what's your anti-si?
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[quote="Naiia"]
When I'm feeling safe, I get a little box that I put my tools in. Then I tape the box shut like crazy and "hide" it somewhere. That way, I still have my tools and I can still get to them if I really *need* to (if I simply throw them out, it's only counterproductive), but it will take me a long time to open that box, and I'll have that entire time to think about whether or not I really want to do it.[quote]
I tried that a while ago and it worked for some time. I wrapped it up loads of tape and the first few times I tried when I got an urge to cut it took me agaes trying to undo the tape and the urge had pretty much gone by then
I should really do this again. It helped.
When I'm feeling safe, I get a little box that I put my tools in. Then I tape the box shut like crazy and "hide" it somewhere. That way, I still have my tools and I can still get to them if I really *need* to (if I simply throw them out, it's only counterproductive), but it will take me a long time to open that box, and I'll have that entire time to think about whether or not I really want to do it.[quote]
I tried that a while ago and it worked for some time. I wrapped it up loads of tape and the first few times I tried when I got an urge to cut it took me agaes trying to undo the tape and the urge had pretty much gone by then
I should really do this again. It helped.
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1) Writing.
2) Going on the computer.
3) Sleeping.
4) Punching things
5) Screaming into pillows
6) Taking a bike ride
7) Playing with my dog.
Watching mind-umbing TV.
2) Going on the computer.
3) Sleeping.
4) Punching things
5) Screaming into pillows
6) Taking a bike ride
7) Playing with my dog.
Watching mind-umbing TV.
I know I believe in nothing but it is my nothing
sleep can't hide the thoughts splitting through my mind
shadows aren't clean, false mirrors, too many people awake
if you stand up like a nail then you will be knocked down
I've been too honest with myself I should have lied like everybody else
-Manic Street Preachers
sleep can't hide the thoughts splitting through my mind
shadows aren't clean, false mirrors, too many people awake
if you stand up like a nail then you will be knocked down
I've been too honest with myself I should have lied like everybody else
-Manic Street Preachers
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ok...once again an old post and wish i seen this a few days ago. *sigh*
things i have tried/done in the past is....
paint my finger nails...i do ALL kinds of funky colors!(even got into my girls polish)sometimes ill take it all off and do it again in a different color.
(unfortunately it didnt work a couple of days ago)
write in my journal what i want to do(in GREAT BIG GIANT letters!)you would think it makes you focus on it...but it does work.
HUG my dog!
listen to fave songs "wheathered" & "dont stop dancin" by creed and "in the arms of an angel" by sarah mclaughin REALLY LOUD!
wash dishes...even if you have to REwash them (least you know theyre clean =)
JUST TAKE IT MIN BY MIN!!
and as i said...the ones i tried didnt work for me a couple of days ago. (urge too 'big' i guess)BUT...it held it off a lil longer.
things i have tried/done in the past is....
paint my finger nails...i do ALL kinds of funky colors!(even got into my girls polish)sometimes ill take it all off and do it again in a different color.
(unfortunately it didnt work a couple of days ago)
write in my journal what i want to do(in GREAT BIG GIANT letters!)you would think it makes you focus on it...but it does work.
HUG my dog!
listen to fave songs "wheathered" & "dont stop dancin" by creed and "in the arms of an angel" by sarah mclaughin REALLY LOUD!
wash dishes...even if you have to REwash them (least you know theyre clean =)
JUST TAKE IT MIN BY MIN!!
and as i said...the ones i tried didnt work for me a couple of days ago. (urge too 'big' i guess)BUT...it held it off a lil longer.
Hugs&Love
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*Im Normal...Everyone <i>Else</i> Is Weird!*
"Me...Im rusted and weathered,
Barely holing together
Im covered with skin that peels
And it just wont heal!"
~Creed~
*FairyChick*:fairy:
*Im Normal...Everyone <i>Else</i> Is Weird!*
"Me...Im rusted and weathered,
Barely holing together
Im covered with skin that peels
And it just wont heal!"
~Creed~
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MY ANTI-SI
writing poetry/stories/whatever comes out of my head
drawing
going for walks (when i can)
chewing a whole bunch of gum
drinking a lot of coffee
organizing my computer
changing my wallpaper on my computer
cleaning my room (if i have a whole day free b/c when i clean its a BIG job)
watching tv
pulling out the playstation that i keep under my bed (my x b/f gave it me for doing something dirty, luckily i cant remember what)
posting on here (and on Scar Tissue sometimes)
calling my mum/sister/internet friends
chatting with people on yahoo
reading (if my attention span is long enough....sometimes its not)
wrapping my arms around me as tight as i can (if i don't hug me who will)
chewing my finger nails (gotta be carefull that i dont chew them too far)
listening to loud music (KoRn, My Chemical Romance....TONS of bands)
burrying my head in a mound of stuffed animals
cuddling under my blanket (its a fleece blanket that has followed me to every place i've lived in the past 4 or 5 years....it is very comforting....i have taken it to the doc's a coupple times when i needed it)
eating (i try not to do this too much b/c i don't wanna get fat)
surfing the internet
there are other things that i can't remember at the moment
writing poetry/stories/whatever comes out of my head
drawing
going for walks (when i can)
chewing a whole bunch of gum
drinking a lot of coffee
organizing my computer
changing my wallpaper on my computer
cleaning my room (if i have a whole day free b/c when i clean its a BIG job)
watching tv
pulling out the playstation that i keep under my bed (my x b/f gave it me for doing something dirty, luckily i cant remember what)
posting on here (and on Scar Tissue sometimes)
calling my mum/sister/internet friends
chatting with people on yahoo
reading (if my attention span is long enough....sometimes its not)
wrapping my arms around me as tight as i can (if i don't hug me who will)
chewing my finger nails (gotta be carefull that i dont chew them too far)
listening to loud music (KoRn, My Chemical Romance....TONS of bands)
burrying my head in a mound of stuffed animals
cuddling under my blanket (its a fleece blanket that has followed me to every place i've lived in the past 4 or 5 years....it is very comforting....i have taken it to the doc's a coupple times when i needed it)
eating (i try not to do this too much b/c i don't wanna get fat)
surfing the internet
there are other things that i can't remember at the moment
~ Samantha
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write a story with yourself as central figure and "make' yourself as beautiful as you want and let happen some cool,great,funny thinks to yourself and end the story with a happy ending!!! and you can also make some drawings by it, after a while you can read everything and it might calm you down....... it works or me....
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my internet friends germ and pearl
knitting (it's dangerous sometimes though)
writing letters to my SI ("the guest", as i call it)
the fear of being caught
singing
text messaging
music (U2)
a single slap on my face
cold water
taking deep breaths
this message board
looking at myself in the mirror when i'm thinking of SIing or when i'm about to SI
TV
knitting (it's dangerous sometimes though)
writing letters to my SI ("the guest", as i call it)
the fear of being caught
singing
text messaging
music (U2)
a single slap on my face
cold water
taking deep breaths
this message board
looking at myself in the mirror when i'm thinking of SIing or when i'm about to SI
TV
NEVER AGAIN.....sometime soon
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music. singing calms me down, or listening to my favorite song. it usually let's me get out a good cry, too.
art. looking at it or making it. i made a completely non-representational piece about the emotions of SI and it is still one of the most amazing pieces i've ever done. view at at my deviantart http://www.lilmisstickykiss.deviantart.com
writing a LOT. just writing feelings over and over again and not letting myself stop until i'm tired. writing with red marker or pen also helps.
naps and Buster my plush bumblebee! they always give me permission to cuddle up and take time out and forget.
art. looking at it or making it. i made a completely non-representational piece about the emotions of SI and it is still one of the most amazing pieces i've ever done. view at at my deviantart http://www.lilmisstickykiss.deviantart.com
writing a LOT. just writing feelings over and over again and not letting myself stop until i'm tired. writing with red marker or pen also helps.
naps and Buster my plush bumblebee! they always give me permission to cuddle up and take time out and forget.
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1. Stay busy to distract myself.
2. My plan for when I am very triggered is as follows:
- Write it out, Paint it out...get it out somehow
- Blast music and sing along
- Call a friend and vent indirectly or just as a distraction
- Read a book to distract myself
- Get my stuffed animals and some crayons and a coloring book, and sit down in front of my favorite kids movie (An American Tail, Goofy Movie, Jimmy Neutron, Spider-Man 2, Monsters Inc., Aladdin, or Casper)
- Nice hot bubble bath (tools removed or given to a friend for safe-keeping, if I am VERY triggered) and soothing music ... maybe candles or incense, if I trust myself
- Write on myself with marker what I would want to do.....or nailpolish.....or paint
- Tear up paper
- Squeeze ice cubes
- Pray or meditate
If all else fails, I could always take some Melatonin and sleep, hoping I'll feel better when I wake up.
- Isaac
2. My plan for when I am very triggered is as follows:
- Write it out, Paint it out...get it out somehow
- Blast music and sing along
- Call a friend and vent indirectly or just as a distraction
- Read a book to distract myself
- Get my stuffed animals and some crayons and a coloring book, and sit down in front of my favorite kids movie (An American Tail, Goofy Movie, Jimmy Neutron, Spider-Man 2, Monsters Inc., Aladdin, or Casper)
- Nice hot bubble bath (tools removed or given to a friend for safe-keeping, if I am VERY triggered) and soothing music ... maybe candles or incense, if I trust myself
- Write on myself with marker what I would want to do.....or nailpolish.....or paint
- Tear up paper
- Squeeze ice cubes
- Pray or meditate
If all else fails, I could always take some Melatonin and sleep, hoping I'll feel better when I wake up.
- Isaac
Last edited by PlaneCrazyYentl on Wed Apr 05, 2006 5:05 am, edited 2 times in total.
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<I><B>"I can't remember to forget..."</I></B>
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- James Branch Cabell
<I><B>"I can't remember to forget..."</I></B>
- Memento
<I><B><a href="http://www.blurty.com/users/dontspeak">Don't speak</A></B>, for I fear all I have are <B><a href="http://www.xanga.com/waistedscars">waisted scars</A></B> mocking me and reminding me that I am <B><a href="http://www.xanga.com/neversafe">never truly safe</A></B>. Through this <B><a href="http://finestraditempo.livejournal.com/">window of time</A></B>, I can see the <B><a href="http://www.xanga.com/lastunicorn">last unicorn</A></B> and <B><a href="http://www.xanga.com/unicorntags">once more</A></B>, it faces it's own <B><a href="http://www.xanga.com/doesthismeanwar">extinction</A></B>. I must hold my head high, no matter what's true: Lesbian Catholic or <B><a href="http://www.xanga.com/genderqueerjew">Genderqueer</A></B> <B><a href="http://www.planecrazyjew.blogspot.com/">Jew</A></B>. Why do we need reminders that we don't have to <B><a href="http://starvingforlove.deadjournal.com/">starve for love</A></B>? And then there are the things that <B><a href="http://www.blurty.com/users/nobodyknows">nobody knows</A></B>, about the ones left behind and those who <B><a href="http://www.xanga.com/thebetrayercds">betrayed</A></B> us. Sometimes I feel like I'm on a mission to bring a <B><a href="http://www.myspace.com/elytheriamalak">Message</A></B> to anyone who would listen, but who hears a <a href="http://www.youtube/leglessman"><B>legless man</A></B> who's <B><a href="http://www.xanga.com/garcondanslecoin">plane crazy</A></B>, so I'm <B><a href="http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=157400091">left in my head</A></B> with just the Others and me in <B><a href="http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=95098">My Place</A></B>.
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my anti-si is
listening to my ipod or itunes
chat on msn
writing in my journal
walking on the threadmill
watching dvds (non triggering i like disney dvd movies)
coloring
surfing the internet and also downloading new songs to put in my ipod
my doggie is also my anti si * he is such a good company
*B* one of my best online friends she is like a sister to me she is kind of like my yonger sister we have been through rought times and we understand each other , she is like a sister to me
listening to my ipod or itunes
chat on msn
writing in my journal
walking on the threadmill
watching dvds (non triggering i like disney dvd movies)
coloring
surfing the internet and also downloading new songs to put in my ipod
my doggie is also my anti si * he is such a good company
*B* one of my best online friends she is like a sister to me she is kind of like my yonger sister we have been through rought times and we understand each other , she is like a sister to me
I've just began quitting seriously... Well I expected it to be hard.
My coping methods include:
Running/swimming/excersising/going for a walk
Writing everything I'm feeling, making a pros and cons list
Showering in the dark (or perhaps with a candle)
Wearing long sleeves and a tight shirt
Being around people , not closing my room door when I study, studying in the kitchen, calling someone who loves me
Removing hair from legs/armpits
Cooking or eating
My coping methods include:
Running/swimming/excersising/going for a walk
Writing everything I'm feeling, making a pros and cons list
Showering in the dark (or perhaps with a candle)
Wearing long sleeves and a tight shirt
Being around people , not closing my room door when I study, studying in the kitchen, calling someone who loves me
Removing hair from legs/armpits
Cooking or eating
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this is maybe not really what is meant, BUT - it is very important point
it is called - IT'S NEVER TO LATE TO STOP
because for me, when I start, I usually don't stop until my condition is very bad.
so I'm trying now to follow my own rule - stop, when the damage is not so big yet. I mean, the same moment I realise, what I am really doing and how I'm gonna feel afterwards, I choose to stop. It takes will though. But it works. And I feel better, actually very good, for having guts to stop my urge.
I am too messy to try to draw or paint at these moments.
I write. a lot. I have two journals and I also write on paper. everywhere, where I can really.
it is called - IT'S NEVER TO LATE TO STOP
because for me, when I start, I usually don't stop until my condition is very bad.
so I'm trying now to follow my own rule - stop, when the damage is not so big yet. I mean, the same moment I realise, what I am really doing and how I'm gonna feel afterwards, I choose to stop. It takes will though. But it works. And I feel better, actually very good, for having guts to stop my urge.
I am too messy to try to draw or paint at these moments.
I write. a lot. I have two journals and I also write on paper. everywhere, where I can really.
Right now my anti-si is the look on my friends face when I told her I'd made it two weeks! She was soo pleased for me....
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- Hisforever
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I know most of these have already been said... I am sorry to repeat.
1) Hug my dog... or just be close to him - I hate disappointing him
2) Go for a drive - anywhere, just need to get away from things there is nothing like driving with the windows down and really loud music blasting
3) Blasting music (like most people have said)
4) Calling a friend - even just to chat about anything not necessarily what you are upset about
5) Colour - I am not creative enough to draw or write poetry so I colour in colouring books
6) Go for a walk
7) Eat
Make Lists - of whatever, but just something to get my mind off of my urges
9) Sudoko puzzles
10) Euchre online
Thats my list of things, I know its mainly repeats, sorry about that. I am not very creative.
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1) Hug my dog... or just be close to him - I hate disappointing him
2) Go for a drive - anywhere, just need to get away from things there is nothing like driving with the windows down and really loud music blasting
3) Blasting music (like most people have said)
4) Calling a friend - even just to chat about anything not necessarily what you are upset about
5) Colour - I am not creative enough to draw or write poetry so I colour in colouring books
6) Go for a walk
7) Eat
Make Lists - of whatever, but just something to get my mind off of my urges
9) Sudoko puzzles
10) Euchre online
Thats my list of things, I know its mainly repeats, sorry about that. I am not very creative.
Hisforever ><>
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-video games
-the internet
-playing sports with my brothers
-but my best are sit ups push ups and running if I get the urge to SI I just do sit ups like crazy untill I can't anymore that uselly knocks out the urge but if not I run for as long as I can then walk then run again
-the internet
-playing sports with my brothers
-but my best are sit ups push ups and running if I get the urge to SI I just do sit ups like crazy untill I can't anymore that uselly knocks out the urge but if not I run for as long as I can then walk then run again
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Because you know your flaws that makes you perfect,,but if you think your perfect that makes you flawed..
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