Very frustrated...

[PlaneCrazyYentl]

So, I live in Kansas. I went to the ER the other night and was given fluids for dehydration, moderate ketones, and high blood sugars.....yadda, yadda, yadda. I asked them (crying, practically) for help. I explained that I had already asked my endocrinologist (diabetes doctor) for help and he had told me he'd just keep lowering my insulin and that I "didn't have to worry" and that it "didn't matter if I ate". This is a man I am trusting my want to recover with??? My psych has me on some medication that suppresses my appetite and refuses to let me stop taking it, despite the fact that it isn't even doing what it is supposed to. And my therapist is a very nice person, but he has admitted he has no experience in dealing with the things I need the most help in - ED, GID, and DID. I was begging the ER for help. And today I spent all day calling every number they gave me and hunting down every lead. I already knew before I dialed the first one that it would be rather hopeless.

*sighs*

Basically, if you are on MedicAid in Kansas and you have an eating disorder, you may as well order your tombstone now. No one will help you. The places that TAKE MedicAid don't offer ED services. There are *NO* 12-step groups left in Wichita (the last one I went to, folded in November) that meet for people who SUFFER from EDs. There is an awesome ED specialist in town, but I could never in a million years afford her and the only inpatient hospital that has an ED ward is private and won't take MedicAid.

*frowns*

And I am scared out of my mind. Seizures, dramatic weight loss, same-old feelings coming back, same horrid thoughts once again getting louder, and there seems to be no hope. This already came close to killing me a couple of times before and I'm certain it could get luckier this time. I'm a rather optimistic person, all things considered.....so if this hits me this hard, I can't even imagine what the mortality rate is for most anorexics in this town. I don't even want to think about it. Any ideas? Affordable ones?

- Isaac

[plantt]

call the specialist & hospital & ask what they'd suggest in terms of options. explain what you've been trying, what places you've contacted... say that you're looking for help & ask if they know of any therapist or such... explain that you're on medicaid. some places are willing to do sliding-scale, payment plans, etc.

[Eccie]

Unfotnately I don't really have any advice, but I did want to let you know I read and I'm sorry things are so hard for you. *hugs* (if ok).
Take care of yourself and never give up,
Ec