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tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by Neviah » Wed May 10, 2006 2:32 am

mum - i have a problem and i need to sort it out, i just don't know how, its the only way i know.

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Post by ~bluehaze~ » Fri May 12, 2006 7:57 pm

L - i can't cope with this. Which is why I walk away. Stop talking your anger out on me.

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Post by Callisto » Fri May 12, 2006 9:06 pm

I want out.

I don't want to be here anymore.

And right now I doesn't even hurt me to think about how much it would upset you.

I just want to make it all go away permanently.

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Post by ~bluehaze~ » Fri May 12, 2006 9:10 pm

I can't cope anymore.

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Post by Neviah » Sun May 14, 2006 1:00 pm

I want to go away forever, I know that deep down you know you'd find someone else, you deserve so much more than this.. i love you and that's why I want to die..

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Post by (*Haven*) » Sun May 14, 2006 6:13 pm

I've done something I don't feel so good about. I found your address, I know your date of birth. Yeah, it's public record, but I still don't feel right that I have it. And you know I'm going to find your house. I mean, I already know where it is...I knew where it was, I had a really good idea. But now I know your exact address. Oh, I don't know what to do and I feel really bad and I really really really hope this doesn't fuck things up.
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Post by black_23 » Sun May 14, 2006 11:03 pm

J&S I miss you so much, I found our photos today I wish we made more of our time beofre all went away. Thank-u for always being so kind and listening. Miss u so much I hurt.... :(

I dont want to be here, I want to be on my own and in my space, I want to smile and not be angry at you cos you've had too mch.

I know they dont think im good enough, but know what, who cares, who cares at all, cos im trying, i will make myself worth it, and banish everything bad.


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Post by ~starblaze~ » Mon May 15, 2006 6:22 pm

i wish i knew why you lie to me about it. I really hate it when you do, it hurts.

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Post by ~starblaze~ » Mon May 15, 2006 8:58 pm

I wish you had put a smilie at the end of that sentence. It hurt even though i know it was nothing. Im far too sensitive tonight, i think ill go offline for the night.

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Post by (*Haven*) » Mon May 15, 2006 11:16 pm

I passed you on the road today, going to my internship. I wonder if you saw me or not. I saw you, heading to work. And just seeing you for SECONDS made my day! You help me out that much and you'll never know.
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Post by redheadgirl1219 » Tue May 16, 2006 3:09 am

I'm so confused on how I should feel at this point. Should I miss you? Or should I hate you? I cannot get the images and memories of the past year out of my head and its driving me insane. I hurt so much and all I want is for everything to be how they were 6 months ago, before you changed into the person I dont even know.
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Post by ~starblaze~ » Tue May 16, 2006 9:40 am

S - we havent talked for months, years probably and then the second thing you say to me was one that upset me. Made me feel a whole lot different towards you. You were my first friend here and made me feel very welcomed, now i feel so much lower than you when you talk to me.

A - you seem more interested in talking to people you havent seen for 5 years than talking to me, thanks

A - your words stung.

K - i miss you far more than i ever imagined i could. It hurts so much more than anyone knows.

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Post by barnabygirl » Tue May 16, 2006 12:07 pm

Please love me as if i was your daughter, i really need that love.. i never felt like a daughter ever... and i really wish i did.. i want to feel that love.. i feel so empty,,
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Post by bexy » Tue May 16, 2006 7:31 pm

i hate when you ignore me
and i hate when you only get in touch when you need my support
i hate that when i need you you're never there.
but i still care

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Post by Catylyx » Wed May 17, 2006 4:15 am

why?





i don't think i can do it anymore. i'm trying so hard not to snap again.....i'm not getting better....so why even fucking try? the voices won't stop.
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Post by ~starblaze~ » Wed May 17, 2006 10:56 am

K - I have so much i need to tell you, i wish i could hear from you or talk to you. Yesterday was 10 months to the date, i wonder if you realised that or thought about me or it. I wonder if this is hurting you as much as its hurting me. I dont know how much longer i can stay strong, im sorry. I love you

L - thank you, thank you, thank you for everything

A - good luck today, youll be great

J - you've helped to make the last 2 years bearable and have made me laugh and have helped to keep me smiling. I wish i could tell you things but i know it would scare you away. Your so like me in so many ways which has helped me get close to you. You've been such a good friend to me, ill miss you more than you know next year.

M - im sorry for being so lazy and for not knowing what i want to make of my life or having any enthusiasm for anything. I want you to be proud of me, i just dont know what i can do well enough to make you proud, if theres anything.

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Post by Callisto » Wed May 17, 2006 2:52 pm

D:

I feel stupid for suggesting stuff and liking the stuff I do when you laugh at me for it. It makes me scared to tell you things, like the fact that I'm interested in Paganism and Tarot because I'm scared you'll just make me feel stupid about that too.

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Post by lollypop » Wed May 17, 2006 7:59 pm

M: I want you to be here. i want you to hold me and tell me its OK. I want you to show you love me and support me. I don't want you to come home late again so that I dont get to see you. I want you to tell me you care. I'm terrified that you're fed up with me . I'm terrified that Dan will seduce you and you'll leave me for him - not because I dont think you're faithful, but because I dont really feel you love me in the first place. I know you're trying to show it, but I need to be told in plain english rather than having to try to guess.
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Post by black_23 » Wed May 17, 2006 10:37 pm

I wish you would give me a break and stop the little comments. I know I mess up and your disappointed in me but im trying. I dnt drink too mcuh, I havnt in ages I know why you worry after last time but please please see im trying and succeding I can't deal with these comments right now.
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Post by Forget Me » Thu May 18, 2006 7:43 am

simon: can you STOP!!! please! please stop! please stop giving me looks and sending e suggestive texts and making me think that msybe sex with you is worth giving up a relationship with zac cos i know it ISNT! please! please stop torturing me like this!
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