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tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by barnabygirl » Fri May 05, 2006 12:59 pm

I WISH THEY WOULD UNDERSTAND!!!! AND STOP TELLING ME WHAT TO DO BUT ACCEPT THE CHOICES I MAKE,, AND STILL CARE

AND EVEN AGREE BETWEEN THEM!!! THAT WOULD HELP
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Post by black_23 » Sun May 07, 2006 10:17 pm

:star: I wish I wasnt scared
:star: I wish I didnt have to make the choices
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Post by Licentia Poetica » Sun May 07, 2006 11:09 pm

theatregeek wrote:i wish i still knew people on bus
I know you. Why are you feeling so lost here? What can you do to feel more included? Start a new place? Pm some old friends? Find a niche for yourself, there's a few littler boards to choose from where your posts wont disappear so quickly.

Barnarby girl? What has happened to make you feel like this? Who is it that you wish would understand. Why can't you explain it to whoever it is? Write a letter or talk to them. Sometimes people cannot understand, but are happier if you at least try to explain situations and help them know that you are thinking about your decisions and making choices based on your own opinins & thoughts.

Black 23 - what are you afraid of? How can you either change this situation or change your thinking about this situation so you are not afraid? Can you find someone to talk to about these choices? Sometimes its good to run your thoughts through someone else's opinion & ideas - you may find something you hadnt thought of.

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:redstar: the time to tell a person you care is now :redstar: the paper crane chain of hope :redstar:

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Post by Cellardoor » Fri May 26, 2006 3:15 am

:star: i wish that i hadnt lied to jess.

:star: i wish that i could just admit to all my lies with out any consequenses.

:star: i wish that i was thinner.

:star: i wish that i wasnt able to be so in human sometimes.

:star: i wish that i was sorry for hurting everyone so much.

:star: i wish that i could think of another way out of this.

:star: i wish i didnt enjoy being sad and getting special attention.

:star: i wish that wishes came true.

:star: i wish that me and jess will still be best friends when were old ladies.

:star: i really wish i live to have kids and get married and see my friends grow up and who they marry and what jobs theyl have and what my mum will be like when shes an old lady and see my little brother have a girlfriend and grown up and.... i want to see what happens to everyone, and be there when they need me, like theyve been here for me, i want to see my world get better and...

sorry.. that turned into an anti SU prep talk for my self...
oh well il post this anyways...

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Post by Callisto » Fri May 26, 2006 8:40 am

I wish...I wish that I knew what was really wrong with me so I could fix it.

I wish that I wasn't too scared to ask for help.

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Sun May 28, 2006 11:58 am

Cellardoor:

I'm really glad you could use this as a way to talk yourself out of SU. You speak of lying to people. Sometimes, to be honest, some lies are kept to yourself. They say the truth will set you free, but sometimes its just too hard for people to get over it. What you have to do however, is make up for it so *you* can be at peace. Maybe try to admit your lies to yourself, and find ways of telling the truth next time, or righting your wrongs.

Why do you wish you were thinner? Do you think that will really help your situation? Do you think it'll make life easier to deal with? I struggle with ED issues too, and i *know* it's really hard but sometimes you need to step back & realise being thinner is not going to help you. However, being healthy could make a really big difference.

I thinking wishing you were sorry, means that at least some part of you is. & thats the first step to making sure you dont make the same mistakes again. Don't be so hard on yourself, it sounds like you're pretty self critical. Everyone mves mistakes, everyone hurts people sometimes.

Nobody enjoys being sad. Nobody wouldn't trade being sad for happy just for the "special attention". There's a difference between attention seeking & attention needing. Someone who's sad needs attention from time to time, just like everybody else. Furthermore, someone thinking they enjoy being sad for attention signifies that there's definately a larger need there than just getting special treatment.

You're right. Wishes don't just come true. You have to work at them. You have to be open to ideas. You have to try. Sometimes you might have to try to change what you wish for.

You say you wish to get old & have kids & be friends with people & all that. Now.. what do you have to do *now* to make your wish come true *later*?

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There's nothing "wrong" with you per se. It's not something broken that anyone can "fix". It takes time. Have patience (believe me, I know how you feel and someone telling you to have patience is so.. superficial and stupid) But hang in there. You're worth it.

Wishing you weren't too scared isn't going to make you less scared. Decide how you're going to ask, decide who you're going to ask and just *do* it. Jump right in and don't think about it till later. What do you have to lose?

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Post by Heart7799 » Sun Jun 04, 2006 5:05 am

*i wish my past would just leave me alone*
* i wish I could just wake up and find out all my life up until now has just been one horrible nightmare*
*I wish this overbearing pain would just go away*
*I wish i didn't have PTSD*
*I wish I was loved*
*hell, I wish I was loveable*
*I wish I was skinny*
*I wish I was pretty*
*I wish I was smarter*
*I wish I could relate to people*
*I wish I could live life not being scared*
*I wish I had someone who loved me for me, and loved me unconditionally*
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Post by Scatterbrain » Sun Jun 04, 2006 7:34 am

- I wish that I could tell you how I really feel... I love you!
- I wish we could talk about serious stuff, not just superficial things
- I wish I could trust you enough to ask for your support in my SI
- I wish I could be myself, although with you I am the closest I can get to openness...
- I wish I could tell you that I love you, so much that it hurts

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Post by Kabluey » Sun Jun 04, 2006 8:10 am

I wish the world wasn't such a stuffed up place.
I wish money had never been invented, instead people actually helped eachother.
I wish instead of cars people rode horses to the supermarket where you could just take the food and leave.
I wish I didn't need food.
I wish I could teleport.
I wish I could fly.
I wish I was at least an incy bit skinnier.
I wish I can die painlessly someday
I wish happiness came just as easy as sadness

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Post by nightmarch » Mon Aug 21, 2006 6:17 am

I wish I were more confident.
I wish there were peace.
I wish I could deal with stress better.
I wish I could enjoy my life. And I wish everyone else could enjoy their life too.
I wish there were shared love in my life.
I wish I had someone helping me out through life.
I wish I could like myself.

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Post by (*Haven*) » Thu Aug 24, 2006 4:51 am

I wish my therapist was here.....
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Post by Seeshellz » Tue Feb 06, 2007 12:31 pm

I wish I slept longer than 2 hours last night
I wish I wasn't abused in any way
I wish I didn't have a mental illness
I wish I could stop taking meds.
I wish I could cope better
I wish I would never have to be admitted to a phosp ever again
I wish people would never suffer.
I wish people would never get sick.
I wish people would get along in the world.
I wish there would be no more wars.
I wish there would be no more fighting.
I wish there would be world peace.
I wish for forgiveness.
I wish for happiness.
"If you learn from your suffering,

and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,

you might be able to help someone else who's now

in the phase you may have just completed.

Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."

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Post by one out of none » Wed Feb 07, 2007 7:07 pm

Proper wishes
I wish I could magically take away everyones sadness and hurt.
I wish I could move on.

Stupid wishes, but wishes nonetheless:
That I would meet my favourite band.
That I would not be broke all the time.
That the fire alarm in my building would stop going off in the middle of the night.
That my essays would write themselves. :roll:
That I got more hugs IRL.
That people IRL would just be generally nicer to each other on a daily basis.

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Post by (*Haven*) » Wed Feb 07, 2007 9:22 pm

I wish that my therapist wouldn't call me back.

I wish that I didn't have to go back to therapy.
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Post by Seeshellz » Thu Feb 08, 2007 5:58 am

I wish my best friend C who lives far away would be able to move closer nearby...and we could visit each other every weekend :D :star:
"If you learn from your suffering,

and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,

you might be able to help someone else who's now

in the phase you may have just completed.

Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."

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Post by wilson » Thu Feb 08, 2007 12:00 pm

i wish so much it was me that died not her
i wish i could change the past.
i wish i would never feel alone
i wish i wanted to recover
i wish i wawnted to feel good.
i wish i never felt like this.
i wish...
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im over existing in limbo
im over the myths and placebos
i dont really mind if i just fade away
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Post by Seeshellz » Sun Feb 11, 2007 12:25 pm

I wish so much that my friend Donna never SUed.(I miss her terribly)
I wish I could get back to eating normally again.
I wish there was no more abuse of any kind.
I wish there was no more sickness.
I wish my friend C and I had enough money so we could go on vacation together.
I wish my friend C is safe right now.(I'm scared for her)
"If you learn from your suffering,

and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,

you might be able to help someone else who's now

in the phase you may have just completed.

Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."

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Post by Silent_Tears » Mon Feb 12, 2007 1:42 am

i wish i didn't hurt so much
i wish people didn't hurt each other
i wish children were protected from harm
i wish i lived closer to my friend
i wish i had better coping skills
i wish i didn't think about si or su
i wish i didn't have a problem with desiring alcohol
i wish my h. hadn't cheated on me
i wish i wasn't such a bad person
i wish i didn't weigh so much
i wish i had a real relationship with my parents
i wish i didn't have to take meds
i wish i was better
i wish i didn't have to go to counseling
i wish i wasn't so attention-seeking
i wish
i wish
i wish...

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Post by Scatterbrain » Mon Feb 12, 2007 7:44 am

I wish I was "normal"
I wish I didnt have to hide my scars anymore
I wish I could finally be accepted by "society"

~Megan
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Post by Seeshellz » Tue Feb 13, 2007 6:07 am

I wish I was able to sleep
I wish I was able to express myself more easily
I wish I answered the stupid phone(I messed up!)
I wish I was able to eat
I wish I didn't talk about my ex today
I wish that my friend M2 wasn't being abused my her husband
I wish that my friend C is OK
I wish for alot of things
"If you learn from your suffering,

and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,

you might be able to help someone else who's now

in the phase you may have just completed.

Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."

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