I cant get away from this trigger!

[Scatterbrain]

I play left and center field for my fastpitch team, and those are the two positions that I feel confident in and love, esp. left. Last year I was the only one willing to play catcher and ended up playing there for 7 games. The stress of learnng that new position and all of the pressure that went with it only made my SI worse. This year I am in the same predicament. I played catcher for two games already this season. The first one was ok, but by the middle of the second game I was REALLY urgy and panicky. I was able to finish the game, but I came REALLY close to slipping when I got home. I mentioned to my coach that I really dont want to play catcher b/c I puts me back in the "bad place I was last year" He doesnt know about my SI... He just said that I had to face that adversity and work through it. He doesnt know about my past except that we were on a retreat and I mentioned I was self destructing and that I became a Christian last year. I dont know what to do. Do I refuse to play the position again, tell him in detail why I dont want to, or just hope that the situation wont come up again? The thing is that I am a people pleaser and always end up being the "marytr" and picking up the slack for everyone else... I'm really confused, so any advice would be great!

~Megan

[plantt]

how do you work through learning other new things?

what sorts of things could you do so that you could learn catcher safely?

i'd not suggest giving a lot of detail if you choose to not play catcher.