I'm proud of myself today because....

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Post by pandora » Thu Feb 23, 2006 10:38 pm

*si*

I had this REALLY powerful urge to cut myself last night and I managed not to.

That is good. I don't exactly *feel* the proud part, but I know in my head that it is good. So that will be enough for now :star:

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Post by Guest » Fri Feb 24, 2006 8:59 am

...I got tons of stuff done at work today, even things that I wasnt told to do. I also got to tell my friend over there about my SI and depression issues. Finally after quite some time, I just feel like I had a great day!

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Post by Guest » Fri Feb 24, 2006 1:59 pm

A - thank you

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Post by ~starblaze~ » Fri Feb 24, 2006 6:21 pm

Im proud of myself for filling up the car with petrol for the first time on my own. (i know it sounds really small and pathetic :oops: :roll: )

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Post by OverTheWorst » Fri Feb 24, 2006 7:11 pm

WELL DONE! It doesnt sound sad and pathetic...i still hate doing it!

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Post by ebmcs » Sat Feb 25, 2006 3:09 am

*** warning - SI/ED





I am proud of myself because I made it through an almost 4 hour long urge!!!!

I said, "I'm going to play some worship songs and then if I still feel like it, okay." So I washed dishes, still felt bad, played for almost an hour, still felt bad.... but decided I'd keep putting it off. Downloaded "Come to Jesus," my favorite hymn, kept listening to it. Still was struggling. Called my aunt. Still wanted to give in. Killed some time with the Internet and here and such. Then I was about to give in, but as a last ditch effort turned on the TV and caught the last 30 minutes of a Lifetime movie about a woman with ED.... it's hard to explain, but that's what finally calmed me down... because since ED isn't my struggle, I could see how it was hurting her and how she'd be "better off" by giving it up, even though it was hard as all get out to do so... and she was.... and so anyway, I began to see my battle as worth fighting and the feelings of sadness, etc. as a normal part of life that I just wasn't used to... and just like her, I used to just push things down, and it's good that I'm not anymore.... and just like her, my family expected me to be perfect and I am finally letting that go...., and suddenly somewhere in all of that the urge was gone.

That makes 3 weeks, 5 days. And before that it was almost 3 weeks, so that's nearly a month and a half with just one slip...

So ahhhhhhh relief is sweet but sometimes quite too short.
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Post by amyfairy » Sat Feb 25, 2006 4:57 pm

i'm trying.

and an essay i had an A- in got increased to an A.
one person got an A+ and i was one of three to get an A.

out of 200+

wow :o
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Post by angel2262 » Sat Feb 25, 2006 9:03 pm

I got through a bad night last night without cutting. I'm Proud Of Myself For that.
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Post by pointeless » Sun Feb 26, 2006 12:24 am

I went to Hull college auditions and was made a conditional offer of a place for next year entry :D
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Post by piglet » Sun Feb 26, 2006 1:00 am

pointeless, that is fantastic, well done! :blush:

I am proud of myself for telling my best friend that she had been so inwardly focussed in the past few months that I am left feeling unimportant, and uncared for. I know it wasn't her intention to make me feel this way, she was just being a bit thoughtless, but I didn't want the resentment I am feeling to grow and ruin things. Last week I told her some serious news about me, and she didn't mention it in a whole week, just talked about her and her family. I told her, and she took it. Text today indicates she has really thought about it, lets hope she hangs onto it.
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Post by (*Haven*) » Mon Feb 27, 2006 5:36 am

I am proud of myself because I got more of my apartment cleaned up, and I did a homework assignment early.
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Post by shadowavenger » Tue Mar 07, 2006 8:13 pm

well done (*Haven*) :)

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Post by Poya Maitri » Tue Mar 07, 2006 9:09 pm

good job shadowavenger :star:

at least i showed up (to therapy)

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Post by arianwen1174 » Wed Mar 08, 2006 5:17 am

I called my boys (ages 13 & 15). I try to call them every weekend but have been very isolative lately and that's gotten in the way of my calls to my guys.
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Post by theodore » Wed Mar 08, 2006 7:26 pm

I made a phone call
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Post by kittyinthemiddle » Tue Mar 14, 2006 4:10 am

i'm proud of myself today because i ate lunch and told myself i wasn't failing by doing so. i don't know if i beleive myself
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Post by arianwen1174 » Tue Mar 14, 2006 10:47 am

I made it through shopping without dissociating very much at all or overspending. (For the record, I love shopping, just find it hard lately...)
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Post by pretty » Tue Mar 14, 2006 6:25 pm

:1hurray: :1hurray: :1hurray: :1hurray: :1hurray:

You're all awesome.

I'm proud of myself because I got past feeling crappy this morning and had a good day.
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Post by pointeless » Tue Mar 14, 2006 11:48 pm

good going noteven :) :star:

I'm proud of myself today because I recomposed myself after getting in a state after my T app and still managed to go back in for tap dance class after college
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Post by there_is_hope » Mon Apr 03, 2006 2:44 am

I'm proud of myself today for making it a month si free. and today I also called up one of my friends and we went to the movies.
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