Hi and some interesting insight

[tropicandace]

Hello everyone, I havent made many posts so I want to introduce myself.

I've been hurting myself for about three years and I am trying to make an effort to stop. Right now I am in an intensive out patient partial program and my goal is to stay si free. I've thout about stopping many times but never knew why I wanted to or developed effective stratigies to stop. I have bipolar I so I am dealing with some other issues in addition to things from my childhood.

Its amazing how the staff guides us and hearing from other people helps. I have tried everything in the book to stop cutting but I found if I tweek some of the suggetions and understand that it wasn't going to be easy, it was definitly possible. of course it wont be honky dory and I garantee that it will feel uncomfortable--espically if you have self-esteem issues-- but its worth it. Its only been about three days but I feel good about it and I have been challenging my thoughts.

Someone gave me the sugestion to eliminate cutting as on option for coping. Sometimes we spend so much energy thinking how to stop we get frustruated and do it anyway. If it is gone I realized I could think of other ways to cope. Sounds kind of stupid but it works.

Also becomming aware of my feelings helped. Stopping and think what actually brought on the need to harm myself.

I was one to stuff my feelings and let them out by hurting myself.
It is hard when my mind starts racing to get it to stop. my first instinct would be something distructive. But I keep in mind that the feeling will pass and that it has in the past.

Sorry this became a lengthy message but here's one more thing


Good ability to all of you who are, have, or thinking about finding alternatiive ways to cope. Luck won't do you any good but realizing your ability will. [

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[Spidey]

awesome.