood
sad
alone
raw
torn apart
traumatized
calm
caring
desperate

i want...
to be understood
to be held
to be taken care of
peace
to heal
to cry
to hide
to be enlightened
to be hopeful
to be able to envision a future

i need...
love
to cry
to be in nature
to know I am cared about
affection
to scream
to connect

i have...
scars
a cozy house
a good T
disordered eating
a strong, pure, radiant spirit (somewhere in there)

i love...
my sweet kitty
my family
my partner
my security pillow
my bed
the mountains and the ocean
the rain in the desert
chocolate
free self-expression
passionate music

i hate...
ignorance
war
others hurting
the sound of people munching popcorn and rattling the bag
to be patronized
to be judged
dirty bathrooms
needing others

[whoareyou?doyouevenknow?]

i am...
me, whoever that is..
brave
stuborn (in a bad way)
loyal
can be a bitch
selfish, but am there when it counts
short
annoying
loud
quiet
a loner
bookworm
logical
talk before thinking
can be smart

i am not...
evil
bad

i feel...
sad most of the times
angry
hyper
sometimes content

i want...
true love
soulmate
the thing/person i am searching for

i need...
to trust/love/be comfortable with myself
love
support
independance


i have...
a good family
friends
a good future
a good home
the world at my fingertips

i love...
family

i hate...
depression, awful feeling

[Neviah]

i am...
- Upset
- Hurting
- Urgey
- a loner
- Brave

i am not...
- Bad
- Pathetic
- attention seeking
- manipulative
- Nasty
- Selfish
- SI

i feel...
- Alone
- Upset
- Un-needed
- un-loved
- Selfish

i want...
- Ben
- Hugs
- Perfection
- A life
- Meaning

i need...
- Meaning
- Love
- Life

i have...
- Ben
- A roof over my head
- A job

i love...
- Ben
- My pets
- My friends

i hate...
- Being alone
- Abusers
- Being a victim
- Depression
- Judgement

[Peege]

i am...
~ lonely
~ sad
~ urgy
~ hurting inside

i am not...
~ coping well
~ happy
~ enjoying life
~ being a good friend

i feel...
~ small
~ incomplete
~ alone
~ empty

i want...
~ to feel nothing
~ a cuddle
~ to not have to remember to breathe

i need...
~ someone i can really talk to
~ acceptance
~ understanding

i have...
~ a hole inside me
~ a loving family - why is that not enough?!

i love...
~ my cat
~ butterflies
~ home
~ earrings

i hate...
~ this feeling that i cant describe
~ feeling so alone
~ being me

[Scatterbrain]

i am...
panicky
anxious
all for no reason

i am not...
stupid
uncapable
a crappy golfer

i feel...
nervous
angry
worried
scared


i want...
to go to bed
peace
to get away from it

i need...
a real hug, not a fake one from my family
to open up
to get help for SI

i have...
a lot to live for
a wonderful cat
a good brain
good chance of getting into Gonzaga

i love...
Roman
Lucy
JM
the way Roman's arms felt around me

i hate...
family
not feeling safe
not having Roman anymore
not being sure about the future
not knowing what I am supposed to do with my life

~Megan

[black_23]

i am...
Real
Sad
Lost

i am not...
Clever
Strong
Loveable

i feel...
Tired
Sad
Tipsy
Worthless

i want...
a hug
to feel happy

i need...
to sleep
to stop thinking

i have...
a wonderful b/f who i dont deserve
too many thoughts to rationalise

i love...
G


i hate...
being me
being quiet
being sad

[milleniumsinger]

i am...a child of God

i am not...worthless

i feel...guilty and shameful

i want...to pursue Christ, and not sin

i need...to know that God is in control

i have...great friends who didn't turn away when I told them my problems, and still don't turn away as more problems arise.

i love...God, and lots of other people that come waaay after that.

i hate...hating myself

[Spidey]

right now i am one angry, bitter ...person.

[MusicalMorphine]

i am...
screwed

i am not...
comfortable
complacent

i feel...
frustrated
hopeless
useless
scared
alone

i want...
to be complacent with my life
people to care
to belong

i need...
love
confidence

i have...
music

i love...
Music
Chester

i hate...
feeling this way
feeling like I've let people down
feeling in the way
feeling so self-conscience all the time

[HiddenByLies]

i am...
-tired
-sad
-warn out
-drained

i am not...
-happy
-okay
-at peace/ ease

i feel...
-alone
-confused
-abandoned
-sad
-angry

i want...
-Matthew back
-to be happy again
-to be normal again
-to be okay
-to not fight with people
-to not hate myself
-to not have weight issues

i need...
-to go to bed
-to stop living in the past
-to not be so selfish

i have...
-a family who loves me
-a life i need to live
-to move on

i love...
-Matthew
-my family/ friends
-to be alive

i hate...
-living (yes i am a contradiction)
-myself
-feeling fat
-not feeling good enough
-living in the shadow[/b]

[Peege]

i am...
tired
alone
aching
terrified

i am not...
at peace
comfortable
fine

i feel...
small
discarded
pain

i want...
comfort
silence in my head
dreamless sleep

i need...
to work out what i need

i have...
friends and family who love me

i love...
my cat, my family and friends

i hate...
myself
being a cliche

[red umbrellas]

i am...
afraid
sad
fragile

i am not...
ok like i'm pretending

i feel...
fat
scared
lost

i want...
for these feelings to pass
to be needed
to be worthwhile

i need...
reassurance
to stop being so melo-fucking-dramatic

i have...
to keep fighting...but i'm not sure why


i love...
music
dark chocolate

i hate...
that he treats me like i'm nothing
that i am worthless
that i'm headed back down this road

[(*Haven*)]

i am...
~Not feeling safe
~Feeling alone
~Sad

i am not...
~Okay
~Safe


i feel...
~Suicidal
~Unsafe
~Alone

i want...
~To talk to my therapist more.
~To be okay for just one day.
~To fall asleep without taking a sleeping pill.

i need...
~My therapist.
~To take care of myself.

i have...
~To keep going.
~To tell myself that I'm going to therapy on Friday.
~Fun things to look forward to.

i love...
~My cat when she curls up with me at night.
~That my therapist really cares for me and goes out of her way to make sure I'm okay.

i hate...
~That I've been feeling suicidal for over a month.
~That I have to take at least one sleeping pill just about every night but that I still can't sleep through the night.
~That I feel so alone.

[lotus]

i am...
struggling
unstable
trying my best

i am not...
what i seem on the outside

i feel...
sad
alone
invisible
unworthy

i want...
to be understood
to be heard
to get better
to stop hurting

i need...
more support
to be able to validate my own feelings
to figure out what i want

i have...
to stay in treatment
to stop hurting myself
to stop hiding
to be willing

i love...
my family
my partner and kitty
my therapist

i hate...
feeling desperately tired of struggling
being judged and my feelings being hurt by the person i rely on and love most
feeling like i can never get enough of what i need

[treasure]

i am... anxious, shy, alone, in control of the decision to si or not

i am not... healthy, ready to help myself

i feel... sad, fragile, pessimistic

i want... my pain to go away or to be held for a little while, to see some hope

i need... energy and hope to put into the next few days/ weeks/ months.

i have... enough money, some confidence, a little support

i love... Bus, 24hr computer access

i hate... myself

[handmade mute]

i am... alive, real, coping, strong, going to find a way.

i am not... stupid, selfish, weak, invisible, unfair, to blame for everything, going to fail.

i feel... exhausted, overemotional, drained, unable to cope, sad, useless, worthless and not really here.

i want... to find the silver lining, to find a way to be useful without jumping in to the situation blindly and annoying people.

i need... a way to find a calm place in all the chaos around me, a safe place to go without fear of interruption, to take better care of myself, to get the unit clean for company.

i have... music aplenty, DVDs I can watch, a supportive flatmate taking up the slack because I physically cant, a broken finger.

i love... my gal, my friends and family, the people at BUS, my puppy and the neighbour's dogs. That I've gone months at this point.

i hate... that I'm running out of time to get everything done and I'm falling apart so much that I'm falling behind on my list of things to do.

[Quiet little Angel]

i am...
scared
lonely
confused

i am not...
satisfied
happy
sure

i feel...
sad
tired

i want...
to be loved

i need...
someone to care

i have...
all and nothing...

i love...
those who care...

i hate...
me and my stupidness

[HiddenByLies]

i am...
-happy
-excited
-anxious
-tired

i am not...
-sad
-angry
-depressed
-suicidal

i feel...
-amazing

i want...
-him to ask me out!

i need...
-to probably go to bed

i have...
-so many thoughts running through my head

i love...
-him

i hate...
-nothing today, life is finally good for a change

[balletomane]

i am...
tired
worn out
sad

i am not...
inspired

i feel...
low

i want...
to feel better

i need...
rest

i have...
food

i love...
my friends

i hate...
my anxiety
my mood disorder