last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by slinky » Tue Apr 18, 2006 5:52 pm

I didn't want to make things worse between us.
Pray now baby. Pray your life was just a dream... just a dream.

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Post by irishpecas14 » Tue Apr 18, 2006 10:04 pm

because:
last night i told one of my best friends that i SI. I'm trying to get better.
i was too tired.
it's hot outside. so hot! and i've been wearing long sleeves for three years.

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Post by dbms » Sat Apr 22, 2006 1:03 am

Because it really wouldn't change anything. In the morning I would still have the same problems and new scars to hide.
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Post by there_is_hope » Sun Apr 23, 2006 9:12 pm

because I want to stay si free. and I want to have no more scars and to be able to wear t-shirts and tank tops again.
"Keep Moving Forward."- Meet the Robinsons

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Post by ~bluehaze~ » Mon Apr 24, 2006 2:34 pm

I don't want her to see any more scars on me.

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Post by nixvision » Tue Apr 25, 2006 7:00 am

...because I promised I'd stop :heart: && my scars are only making things worse. :roll:
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Post by Callisto » Wed May 03, 2006 12:50 pm

because i was too tired...and forgot the morning after.

because he was meant to be calling me.

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Post by balletomane » Fri May 12, 2006 12:41 pm

because I realized that even though the urge wasn't fun. neither was it the end of the world.

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Post by ~starblaze~ » Mon May 15, 2006 9:04 pm

because i dont want proof that im not coping by myself.

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Post by ~starblaze~ » Sun May 21, 2006 10:20 am

because i knew it would pass because it always does as i push things back to the back of my mind and also because i didnt want her to come home and find out that i had hurt myself.

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Post by WalkingStick » Tue May 23, 2006 7:15 pm

the last time I wanted to cut and didnt (last night): i sat in the corner of my room and stared at the other wall, and clutched the necklace my sister gave to me on my 1year cut-free aniversary, and cried.

i knew how proud of me she is. and i thought about how much i miss her. and how the next time i see her, i want to be happy and still clean.


i see her in two days.

(she lives 16 hours from me now.)
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Post by Ticonderoga » Thu May 25, 2006 1:44 am

It was in the middle of the night, and I was feeling really upset. I called up my best friend and told her to distract me. She imediatly knew what I meant, and we talked about nothing for an hour at least.
I was in heavon, I was in hell. Beleived in neither, but feared them as well.

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Post by pretty » Sat May 27, 2006 2:41 pm

I promised myself a cup of tea and a muffin instead because I knew what I really needed was comfort. Then I had my cup of tea and muffin :)
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Post by Hisforever » Sun May 28, 2006 6:09 am

knowing that I am graduating on Thursday and the ugly robe/gown thing I have to wear is short sleeved.

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Post by WalkingStick » Sun May 28, 2006 4:27 pm

because my two-year-old neice took me by the hand and lead me to the swing set and we sang the ABC's.
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Post by troubles undone » Sun May 28, 2006 4:47 pm

because my parents were in the house...I still can cut with them there, but im always scared that they will call me downstairs when im in the middle of the business or one of them will come up to my room :o

Also because my tools are becoming a bit blunt and...it just makes things difficult and awkward

I don't feel like i can ask someone to distractt m cos no-one really knows enough of my situation (people know different bits) also because i don't want to bother others, especially during the early hours of the morning

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Post by Aimzzz » Mon May 29, 2006 8:21 am

because i looked at the scars i had and realized i didn't want to add on to it. because i called up my best friend (who used to SI) and he kept telling me not to and that he really cared about me. because i know my boyfriend loves me and would be really upset/disappointed if i did. because i gave away my blades and scissors to help me stop. because i cried to a friend about it rather than taking physical action. because i keep a rubberband or hairband around my wrist to snap (only once or twice) rather than cutting. and finally, because i realized that what was making me so upset wasn't worth hurting myself for.

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Post by swanfaerie » Thu Jun 01, 2006 6:06 am

my kids were home.
Don't do anything stupid.
It's hard to ignore a naked person.
You're a good boy too, Mommy


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Post by Wall » Fri Jun 02, 2006 4:09 am

kids around
no place to cut that h wouldn't see
like it to be a personal thing
Fearless warriors in a picket fence
Reckless abandon wrapped in common sense
Deep water faith in the shallow end
And we are caught in the middle


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Post by Spidey » Fri Jun 02, 2006 8:07 pm

decided to watch stuff instead
there is, in the end, the letting go.
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