Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

Scatterbrain · Post by **Scatterbrain** » Wed Apr 19, 2006 3:15 am

*PMs welcome*

- I think about SI every single fucking day, but they all think it is out of my life completely
- Today I have 11 months cut free with one slip. I should be happy but instead all I want to do is cut.
- I think there is too much wrong with me for anyone to understand.

~Megan

*.*Black_Star*.* · Post by ***.*Black_Star*.*** » Wed Apr 19, 2006 8:07 pm

When James was getting a bit forawrd with me today i swear i saw the guy who assulated me, i saw his face instead if James's and i freaked out. I dont want to let my SA ruin my life, im sick of it having such a hold on me, i just wish it has been someone other than me 9which is a horrible thing to think, im such a selfish bitch)

black_23 · Post by **black_23** » Wed Apr 19, 2006 11:26 pm

I'm nervous about seeing him incase he shouts at me even though i know i deserve it, for being so selfish and hurting everyone around me.
I started obsessing about ed again, im scared i'll start and not know where to stop.
I pull my hair out when I get scared
I think about si everyday, i wish i could make it go away.

kittyinthemiddle · Post by **kittyinthemiddle** » Fri Apr 21, 2006 6:04 am

SA

i'm scared because i think i miss it... or some of it. i don't remember feeling this lonely then. when i see the last guy that sa-ed me all i think is i wish he still wanted me.

my father is sick and there's a chance it might be serious... i keep catching myself imagining and hoping that it is. i know i don't love him and i know what he did/does to me, but i feel disgusting for thinking these thoughts. i thought i was better than that

comments ok - PM

mephistopheles · Post by **mephistopheles** » Fri Apr 21, 2006 10:53 am

comments ok

when I said I slipped right back into being her boyfriend again, I did. I really did. And now I can't answer her calls. I can't even think about her. She told me the father isn't who she told me it was. I think she's trying to imply that it's me. Except that I so obviously can't deal with it she's scared to.

It can't be me anyway. So she's lying. And that's worse.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Fri Apr 21, 2006 7:34 pm

I want to keep my ED and make it worse even though I know that it'll fuck me up and might mean I can never have kids. The fact that it may fuck me up enough to never be able to have children is one reason why I'll cling to it forever.

shadowavenger · Post by **shadowavenger** » Fri Apr 21, 2006 9:19 pm

Today I threw up because I was ill. I was really happy about it because it was so easy. I only wish I had puked more.

flipflopfetish · Post by **flipflopfetish** » Sat Apr 22, 2006 1:41 am

she really is ignoring me

black_23 · Post by **black_23** » Sun Apr 23, 2006 1:19 am

when im scared i still see her even though she doesnt exist. Im scared to get drunk cos then its easier to be with her even though I lose space even more.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Sun Apr 23, 2006 2:48 am

I feel like an idiot for getting so worked up and freaking out. I'm sorry about that, but when it comes to the idea of you ignoring me I can't help it. It's part of my biggest fear.

Scatterbrain · Post by **Scatterbrain** » Sun Apr 23, 2006 4:59 am

I love wearing the cross that you gave me, because it makes me feel great about my faith adn the fact that I can show it. When you comment on it or make jokes about confession and stuff it just makes me want to take a step back and sasy fuck it. All I want to do right now is cut and go cry in bed with my old music and be stupid. I can never tell you this because you will freak out and not understand.

~Megan

mickeemonkee · Post by **mickeemonkee** » Sun Apr 23, 2006 5:02 am

PMs welcome

-I am really nervous about posting this because I am extremely new to this forum
-I am too obsessed with my SI and it is too new of an obsession for me to not post this despite how nervous I am
-I hide my cuts and then feel neglected/invisible/angry when nobody notices and it makes me think noone cares

on a lighter note...
-I am hiding a male bunny named Barbara-Pogerdig PeRieux (pn-'peru') in my dorm room and anything with hair is strictly not allowed on campus.

kermit · Post by **kermit** » Mon Apr 24, 2006 6:11 pm

I SI'd for no reason at all, just cos.

Sometimes I wish I had an ED but I dont have the control.

whypie · Post by **whypie** » Mon Apr 24, 2006 6:20 pm

I don't want to do this anymore.

marshmallowfluff · Post by **marshmallowfluff** » Mon Apr 24, 2006 6:29 pm

sa

i fucking hated it when you touched my stomach today. one night he did that. it made me feel exactly the same as it did then.

whypie · Post by **whypie** » Mon Apr 24, 2006 7:56 pm

I hate seeing other happy when I feel like crap

whypie · Post by **whypie** » Mon Apr 24, 2006 7:56 pm

I hate seeing others happy when I feel like crap

black_23 · Post by **black_23** » Mon Apr 24, 2006 11:37 pm

I want to cut so bad but im scared i wont stop
I wish I was strong enough to help and not do this but i dont know how
I wish i didnt snap at you when I dont eat but something else takes over
I think i want ot vanish

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Tue Apr 25, 2006 12:15 am

comments ok

You 4 are the people who make me feel loved and make me smile, even if I do only know 2 of you through BUS. I don't know what I'd do if I could never talk to you again...I think it might make me fall apart.

shadowavenger · Post by **shadowavenger** » Tue Apr 25, 2006 2:33 am

I want to get worse, I want to hit rock bottom because that is the only way I will find the courage to SU

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